I hope you have a good night to sleep it of and tomorrow just be so afraid not to do it again and so confident that you proven to manage without. feelings of guilt often are a good alarm but a mindfuck when you want to work something through. Love 
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I still have to see depending on my pain levels. can only take 1 day at time. but when I want to join I order and have it within a day or directly when buying the ebook.
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@Journey1 be careful. As alcohol is s slippery slope. I’m glad you were able to stop at one. What about day 3 was hard?
Does anyone else have trouble sleeping on full moon nights? I feel so weird not being able to sleep all night long when there’s a full moon. Like I’m just really in tune with the earth or something. 
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yep. back to the mother ship, or return to sender.
that is the most great thing of not drinking. the other level of consiousness. hahaha. and we are 90 water. so if the oceans a driven by the moon, how would we think we get a way with it right? I have more restless sleep when it is (about to get) full moon. weird dreams, lying awake for hours.
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You’re exactly right about the dreams too. Crazy dreams right before I woke up. Just hoping I can go back to sleep for a bit.
I checked the food thread on here during the night when i could not sleep maybe will help put you back for a little 
No luck. Stayed wide awake. 
I absolutely do! And the weird dreams, for sure. Got about 4 hrs again, hey it’s better than nothing, I’ll take it!
Oh no so sorry you couldn’t sleep, that’s like torture.
I just realized, I’ve saved about 7000 calories since Feb 29th. And yet I didn’t lose weight, although I didn’t turn to chocolate or cookies instead. I don’t like candy.
The worst 
Hope your day goes well, hang in there.
Good for you for being honest and for starting anew. I can do relate to the empath sensitivities and am learning new ways to cope, myself. It’s not easy at all.
@Marisim Try not to get too discouraged. I remember the last time I quit for 12 days, I thought I would lose a good bit of weight from the calories I wasn’t consuming but that didn’t happen. I think something must happen physically during detox that makes the body hang on to those extra pounds or water weight in place of the alcohols.
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We did a role play activity where we were with a partner - 1 played role of doula and the other played the role of someone who just found out they were dying. I was assigned the latter… We had to look into each others eyes for a minute, and the doula was to provide nonverbal comfort. I picked up on thoughts other people were having - not just emotions but images of family and friends that werent mine… We were all in the same room and it was just way too much for me - I was feeling everyone’s emotional journey with that exercise.
I also we learned about communication with children and how they experience grief.
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I have completed 5 days sober. I haven’t gotten this far in 27 years. I decided to break from alcohol because my husband and I are going through family stress with our adult 35 year old son. I said things that I wouldn’t have if I was sober. I am dealing with things better sober. Last night my husband made a positive comment about me being sober. I shared with him my reason for stopping. He hugged me and was supportive.
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That’s so great! That might provide that little extra reinforcement on those tough days… Write it down and have it accessible/visible to reflect on, and also keep adding to that as other supportive comments come up. You got this!
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What kinds of things work for you? I really am focusing on ownership right now - your emotion vs mine. Give me any scenario and I can literally feel what someone would be experiencing. If I can recognize what’s mine and someone else’s, and tell myself that’s not mine, it’s easier to turn it down or off.
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Don’t beat yourself up. Yes, today is a new day. You stopped at 1, didn’t binge. That’s strength. 
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Thanks everyone for being so kind and supportive. I did go back and forth as to whether I would share that or not, but decided on 100% accountability. I think that will be key for me going forward. I also wanted to share because of my internal conflict of feeling guilty but not at the same time. If someone else reads this, can relate and keep moving forward knowing that others feel that way too then it’s worth it.
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Have my first primary care appointment in several years at 2 pm today and my anxiety is high…so nervous. I have to focus on being 100% honest and get some idea of where I stand with my health and what to do going forward to improve.
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Yes, 100% honesty! If you are nervous or not sure how to express yourself, maybe take a couple minutes to write down what you want to cover or express. Take that with you so you have those prompts at the appointment.
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