It’s a full on amp with mic 
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Fuck yeah I say DO IT LOL!!! 
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Thanks Michelle. It sounds like you are cutting toxic relationships out of your life. Well done, you don’t deserve this. I’m glad you are not dealing with these people by drinking, and so far have not resorted to violence! You are in control.
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Stayed in the camper and just enjoyed my own company. However, I think cleaning today is going to involve my amp. He can stay couped up in his room cuz I’m going to make it uncomfortable anywhere else in the house. The badass bitch in me is done taking his shit and I’m done showing him any ounce of respect.
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297 days. Sober and surprisingly not even thinking of drinking. Although I stuck to the Bose speaker, sparks flew this morning. He was screaming at me to wear earphones and I went running upstairs and told him he didn’t deserve any respect after blatantly disrespecting me in my house. He commented that it’s not my house. I said I’m together with *** and this is our house and if you don’t like it you can get the fuck out. Shortly thereafter I got a call from my man as of course the roommate went crying to him. I gave my man a blast too. Said I wasn’t going to tolerate this in my house and unless he was going to tell me what to do I would continue with whatever the fuck I’m doing. My fam isn’t coming home until tomorrow and initially I was tempted to go stay somewhere tonight. Now I’m like FUCK THAT I’m going to enjoy my clean house before the girls flip it lol. Went for a good drive this afternoon and am going to chill on the couch with some Netflix.
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I’m really digging living vicariously through your badassery and standing up for yourself. Just be careful and safe.
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I can hardly wait for it to be over. I’m mentally drained and physically exhausted. These are effects of toxic people and energies. If I can’t get rid of him, I will stand my ground and slowly reinforce the barrier between us by laying out thick boundaries.
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All smart thinking there lady. Hang in strong, you’ve got this.
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Good for you, Michelle. You are one strong lady and I love how you’re standing up for yourself. That roommate will eventually wind up in that body bag. You can hide out here when that day comes. All kidding side, you are making some remarkable changes in all aspects of your life.
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You’re a bad ass sis! Good job sticking up for yourself!!!
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298 days. My lil fam is on the highway and should be home in around 5 hours. I honestly feel like a lil kid at Christmas. My heart feels like it’s going to burst and the love I have for these three is more than evident. Finished cleaning and then smudged the main floor of the house asking for guidance to release my negative energies and requesting assistance to remove negative energies from our home. The beautiful day that was forecast hasn’t arrived and apparently snow is on the way! Just finishing up some laundry and am going to try my best to have a nap. My nerves feel better after smudging but I still feel emotionally drained. I’m preparing for things around here to get worse before they get better but my gloves are on and I’m standing my ground.
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Not only are they almost home but my man is stopping and picking me up a chicken shawarma. I can hardly wait to be in his arms and have the girls in mine. It has been a trying week and it’s going to be so great to have them all home, including the other roommate.
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301 days. When will the battles stop? I no longer wanna battle people or obstacles, I just want some peace. I’m on the verge of tears too often today and know I need to release them but not wanting puffy eyes prior to my interview. I am trying to hang in there but I feel my dam is going to burst. Don’t feel like drinking and feel deep pride for my sobriety today. Had a great talk with an old friend. Again it was hard hearing about my ex and our active addiction. I’m thankful to be sober and have a clear mind even if it scatters from one battle to another lately. Hearing my friend’s pride in me somehow made me sad. . . perhaps grieving the loss of the lost me. Gonna go dawl up my top half for my video interview lol
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Good luck on your interview Michelle!!!
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301 days Wow!!! Im on day 31 and in awe of your strength. You’ve got this 
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303 days. If it were an option, I would curl up in a ball and hide from the day. I’m feeling like I’m wearing my emotions on my sleeve and one lil touch could set me off. The emotions are overwhelming right now and I know it’s a build up of everything. I feel like I want to eat everything in site and at the same time the thought of eating is nauseating. If I don’t get a job soon I need to plan a roadtrip of sorts. I am feeling like I’m stuck in a vicious cycle of having to put up with other people’s shit and I just want to be alone. I would give anything to have our house to ourselves and just have to deal with having patience to become a loved, respected and appreciated stepmom and partner. If nothing else I can feel myself getting stronger but I’m filled with so much anger and sadness right now that it’s unsettling. Beer would only make everything worse but right now I just want to hop off the merry-go-round and make the world go away.
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Hang in there Michelle, something good is bound to break for you super soon. You’re in my thoughts my friend, deep breaths…
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307 days. Feeling like I’m catching a head cold and its wearing me down. Have a late afternoon interview today so am going to try my best to rest up. The roommate I like left yesterday to get some things done back in his hometown. I actually cried a couple times as I will truly miss him. His awesome humor gets me through some days and his understanding and poking fun at the other roommate brings my anger levels down. I spoke of the other roommate and explained how I would be celebrating if he left. I can only pray that day comes sooner than later. It seems my man is more aware of this guy’s negativity and my lacking involvement in his bullshit drama. Things have been going well for our lil family and I will keep plugging away.
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309 days. Sitting here anxiously awaiting a phone call from the company I’m hoping to work for. The seconds are ticking by and I know until I get the phone call, it’s going to feel like an eternity. In an odd emotional space today and although not wanting to isolate per se, I just want to be alone. I have done a lot of reflection over the past few days and I’m emotionally exhausted. The whole scenario with my ex has played over and over on loop in my mind. How I tolerated, nevermind accepted, his toxic behavior is now baffling. Yet while I was drinking I thought I had it all and was in a loving relationship. Amazing how active addiction can place blinders on that you don’t realize until you’re sober. It sure makes me thankful for where I am in life now and the lil family I’m part of.
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Amen sis I can totally relate!
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