No you wont, we are here and you can do it - lets help each other. Keep on posting.
@SoulSearcher did you do your squats?
I am struggling so bad
Iām home now and will go to bed. Iām safe now but how about tomorrowā¦
Good night everyone
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Just for today, Maris. Good night and check in tomorrow we will be here.
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Is it cravings or anxeity dear? Have a wonderfull sleep and write how you feel tomorrow 
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Hey! Yes, I just finished up for today and have another full day tomorrow. Iām loving it - I feel like Iām with my people. About half of the participants are in healthcare or retired from healthcare. We are all there with a common goal - to help.
Iāve caught up on some of the challenges being faced right now within the chat. I am totally open to sharing about my experience but I dont want to trigger anyone. If people want to reach out for private chat to discuss or ask questions thatās fine! But I dont think Iām going to discuss further in this larger forumā¦
Every life is precious here - yours included. I want to respect that we are all vulnerable as we continue towards sobriety.
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Hi everyone,
My date was nice, but now itās pretty obvious that he is interested in me. I tried very hard to ignore those signs, which wasnāt easy because I tend to please people.
I felt bad about it afterwards and then the cravings started. I thinks that it is a good sign, stick to my feelings first for a change
Sorry, I canāt explain it the way Iād like to.
So thanks everybody, I talk to you later!
How are you???
Hi all, doing good tonight. Our friends just left and I only had cravings for about 30 minutes while they were here. Successful night! And yes @AnonymousD I did my squats. Whew, 75 was getting to me!
@Marisim Iām glad you had a good date! I know it will be hard to trust but take it slow and I think you can do it. It is good for us to experience feelings instead of numbing them. Iām proud of you!
@Journey1 So glad to hear your training is going well! And happy youāve found a place thatās comfortable. What is the plan after training?
@Maria Proud of you for making it through another day! I hope you can find some answers soon to living a better life. I look forward to hearing from you tomorrow.
Good night all!
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I dont really have a plan lol. It was more of a personal interest - although I plan to utilize what I learn with my family and friends, if they would accept the support. Also have considered volunteering for palliative or hospice care but would want to get really good with personal boundaries before anything else. Iāve always been sensitive to emotions/energy and am getting better at identifying whatās mine vs someone elseāsā¦ but am not confident that I could do this work without taking a lot on myself.
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Not now anywayā¦ maybe later in life.
Yea, Iām good. Massive cleaning/organizing day. Heading to bed soon. Work tomorrow. Staying busy trying to curb my craving. So far so good. Thanks for checking in. I look forward to starting our book club next week.
Hope youāre hanging in there. Sending love and gratitude. 
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Today was really excellent. Attitude is good, very few cravings including while I had lunch in a brewpub, and old haunt, while on a road trip today with hubby. He drinks alcohol, even brews beer at home, and itās been on my mind on how to shift my positioning with all this in mind for our marriage of 13 years. Alcohol has been a big part of our lives together and while I was contemplating stopping it made things very difficult for me. We have had great discussions since I became proactive and shared more about what I had been hiding, my unhealthy relationship with alcohol and how we were so bad for each other right now (alcohol and me, I mean 
) and we set some boundaries about alcohol in the house. He is my best friend and so kind and willing to do whatever it takes so we are on a learning journey together.
Iāve definitely had some negative internal dialogue going in my brain a lot of the day but have only felt stuck in it bad a couple times. Meditation and breathing exercises are saving me right now. Iām starting to really feel my body, I feel in pretty bad shape! Joint pain, neck tension, no enduranceā¦time for me to get my butt in gear. Yoga tomorrow.
Hope yāall are hanging in there and if you have any thoughts on my situation Iād love to hear them. Peace
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Day 4 done! Good night
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strong piece of coping there!!! enjoy the yoga in the morning
hey love! sounds like you had a good date with a side of butā¦ Can I conlude you are just not that into him? and afraid to voice that? or is there something else underneath that?
Good morning my fellow troopers!
Excellent job, Iām proud of you guys! Have a good night!
@RosaCanDo
I think itās very important that you and your husband are in an open discussion about boundaries and your feelings. I guess if you feel like you need some changes, like that you feel triggered everytime he talks about his brewery, itās necessary to communicate that.
When it comes to internal dialogue, well thatās a toughie, personally I catch myself creating a negative self image multiple times a day. The queen is deadā¦long live the queen 
.
My night was exhausting, I guess I had only 4 hours of sleep, and not even in a row. That date really was a huge trigger for me, as in opening up, flashbacks of my old relationship and the breakup, the abandonment, the following loneliness, and so on.
Now I will get ready and have a long walk with my doggie in the woods. Then I will work on my Lego for grown ups, which I bought to keep my hands busy 
. Weāll see.
I hope you guys write a lot, entertain me 
. Just kidding, you ladies are my biggest help.
Thanks for giving us an update! You sound quite positive this morning, which you deserve to beā:heart:.
I just wrote about my date and the feelings that came with it.