Well I have done this whole sobriety thing once and made it 2 full weeks before breaking, drinking, and getting out of control again over time. I got to where I considered myself okay as long I was drinking in “moderation.” My brain convincing me of that made everything go all to shit. The way this went day by day varied. Some days I would stop after a few drinks, and then some days I would decide one less wasn’t enough, but then one more was way to much and I’d end up blacking out showing my ass and embarrassing myself. I didn’t go a single day without at least drinking 3 of whatever I chose that day. I decided enough was enough and am 3 days almost 12 hours without touching alcohol. Having a beer or twisted tea is CONSTANTLY on my mind. It seems to be getting a little easier as far as my mental power to say no because the longer I go the more I want to keep going. Does that make sense to anyone else? I feel so much better when I wake up in the mornings, but lord have mercy the thought of it makes my mouth water and going into a gas station without grabbing one out of the cooler at the end of my work shift is something I almost clap for myself over once I get back in the car. Looking back and feeling the way I do now maybe I was worse off than I thought. Regardless this is hard but I’m fighting, currently sitting in the gas station parking lot before going in typing this to put me in the state of mind of saying no to grabbing a twisted tea, and grabbing something else instead. 
Welcome to TS Alexa! Big congrats on making it two weeks! So what did you just grab in the gas station if I might ask? Be absolutely sure this sober thing is doable. And peer support invaluable, peer support like you just found in this great community that has been -and still is- of such great help to me and so many others. Here we truly are in it together and that makes all the difference. Can’t do it alone. We need each other. And here we find each other, all the time, every day, every hour. Wishing you all success Alexa, and hope to see more from you. Hugs.
Thank you so much! I ended up grabbing a coffee and a water. Clapping for myself silently right now!
Gas stations are enemies since I started this I swear. I keep telling myself if I cave and drink all the progress I have made so far is gone and I’m back to second number 1 instead of going on day 4! That seems to be helping!
So much love!
-xo
Misread your sober days just now. Congrats on day 4! Well, it’s one day at a time for all of us. Where I am there’s no booze for sale in a gas station but still it’s everywhere. It will get better for you though, I promise. Just keep going. Enjoy your coffee.
It’s awesome that you made it through that urge!! I feel like every time we do that the sobriety muscle gets stronger. 
Is there anything you can do to help you deal with some of the things that make you want to drink? For the first couple of weeks it really is just gritting your teeth and toughing it out, but dealing with the underlying b.s. can help.
So glad you found this place–we’re rooting for you!! 
Welcome. it may feel like the hardest thing you have ever done. When you get to the other side of that it becomes the best thing you have ever done.
Glad your here. I hope you didn’t get that twisted tea. or as I prefer to call them “black out teas.” Those things go down too easy and the hangover is the worst.
I started to feel a little better on day four.
Hi Alexa, and welcome to Talking Sober. 4 days, almost 5 now, is nothing to sneeze at! Hang onto that sobriety date with all you’ve got!
I spent the first 30 days of my sobriety going to a counselor once a week and taking Antabuse. I took the daily dose early in the morning, when my resolve to not drink was very high, and it helped me through the midday and end of day cravings, knowing I would get violently ill if I drank. But after 30 days, I had some side effects and had to stop taking it. I was in a real state of panic then! What I did was to return to AA, attending meetings as close to daily as I could. The social reinforcement from others who were not drinking helped tremendously. The information I was getting, from readings and listening to others’ experience, started to change my thinking. And when I committed fully and started using a sponsor to help me navigate the steps, then I really started building a solid foundation.
It gets better, it does. The frequency and strength of urges will reduce as you build a sober lifestyle. I got sober before Talking Sober came along, and I find that this forum can help in the same way AA helped me - frequent contact with people who know how to stay sober and are willing to help you with that.
Take a look at this thread, it’s a great starting place to get ideas for growing your own sobriety. FAQ for newcomers
Blessings 
on your house as you begin your journey!
I know the feeling
Well my friend
The addicted mind is a very interesting thing
Think of it like this
Your not craving alcohol but your craving life
But
All in all we actually need to learn how to live life sober
And the one warning i will give right now
Alcohol
Pot
Crack
Coke
Is not going anywhere away
Alcohol will always be right there at the gas station like the others give or take
My advice…
Move easy
Have grace
And dont rush
I can tel you for a fact now that ime 1047days no alcohol
I would rather be sober then under the influence
You learn how to stay sober the longer your sober
It seems like the biggest things for me are after work because it was routine for me to always have a drink after work, so instead of that I’ve been pushing myself to get something alternative whether it be a coffee, sweet tea, icee, soda, anything to replace that beer in my hand! Another trigger is boredom, when I had nothing else to do I was drinking so being bored is bad for me right now I’ve been trying to keep my mind busy by crocheting a blanket! The last one would be winding down before bed, I always had a drink right before falling asleep and that has been a really hard one.
Stores that sell alcohol are my enemy right now and where I’m at there isn’t a store that you can walk into that doesn’t sell it so that’s really hard. But I’m on day 5 so each day it seems a little easier! I will say yesterday and today it almost seems like I’ve had a “phantom hangover?” When I wake up I feel hungover headache, dehydration, all the things which is making it harder also.. I dont even know if that’s a thing just the way I’m feeling currently. I will say reading on this app has been a huge help.
Yes! It had always been my go to so the hangover felt like it was just part of life to feel like shit when I woke up! 
apparently it’s not! Although yesterday and today I’ve experienced something I can only describe as a “phantom hangover” I dont even know if that’s supposed to be a thing?
Thank you so much! This app really has been huge for me reading and seeing I’m not alone in this has helped a lot. Almost like a misery loves company thing and I don’t even mean that in a bad way. Being able to look and see I’m not the only one has genuinely been huge!
I’m so glad to hear that and 1047 days is crazy I can’t even imagine hitting a year right now! That’s incredible!!
I couldn’t imagine hitting two years so I’m doing another,
It’s awesome that you are able to identify what triggers you! Boredom was a huge one for me, too. I had to find ways to keep myself distracted for the first couple of weeks. I love that you’re crocheting!! We’d love to see pics over in Show the artist within you (Part 3)!
It definitely took me a few weeks to stop feeling weird after stopping drinking. You’re doing all the right things, hang in there!!!
I will definitely take some pictures tonight when I get home to show my progress! I’m working on a king size blanket but it’s coming along nicely! Trying to find things to do other than drink is a lot harder than it seemed like it would be! I keep telling myself if I take a drink that’s x amount of days down the drain and the longer I go the more motivated I am not to break my streak!
Gas stations were my kiss of death as well. Right on the way home from work like you said. In the beginning, I couldn’t even go in the gas station or look at it for that matter. But it does get better! And I mean really better! Stay strong I’m telling you it just gets better and better as time passes. Now I walk in that same gas station to get an energy drink and when I look at all that beer in the cooler, I’m actually sick to my stomach. I’m like I don’t know how I did that. Keep coming back! We’re all in your corner.
And don’t be tempted with the, this time it will be different mindset. I look at it this way.
drinking is like a scary movie. In the beginning, everything is fun. Unpacking at the beach house, going down by the water, but is the movie progresses. It gets worse and worse. By the end, it’s worse than the exorcist.
When we think about going back to drinking, we think we are gonna go back to the beginning of the movie. But we don’t, in a very short time that head is spinning around. Don’t drink!
That is such a great analogy. I’m almost 5 months in and it’s gotten relatively easy…but I keep catching myself thinking things like, well, when I go on vacation I can drink a little and I’m sure it’ll be fiiiine. No! That’s going alone into the woods while Michael Myers is on the loose!! 
Its under 3 years
Its possible my friend
Best desicion i could make be4 fate made the decision for me
Day 0 is rock bottom. We have all been there.
And
Ask yourself, is the bar you set in life too high or low?
What do you want in life?
What can you do to get it?
How long do you think it will take
Be realitic because there is no right answer. This is your life
2 months after i quit alcohol and hard drugs i found out my baby was on the way. Now hes 2 years old. Imagine what i would have missed high and drunk
Im 688 days with 0 nicotine
Snd 557 no form of leagal or illigal weed. No thc pens, dabs, flower, gummies, not even any cbd
If you fall get back up
Post about it.
Live life sober, its better