I’ve got a cold, so it’s easy today . I don’t want to weaken my immune system anymore than it already is.
I am white knuckling today. I imagine my journey is like that of a plane on auto-pilot. The plane is malfunctioning and using the auto-pilot (drugs and booze) to hide it.
Once you disengage AP (stop using) you grab the controls and immediately buzzers and alarms going off, the control column is shaking and it’s taking all the muscle strength in your arms to pull out of the dive and staight and level again…not to mention flying through turbulence (external life stuff we can’t control, but stresses us out).
You know that AP won’t save you this time but you can’t just let go either or you and your passengers will die. In this moment, I am fighting for control but trust in my ability and the good Lord that smooth skies and soft landings are ahead.
Took a walk, did some gardening with my sister in law, baked some bread, and lastly movies marathon with my siblings… it was a fun chill day…
Watching old Western shows on INSP with my Mom. It’s a cold, damp day outside. All comfy with my favourite throw blanket and a nice bowl of hot, homemade soup.
Nice word picture. Stay strong! You can do this. Happy landings.
W.B.
Today I drive to Mont Tremblant. No skiing for me but we did walk around the village, had dinner, then toured the area.
Tomorrow I will stay sober by getting my relax on at the Scandinavian Spa!!
Woke up sober, had a nice breakfast and headed off to work for the day. Now relaxing with my feetbup and had a virgin ceasar for a treat. Goingvto relax and watch a movie later too.
Hit an AA meeting
Was hunched over like an old man after I got out of work and decided to try to see if I could do the bike at the gym or the sauna to get some activity in and ended up doing 3.5 miles in the bike over half an hour going really slow. It was a great living metaphor for the progress in making every day slowly but surely, and I finished being and to stand up straight! (a rare achievement since this injury). That helped me feel extremely content going slow, starting over, and just being in the moment taking gains wherever I can get them… Similarly, even though my sobriety is with respect to PMO, if I had been taking pain medicine prescriptions I would have never had a reason to generate real solutions, and instead have let everything, again, degenerate in the darkness and fog. It’s been very, very helpful being in touch with the pain and the pressure to adapt. Hope everyone is adapting strongly to their situations as well, good luck guys.
I learned to control my emotions not let them control me. I learned how to heal. I learned how to grow. I learned. I listened. I forgave. I turned the pain into a positive. A fighting force. My anger, my hurt, my mistakes, my mindset, took it all and pushed into me ! Self care ! Loving myself. Telling myself sorry. Just learning to love me after all the hurt life handed me. It was then I was capable of my best life. I’m grateful
Worked in my shop playing with my new laser engraver! Getting the shed set up for hobby and craft has been amazing in giving me somewhere to put energy in sobriety. Highly recommend!
I got myself moving and enjoyed the first real spring day here. Nature waking up. No people out as they are busy doing family things on Saturday. I like this peace.
It’s snowing out here in Ontario Canada heavy. Did some cleaning inside and outside and took a nice picture. Today is a decent day so far
Turned my will and life over to the care of God ….
Enjoy your day. Jelious abit lol
Hit an AA meeting. Grabbed lunch with a newbie. Threw together a healthy dinner in the crockpot to avoid HALT. Maxed out my likes here.
I’m with you @Cjp regarding the crockpot, it’s part of my sober toolkit, makes sure I avoid the cooking/wine combo in the evening, plus it smells delicious and ensures I eat something I enjoy. Late afternoon & evening is my danger zone, never was much of a day drinker. I’m only grocery shopping in the mornings to avoid afternoon temptation with the booze section which takes up about a quarter of the store . Today to stay sober I attended my morning meeting, watched a video on EFT to release cravings, added tapping to my journal as a self-care ritual, started packing my roof carrier for my trip so I don’t stress myself out the day before I leave. Now I’m reading ST threads, posting & sipping my pineapple/mint/lime mocktail.
Meditated and sat with my anxiety for the upcoming work week. Acknowledging it has allowed me to not let it control how I feel today.
Swimming, diving, eating, yoga, meditating.
Made this for dinner. I’ve been trying new ways of cooking chicory and after caramelizing and baking it in the oven with onions and chicken, I realized that I don’t like chicory. Way too bitter no matter how I prepare it. Should have just used the Bak Choi instead—would have added a nice pop of green too! But the chicken and the caramelized onion sauce was delicious