It wasn’t so bad… thanks for askin … I didn’t sleep well either … I just lay awake at night tossing and turning until sunrise then usually pass out for a couple hours lol … but I gotta say I feel like the other symptoms are getting easier by the day… after days 14/15 they seemed to lessen slightly. Don’t beat urself up about taking that sliver … just consider it a taper step down and keep going!! U got this shit… we got this shit… and I know how u feel… I’d rather die than go thru this shit all over again too… this withdrawal was enough to make me not go back on this stuff.
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Omg how funny I just told someone the other day I got emotional and cried watching the walking dead !! 
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Good morning all. I got 5 hours sleep last night and feel like today is going to be a great day. I’m going to try to wear myself out. I got alot to do. As long as the emotional stuff stays away it will be good .that crap drags my so low makes me just want to isolate myself and be miserable. Erijade that was me you were telling about the walking dead lol that’s so funny. Everyone have a blessed day
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The sooner you come to terms with the fact you are a human and that all humans have emotions which are valid and worthy of being felt the sooner recovery will be reachable for you. Once you are clean off dope you will be feeling all your feelings for the rest of your life. Men feel sad men cry and it’s bullshit that men have been taught they are not allow to feel things. You are allowed to feel things. So embrace your feelings good and bad this is life on lifes terms.
Strong men face their feelings.
Strong men cry
Strong men are vulnerable.
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I agree. Males are taught that we are supposed to “be a man” and suck it up. I got 16 months off dope and alcohol but I’ve been detoxing saboxone. It served it’s purpose during the critical times but now it has its own come down
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Nice congrats on your 16 months and congrats on making the choice to come of the subs now.
One more hurdle then you’re free.
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Feeling it today but not even considering quitting
I got this 
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Today was a great day i was so busy and enjoying it. Now at the end of the day the dread of little sleeps got me bummed out hopefully I will just fall asleep and get 6-7 hours. Oh well I’m still on the sabox recovery trail lol. It sure is crazy the crap we put ourselves through. Have a great weekend my recovering brothers and sisters
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Morning well what a Day yeesterday and last night omg 
cuddling the toilet at best of times 
Ended up fall asleep about 2 hrs ago and woke up feeling better still ruff but nothing like yesterday
How’s you today erijade ?
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Been awake about an hour now and still uncomfortable but compared to yesterday it’s very bearable so far 
Not gonna lie I really really thought about going out on street yesterday to get something it was only that I was so sick I couldn’t but today I feel very posative and ready for whatever it throws at me next
Surely I can’t go back to how I felt yesterday ???
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I’m 18 days today!! Yea bitch!!! Lmao 
… I’m so fuckin proud of us !!! I remember hugging the toilet all too well lol it was only just about a week or so ago lol… it’s all coming out of ya… u can keep going… !! just take it min by min and hour by hour and pretty soon the symptoms will start to lessen … insomnia and headaches are what’s bad now for me but I’m able to manage the headaches with imitrex and Advil. We’re moving right along… keep it up!
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I felt the same way. Wanted to call my dopeman on day 7 but u have come so far… keep going!!
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. No way would I cave in now and feel sooo much better today I swear yesterday was hell but I’d rather die than go back to living that life so it no option 
Day 18 for you Go girl so proud of you u don’t no it but I read your posts all the time to keep me going and to see you on day 18 now makes me happy really happy
Still beating meself for taking that little sliver lmao but I feel a lot better today than yesterday so I’m hoping I’m over the worst now
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Feeling really good and excited right now I might even get a cab into town and get something to eat I swear I’m over the worst if it now and it’s just aches and pains and obviously the night sleep thing but feel so much better today I can’t believe I actually done it
Big big thanks to erijade for all you inspiration and advice
Don’t think I’m getting ahead of myself here it’s just I’ve put myself away from everyone and everything up a mountain for a month and today is the first time since last Friday I’ve felt good enough to go out for something to eat I’m starving I must have lost over a stone in weight
Really really believe I’m over the worst of it now so big thanks to everyone who helped and advised me starting my mission I really really won’t go back to drugs again I’ve wanted off for a couple years now but trying to get away from everyone for long enough to do it was impossible I’ve been lying to my family and friends and hid my addiction but today I feel soo confident happy and excited it’s unreal I no I got another few weeks of shit sleep and anxiousness coming but compared to the last few days I will eat that for breakfast
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Hey Erijade. I stayed outside all day working around the yard on what ever I could trying to burn myself out to the point of exhaustion hoping to get some solid sleep tonight and I think it’s going to work lol. No thoughts of using anything.everyone have a blessed night
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Feeling really sick today worst than yesterday anyone with any reccomendations for the sucky feeling please ???
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Hang in there girl, this all too shall pass.
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I swear to you , had I had any left on me the day I felt reallllyy bad, I got to a point where I woulda caved too… but I didn’t have any left … so I had no choice but to push thru. . And I personally think that ur were ok taking that little tiny piece… just look at like it was an extra step down or taper…I really don’t think that little piece took u back to square one but I know how u few when ur counting the days u last took it, and so it feels like it set u back …but I think ur doing great !! We have both come a long way!! And I’m rooting for u !! I don’t have an option either … I need to do this for me and my son. I’m glad the subutex was there for me when I did needed it but like I’ve said before, it served its purpose and it’s time for me to be done with it.hope u have a great day… ur almost thru the worst of it!!
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I’m so proud of you!! I lost some weight too going thru the withdrawal…I have had the shakes the last couple days … like I have anxiety or feel sped up a little …I can’t even fill my coffee to the top bc I shake so bad when I hold it lol …but I’ll take this symptom over the rest any day. I actually slept a good 8 hours last night … woke up feeling pretty good … I’m happy that u felt like eating a good meal … it’s gona take some time … but we have to re-train our brains to be able to function and find pleasure in life without needing to take all that crap… I want u to kno that U helped me a lot thru this too… I think it helps knowing ur not going thru this alone… when I was alone and desperate on day 5 looking for help, I got a couple apps and just picked this one by chance and it’s really helped me … everyone on here was so kind, helpful, supportive and there was no judgement. I really needed that. Not to mention , being able to see the sober clock and know that I didn’t want to go back to it helped me so much. I don’t know if I could have done it without this app 
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If it’s hitting in “waves” now…( like u feel pretty good one minute and then bad the next ) that means the hard parts almost over !!
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