So I have this irrational fear of AS meetings. There is a lot concern about being judged going back after the quarantine. They really must be sick of me. I almost hate AS because I always have failed there. I don’t want to go it alone, though. I feel like just staying really anonymous, or finding some other support. They always singled me out, and this made me mad. I don’t want another relapse!
Look into SMART.
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I would suggest finding another meeting. I didn’t find my home meeting for awhile into my recovery. Otherwise you can always try the online zoom meetings. Just a thought.
Have a look at some of the options here:
Online meeting resources
Take care & stay grounded - you have feelings & thoughts, sometimes they’re loud & insistent, you just see them, label them, and let the pass. You’ll get there 