What makes you an alcoholic?

[Kacialyn]

For the longest time I didn’t come to terms I had a drinking problem because I could control myself while intoxicated, don’t get me wrong I have had quiet a few nights where I don’t remember what happened , but I always made sure my children were taken care , fed , bathed , dressed, fridge was full , bills were paid , the list goes on , I always made excuses to why it was okay .

Covid hit and I found myself drinking in isolation with my neighbours during the first lockdown , then that turned into drinking daily , , to the point where I was drinking 2-4 26ers a week , I would usually start between 3Pm and go until 1 -2am and haven’t stopped since (On day 2)

I have always drank at special occasions and with friends on weekends, started smoking marijuana in my 20’s , tried MDMA a few times after my 22nd birthday Then became addicted to cocaine and that addiction lasted around 8 years , beat that habit but have had a few slip ups , I was never one to even enjoy the taste of alcohol just liked that high . I have always searched for that high . But always thought it was okay because I could control myself on it.

The only time I haven’t been ‘high’ or intoxicated was when I was pregnant with my two children. I’m praying I make it through this journey not only for myself but for my children

[Dazercat]

Welcome Kaci
Congratulations on day 2.

After 45 years of drinking and being functional and controlling it I finally had enough. Thank God I’m still alive. And like you. My family and kids and wife were always provided for. Never lost a job or got arrested etc……. I wish I didn’t wait 45 years to become sober. But that’s not me any more. This is a great place to get and give support. My strongest tool and thread is gratitude. I got way too much to be grateful for when I’m sober. And nothing when I’m drinking.

Daily Gratitude List. Gratitude The Air Of Recovery

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Have a good read around. Join in when your comfortable.
I hope to see you around.

[Thirdmonkey]

What makes me an alcoholic? I cannot simply have 1. 1 will always lead to way to many.

@Kacialyn

I always made excuses to why it was okay .

That was me. I could always explain why I was ok. Looking back, I never was.

[HoofHearted]

Welcome! Congrats on day 2! While the first few days and even weeks is the hardest, stick with it, you will find it is worth it! Sobriety was the best thing I have done for myself, my kids, my wife and everyone that is in my life. I am positive you will find the the same!

To answer your question, take a look at this thread.

What an Alcoholic Really Looks Like

If you’re on the fence on whether or not you’re an alcoholic, take a good look at this alcoholic. [20190310_133344] I never drank booze from a paper bag out on the streets. I was never homeless and I never pan handled. I never drank first thing in the morning, in fact, I only drank after 5PM. I drank craft beer and wine, I was a sophisticated drinker. But no matter how I justified it, I was your run of the mill, average drunk. I drank to get drunk almost everyday. I couldn’t have just one, it…

[Ray_M_C_Laren]

If drinking is controlling your life and making it unbearable and you cant go a day without it, then you have a drink problem but only you can say your a Alcoholic and meetings will help with that question wish you well