Never bored with how you are doing. Everyday seeing you flourish is inspirational. Your photos from your home view are always a pleasure. I look forward to them always.
Being grateful for the kind words (you know who y’all are!)
Reached out to my support system and my sponsor when I had that insidious voice in my head that said, “You can use, again… just once would only be a lapsenot a relapse.” And, truthfully, it probably would have only been once… 'cause I’d probably be dead… 'cause I’m a heroin/fentanyl addict who hasn’t used in almost 2 years.
Grateful for my bouts of insomnia… because, at least I have a warm, dry place to grumble ‘n’ groan in and a comfy bed to toss ‘n’ turn in.
Soggy steppin’ (221,867 12th Month steps)
BJJ class (Reflex Development w/ a focus on the mount)
Work, having some ravioli for dinner, then heading home. I’ve got some laundry I need to catch up on, and a bunch of videos in my “water later” playlist. Just trying to get through the day.
Today
Preparing for long stay of hubby from work…includes lots of praying
Staying positive and so grateful for the life of which it has become sober
Headed to grocery store to stock up for meal preparation
Keeping my dog, Yunna up on her exercise and bonding. I am just an afterthought for her when her Dad gets home. Good Substitute but not the one. I can live with that. It is like having a child and she does need constant attention. @Dirk Cats are easier. I bond with my cat at least couple times a day as he does live outdoors when dog is home. The dog is constantly by my side and in sight. It is hard not to see the 100 pound Doberman.
Checking in here Talking Sober is my extended family.
Thanks so much. As We go about our day in public any one who has owned a Doberman immediately comes over and wants to pet her and talk all things Dobey… They are smart. I never had a big dog until Yunna and sometimes I find she is smarter than myself. She clearly knows the difference in the two driveway alarms we have. I have a hard time remembering which chime is which.
Went to work. We had our Christmas party at the office. All but one of my coworkers are non-drinkers, so alcohol wasn’t even on the radar. It was a blast.
Took my sister to pick up her new car. First new car she’s owned.
Picked up a gift for my grand daughter. Farm animal hand puppets. She’s 18 months old.
Went to another Christmas party. Only stayed for half an hour. Not my type of party anymore, but had no temptations.
All and all a good day. And I’ll feel great tomorrow.
Today I celebrate Yule. It will be my first sober event. I will pop on the app if I get any urges. Gotta deal with my ex but I’m going to be strong and not let him pull me down. I’m staying positive☺️
Update…. I had a pretty ridiculous intrusive thought but was able to talk through it and refocus. My daughter (19) has been so amazing and supportive. While we’re aware that she should never be in this position, we are so close it would feel wrong to exclude her if that makes sense.
Remembering the bad times, things, places, situations, aftermath of drinking and drugging. I’m not dwelling on them or punishing myself for allowing it to happen. I’m reminding myself it all started with one. The first one. The first one always started with good intentions.
I started my day here as I usually do, but today I’m participating more. Like I use to do when I was closer to my last drunk. Now that I’m further away and recovery has allowed me to pursue and achieve so many goals. I spend more time working. I’m a busy guy and time management is something I need to do. I cant lose focus on recovery.
So today, instead of cruising through the forum and just giving likes or just reading, I’m making time to write.
I’m eating good.
I’m resting.
I listened to chapter three of the big book of alcoholics anonymous. (my favorite chapter)
I fully conceded to my innermost self that I am an alcoholic again.
I ate crab for breakfast.
I thanked higher power for my talents and creating this magnificent planet that I find so much inspiration from.
Thanks for this thread @RoseCityRonin and thank-you for being here. You remind me that it works if you work it! Congrats on your 667 days of recovery!
I awoke 7am exactly and tackled the chores to do first thing (after praying to do God’s Will and guide me through the day)
I exercised Yunna between rain downpours. When drunk would have found the excuse not to go outside because of weather… Now I put on my warmest clothes and rain coat and get my butt out there. A little rain not going to hold me back. In fact drunk I had an excuse for everything not done. Now I face life head on…I need to keep doing the right things in my daily life to be the best I can be.
Staying positive at all times.
Loving my sober life.
Today is most definitely a day to make a new Spotify playlist. Music is my passion. Whether it’s playing writing or just making a banger playlist. It’s always something. Maybe I’ll get some chores done too lol