I’m just curious as to what kind of Drinker are you I am the kind of Drinker that when I drink one drink I can’t stop drinking until I become a belligerent angry asshole and till I blackout some people like my friend she can drink her ass off and be happy but sloppy drunk I don’t drink everyday I binge drink and I have no control after the first drink
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I can hold my liquor but that causes me to drink ALOT, I can drink everyday and I don’t get loud I just get really out of it and fall asleep but then I wake up and start drinking again and then it’s a cycle 
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The sober kind. Not a drunk anymore.
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A low-bottom, dope shooting, crack smoking, coke snorting, pill popping, drunk. I’d steal the clothes off your back one day and come back and ask for a loan the next. I would make fun of you until you cried and then beat up your boyfriend if he stuck up for you. I lived without any regard for anyone else.
And you know what, none of that shit matters now. What matters is what I’m doing about it now. I have the steps to help clean up my side of the street. I have a program that teaches me to be a better person. Rather than another apology, I am able to show people I’m sorry by living sober and doing the next right thing.
Honestly, I don’t care where any of us are from. All I care about is what we are trying to do about it.
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I am the exact same way. I never drank everyday. Although, i did, and still do, crave a drink while stressed, angry or sad and that is how I know i am too dependent on alcohol. And once I have one I do not stop and I turn into a completely different person. Someone i do not like, and neither do my loved ones. I would categorize myself as a binge drinker. A heavy one. Whenever facing a problem I turn to alcohol instead of dealing with reality. I believe it is very important to know what your relationship is with alcohol. We are all on a path to recovery and finding ourselves and i believe knowing as much as you can about your addiction is the best way to get there.
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That is how I was. My moods would change depending on how I was feeling that day/night. As well as what kind of alcohol I consumed. i was a complete mess. It is incredibly painful and embarrassing to remember how I acted and what i did, but it is very important to remember it all. Not to dwell on it, but to learn from it. And turn that regret and self-shame I feel into motivation. congratulations on making this huge life changing decision to become sober. I wish you the best of luck!
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Well said!!
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I had many stages throughout the years. I started young to get rid of my shyness and anxiety… then for years I was the life of the pArty type of guy… then I was the always bringing together the large groups of friends and living it up kind of guy… then I was the drug addict and everything revolved around the high and nothing else mAttered… then I quit and went back to drinking… and the decline came… I lost all remaining friends and disconnected with all family… I drank more and more and always alone and just before hitting bottom or maybe after 
I began attempts at a new life and realizing the severity of what I was doing and what I had become… I then struggled this entire year with binge drinking heavily… which would turn into drinking more alcohol to solve alcohol problems… and alas… I’ve begun my new life sober. Ive been thru more stages I’m sure but in the end a man who can’t handle alcohol and is better everyday that goes by without it. Regardless of the stage I could never have enough until I blacked out.
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I could put away as much liquor as my husband who is twice the size of me.
It would start as a drink when I got home from work to reset… then I would help the kids with homework or make dinner, have a glass with dinner… get kids ready for bed, read books, tuck them in… then I would just drink until I fell asleep.
It would give me the patience to be a good mom at the end of the day when my work had already sucked all of the patience out of me. And I would drink until I passed out so I could stop thinking about work while I lay awake, or dream about work on the off chance I was able to sleep.
Not the healthiest way to cope.
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I don’t like stopping at one. I usually have to keep going until I’m toasted. Usually an introvert, alcohol helps me relax and open up with people. Usually chill, sometimes brooding. I make poor decisions when I drink.
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I thought of myself as a happy drunk . I never got into fights.
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I used to be one who drank to lighten up socially. Then it was to blow steam. Then to help me get to sleep after many a long day. Then just to quiet what was nagging me enough that I could sleep. Then I realized there was a pattern… and drank to shut myself down every day anyway. Then three more years passed and nothing changed. And today it occurs to me I can do better with my time.
So now I’m the kind of drunk that doesn’t drink.
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I became a stealth mode, closet, sneaky, drink it straight from the bottle a lot, drinker (for most part) towards the end. Drank every day, from as early as say 7am until I’d go to bed at nite. Would openly drink where it was served, with nobody knowing I’d already been drinking all day.
I’d always have a stash of miniatures in my purse, so I could sneak drinks when socializing, on top of what others saw me drinking. Had liquor and wine in hiding places around house. Stopped letting my boys see me with a drink a long time ago. Hid it/disguised it from them tho, when drinking around them. Been under the influence basically everywhere but Church. Lived a double life. Would drink on way to and from therapist n shrink appointments, sporting events n practices 4 my boys, court stuff re my brother, hospital visits with my brother, my boys school events, parent/teacher conferences, running errands, driving, crossfit, symphony performances and rehearsals, funerals, job interviews (n would get hired, but then decline offers cuz working would’ve interfered with my drinking), etc. U name it, I’ve probably been there or done that, under the influence, except 4 at church. Probably only reason not Church cuz I quit going regularly like 3 years ago. I have become an only go at Easter n Christmas church goer. That’s a whole other saga. With ALL that said… I was mainly a sneaky snake drinker at the end, and somehow got away with it re others. I knew how deceitful I was being tho. Couldnt hide it from myself. Absolutely insane and self destructive, all while faking good around others. Nobody but yall know all that. Long post. Long history of insanity. Ugh. Do NOT want to return to that way of existing. Choosing to live. Sober.
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I was fun and a people pleaser and everyone enjoyed me drinking because fun fun fun - which reinforced my feeling deep down that the real me (the shy person) wasn’t worth anything. The uproar when I said I wanted to stop included being told I was being a drama queen. And to have a drink and get over it. But I knew that the drunk me was sloppy and overfamiliar and often in danger and too open and made bad judgements about sex and drugs. And, I’m realising now, who my friends should be.
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I am just off another 5 day bender. I really am a pathetic person. A sex addict and a drunk. I should have never started drinking this heavily. Drinking driving harassing women on line. Escorts I hate myself right now. These women want nothing to do with me. Just my money. Power drinking vodka. Been throwing up blood all night. Can’t sleep
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I was a jack of all trades drunk. Happy, mean, indifferent, abusive, loving, supportive, gloomy, optimistic. Now I’m just an alcoholic, and I like it much better.
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I was a low bottom drunk. Homeless. Sleeping outside. Winters too. Panhandling. Hustling for money/ change. Bathing in rivers. In the end. I couldn’t handle any form of responsibility. No job. No relationships. I didn’t even try. The only connections I had were other bums/ addicts, alcoholics, criminals, the people in the dark shadows of the city at nights. Saw, death, murder, suicide, overdoses. Whatever. Was desensitized.I never thought I would escape. I was close to accepting my fate and going out that way.
I was never a big time criminal minded drunk or violent. Just pathetic.
I’m not that person now. It was the loneliness time of my life. Almost unbearable to think about.
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I was a super happy drunk up until the end! I never cried while drinking until the end of my drinking career, did it several times at the end. I was absolutely miserable and an alcoholic. First step in making a change is deciding to not stay where you are!
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I was an insatiable, unpredictable drinker.
Insatiable in terms of always needing “just one or two more”, most of the time. Always needed to be just a little bit drunker, a little bit higher.
Unpredictable in that most of the time, I’d be generally well-behaved. However, every so often, I’d cross a line and devolve into the shadow realm. Pure animal brain, autopilot, drunken instinct. No telling what I’d do. Those were the scary times.
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I’m not one 
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