290 days. Having an odd day and sitting with some uncomfortable feelings. Working through abandonment issues that subsequently led to unhealthy attachment issues has me questioning all types of relationships in my life. I swore to myself that I would not live in fear of repeating my past but fuck it’s difficult. A day to myself is what I desire and am going to try my best to keep any sabotaging thoughts at bay. Quite a lovely day outside but I see a day of hanging inside under a blanket.
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294 days. As I shed a few tears after my family left yesterday I realized that time alone is really what I needed and I’m going to embrace this week. It’s funny how my friends and my son commented that I better not kill my roommate. I have been doing a lot of thinking about the whole scenario and I’m satisfied with not interacting with him at all. I honestly don’t care whether he likes me or not and if I don’t interact with him he will have nothing to whine to my man about; not about me anyway. I am going to enjoy the time with myself and take pleasure in knowing that my man & the girls will come home to a different side of me. Off to blast some tunes & continue my deep cleaning mission.
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Enjoy your quality time with yourself! You’re in good company 
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296 days. Working on cooling off my jets before confronting the roommate. I haven’t been this angry in years and it feels so good to not want to drink these feelings and thoughts away. It also feels good to hear my man is behind me. I plan to tell the roommate that I understand he doesn’t like me and I’m ok with that. I’m going to tell him I don’t lie, cheat or steal and I’ll be damned if he’s going to accuse me of any of the three. I’m going to tell him to stop making issues where there are none or he may as well pack his bags. Either stay out of my business or move along. Now I need to envision myself going to him and calmly saying this instead of finding pleasure in knocking him the fuck out.
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We have the same issues and I’m proud of you for everything you do to take care of yourself 
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I’m glad you’re taking your time to talk to him; it’d be tempting to go Rambo on him, lol…
It would be hard for me not to as who TF he thinks he is trying to get in the middle of your relationship; you know, the people who were kind enough to let you live here! And since we’re on that is there an expiration date to your residency here??! 
Oh God; that felt good, lol.
Be cool; you’re in the drivers seat.
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I went and knocked on his door and told him we needed to talk. He said no and I said yes or he should start packing his bags. He began to say something about not appreciating people in his room and I quickly cut him off saying I hadn’t set foot in that room since his sorry ass ended up in it. Told him my man knew this conversation was happening and I’d be waiting downstairs. Over half an hour later he had yet to come down so I went to the stairs and asked him if he would be long. He replied that he was on the phone and again I asked if he would be long to which he replied yes. I have a lil over an hour to wait and then I’m off to take my older brother in-law to town. It’s hilarious cuz there’s no sound coming from upstairs so it’s an amazing phone call he’s on. I’ll just sit here waiting and wishing and dreaming that I was a guy and could just cold clock the fucker.
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It absolutely irritates me that there’s a typo but I texted this to the roommate and sent another text saying not to worry about crying to my man as he knew I’m sending this. I have no way of knowing when or if he has read it and I’m good with that. I will continue on like he’s not even here. He had better stay the fuck away from me until my man comes home. Thank fuck for sobriety and all of you 
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Just became aware that I’ve said my words and honestly don’t care if I speak to or of him again. He has rented enough space in my head. I will officially cut my ties with him prior to going to bed tonight.
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Hi Michelle, Only just picking up on threads, I’ve been moving yet again. Well from the tone of the letter it is clear who the toxic one really is. Just take it as a reflection of her, she is projecting and I would not be surprised if she was drunk when she wrote the letter.
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She’s actually 2 years + sober but I used what I posted above and she’s out of my life. I’ve worked too hard to let toxic people back into my life.
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Now I need to work on ridding my life of a toxic person. Your input is always appreciated Graham.
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Needed to copy my post from the main checking in thread so I have it here for future me. @Piglet you might haven’t seen this so it could shed light on my venting lol.
296 days. I need to reach out for advice today. My roommate has gotten under my skin and I’m not certain what I should do going forward. Do I confront the asshole or just know he’s an asshole and ignore him? Yesterday I purchased both he and I a bingo card for last night’s bingo. When I came home I said hello to him again and got no response as there has been no response the previous two days when I said good morning or good day. I had decided yesterday that I’m just done with him and any further effort is deemed futile and undesirable. I spoke to my man about it last night and explained that I’m ok with the roommate not liking me and going forward I would have nothing to do with him. My man appeared to support my choice and then shocked the shit out of me. Apparently the roommate texted him yesterday questioning if he needs a lock on his bedroom door as he indicated I had stolen from him. This fucken set me off. I don’t lie, cheat or steal and I’ll be damned if the fucker is going to accuse me of shit. While keeping my cool I told the roommate if he had a fucken problem with me to talk to me and not go crying to my man. I then left the house going to the camper to play bingo. I could feel my temper boiling and knew he lit a fuse. All kinds of thoughts of what I’d like to say to him went through my head. If I had the power, I would tell him he doesn’t need a lock on his bedroom door, he needs a new door to his own house as he can get the fuck out of here. Somehow I need to address his accusation and find closure or I’m going to fucken lose it on him. I come from a place of conflict resolution but right now I would find great pleasure in beating the shit out of him. I have reached out to two friends and am hoping one of them may come sit here as a middle person when I confront the roommate. I will try to write out what I want to say to better prepare for talking to him calmly. The tension and anxiety is building as I write about it and I know I won’t feel better until I’ve said something. I LOVE that I don’t even feel like drinking. I’m the better person and he’s a piece of shit that’s just not worth it.
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Thanks sis I appreciate that. I’ve done this one a couple times but think I’m going to do the ritual with the two candles bound by a string and let them burn 
. I am actually doing a lot better than I was before though. Thank you for thinking of me!!!
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I think of you often bro. Our struggles are often similar and if it works I’ll share. You also know I’ll always be the blunt bitch for ya too Let me know how the candle ritual goes.
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Yeah it’s crazy how we go through a lot of the same shit. I’m convinced you’re my doppelgänger lol. Stay strong sis you’re kicking ass!!!
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Just following in my bro’s footsteps who’s definitely kicking ass. Thanks so much for being “here” during our shit.
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I wouldn’t have it any other way
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I’m hanging in my camper belting out tunes and my buddy suggests I go sing on my system inside just to disturb the roommate. He understands my level of Bitch bahahahahahahaha
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