Oh so sorry about this. I’m looking to get the Mirena coil implanted next Month and to go on oestrogen patches or gel for HRT (after the polyp and some biopsies are done and returned). Are you on any HRT regime at all?
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Yes I am taking an estrogen gel and progesterone capsules. They do help a lot. Especially with the mental health side of things.
But they can’t prevent the sudden drops in estrogen production occuring especially in the night. My periods have also gotten completely irregular - everthing between two weeks and two months is possible.
The week before a period is usually the worst time. But now with that POTS syndrome I got it was a tought week.
But I am very hopeful the next days will be better.
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Day 23
Crazy energy level in the morning, like non stop active since 6 am to 2 pm lol.
Crazy 3 hour nap afterwards.
Lol. Quite intense.
Ambivalent.
Pre-bleeding.
Mood is not suicidal this time.
Taking the supplement with chasteberry and evening primrose oil since 4 weeks quite regular. Might it help? Ouh grls.
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My bleeding should start in 10 days.
I’m in a bad mood since Friday because one coworker made a joke that I can’t forget.
There is this commercial about dicke Sauerländer Bockwurst (thick Sauerländer sausage) from the region I grew up at.
My coworker said that every time she hears that commercial she thinks about me.
After she said it out loud her eyes widened and she realized what she said.
She apologized again and again, but the words were spoken.
I feel like a whale to be honest and my healthy meal plan was canceled the whole weekend.
This shit hurts so much to be overweight and chronically ill and an addict.
I want a normal life! 
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@Sabrina80 I already sent you pm how I feel about this and I still do. Hope you are doing good.
Day 26
It seems to start.
I don’t feel good.
Like a Ballon.
The Airbnb cooking possibility is a bit complicated and so I ate other then normal.
Did not feel myself at all and so I bought shit. Gluten-free pizza, tacos, something like Nutella (wtf). Whenever I eat shit like that I think it isn’t worth it. Don’t realy like the taste!
Will try to have a swim tonight afterwork and get something more healthy. Maybe sushi.
Day 27
It fully started.
Since half a year or so it is 27 days.
Had my swim yesterday and sushi.
I head to re-read your posts @TrustyBird and @TeaCosy 
AHwww it made me smile and even cry a bit!
I realy want to get this shift!
I want to be more 
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@Juli1 I’m doing good.
Monday evening I was sitting at home on my couch folded together like a shrimp and nearly cried. I had so awfully dark thoughts. I literally cried for help.
Yesterday I was myself again. Seems something listened 
Also today I’m good.
And about the food thing: I feel better when eating more healthy. Less bloated, like you. I try to stick to that 
Thank you again for your PM 
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My bleeding started yesterday evening, 4 days early. No problem with that, so I can enjoy my 1 week off without this masterpiece of evolution 
No migraine this time but a headache that’s still pretty annoying. I slept since coming home from the hairdresser.
Now I showered and am still inhaling some food and pineapple juice mixed with water.
Over and out 
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https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=cfb23QrZOFE&si=_x6OcTTrkloNH2Y4
I was thinking of you when this song popped up today in the gym 
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Hell yeah. I just got around to listening to this and I can say I’d never heard it before. Rocking anthem, lots of energy. I approve. 
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9 days until my bleeding starts.
The worst today is rage. First I overslept, then several trains were late, we had an 1,5 hour meeting I didn’t know about, coworkers bitching like maniacs and the worst was, when my coworkers told me about a picture of me that was shot on Friday.
And I look pregnant af 
I feel awful and fat and I hate everything and everyone rn 
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I was so ugly today to some coworkers ugh 
Damn pre-period mood 
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Came to this thread to vent somewhere that it sucks that women, EVERY month have to ‘get on with it’ whilst their body is desperately in need rest and gentle care, bleeding. Being expected to go to work and still do all of life’s chores whilst exhausted and fatigued …often accompanied by cramps, headaches, body aches, and unruly emotions that are outside any rational norm and seemingly uncontrollable. It SUCKS. Women should be able to rest and nurture themselves during these days. No wonder so many are depressed and or burnt out. It’s insane.. to not have any considerations. Imagine .. if women could actually sleep and rest for two or three days a month when their hormonal system is literally effecting everything and changing levels estrogen and progesterone!
Well, all this to say I’m tired and frustrated that I had to go to work and please others today instead of resting, sleeping and nurturing myself 
my body felt like it was pleading for rest, but no rest for women. No no. Go to work and pretend everything’s fine. There’s nothing wrong. Losing all that blood doesn’t affect your energy.. 
those hormone changes shouldn’t be an issue. What’s wrong with you!?!
Urgh.
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Women have to suck it up, endlessly. I still feel guilt for caring for myself, every single time. I’ve been taught not to value my time or health or dreams. Unlearning it all now. But I damaged my health first. Never again!
Good post. It doesn’t have to be this way. 
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Amen 
I would add that perimenopausal woman should be allowed to slap sense and consideration into their significant others, family, friends, coworkers, bosses or whoever is ignorant of the straining bullshit we are going through.
Greetings from the funny side of decreasing physical performance and shorter temper in my 50s 
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Women in general get a bad rap. They have to deal with so much more than men yet if they ever say a word or complain they’re crazy or too emotional. When a man shows emotion he’s sweet and sensitive. I feel for you ladies. The worst part though is women rarely back up other women. They’ll be the first to pile on the trash talk.
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I have been musing about a couple of things.
First, my increasing irritation with things means that a certain someone is even more likely to just dismiss my thoughts and feelings because ‘Oh, it is the menopause’. I cannot get him to understand that while menopause is making my delivery of the message a little more harsh, it doesn’t negate the content of the message.
Second, is there any research/information about menopause in completely single women vs those who are married / in long term hetero-normative relationships?Because I sometimes feel it is less the hormones and more the decade and a half of being in the aforementioned hetero-normative relationship that is just getting on my nerves.
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I don’t know about specific literature but may go on a search, the topic is quite interesting.
Tried both, married and single and can say, perimenopausal life living alone, being single is faaaar better on every aspect exept I’m missing on the intimacy part (which I missed in my marriage too, now it’s easier to bear as I know there is no other to share together time).
I felt neglected, ignored and not supported with my perimenopausal shenanigans in my relationship allthough I really tried to explain and talk about it.
Now I talk with friends, have fun and we state: hormones suck.
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Good morning 
Day 3 of bleeding, this morning it was a damn blood bath 
And my emotions are all over the place. I cry when happy, I cry when hungry, I cry when tired, I cry 
And if someone’s standing in my way I turn into a little monster 
I love being a woman
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