Feeling worthless… I got drunk last night… and got into a argument with my older brother who also is a addict… not with alcohol tho. Anyway I feel like a worthless brother… I’ve been off my game for months calling into my job everyday not doing what I’m supposed to be doing for my kids. Sleeping all day during the week. This morning was the 1st day I actually woke up early not hungover. Because half of the bottle I had was dumped out and I’m actually happy it was. Another new start for me my friends
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Sounds like you’re in a good place for change. I used to call out of work and be in bed all day from being hungover just to start it all over again the next day.
Your actions sucked and you’re feeling the consequences of them, but that is not who you are in essence. Remember the lessons but let go of the shame, and move forward with sobriety.
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Take control brother! Time is something we all wish we could get back. I wasted 40 years of my life over my addiction to alcohol and all the people who loved me suffered as well. My Son still dislikes me. You can choose a different road brother. Do it today.
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Thank you my friend I definitely will
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keep your head up buddy
Its hard at first Barker, well it’s actually hard all the time. When you decide to quit you have to think about it a long term goal. Take it one day at time and don’t give up on yourself. Also the thing with your brother it happens, I have 3 brothers I know what you mean.
I had the same issue with my father but we made peace. Lifes definitely too short to hate others thank you my friend I will. I hope you and your son can
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Good for you. It sounds like you’re making the best choice for you. You can do this. You’re not a worthless brother. Everyone has their struggles. Everyone has things they have to work through, and it’s not always fun–in fact, sometimes it involves a lot of internal agony and pain–but it’s worth it. Hang in there.
Thank you so much my friend
Take the time you usually would spend drinking and replace it with something that’s good for you. A hobby, excersise or activities with your kids. Sitting on the couch staring at the wall and being SOBER is not enough. You need to replace that time with better things and reinvent yourself. Be blessed.
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The best feeling in the world was a couple of days ago when I turned that bottle upside down in the kitchen sink!
One day at a time. Fall down three times, get back up four. Failure is almost certain with anything in life. Giving up is not an option. Don’t give up, we all fall. Believe in yourself and do it for you.
Your right brother. Absolutely right
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It is a great feeling … my hardest days are the weekdays… I really hope I can fight it this week
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I really want to see you succeed, Barker. You have to put more effort and thought into your week than just hoping.
Plan out your day and night, ask your old aa people what they’re doing to stay sober. Don’t sit and hope you won’t, that’ll be the only thing on your mind.
C’mon, brother; do this!!
Your 100 percent right. I’m going to plan out a good week and not think about alchohol. Thank you
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You can do it! Mine will probably be my days off which are different every week. I’d drink any day… before work and after but my days off it’s an all day event where I get nothing accomplished but being drunk.
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I know what you mean… I’ve gotten drunk after work… but it’s not good cause I either call in or go to work hungover which is a very bad feeling I hate it… but I just have to keep myself busy after work this week.
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My days off are my hardest too
I relapsed the last two saturdays, planning the work week is easier but the weekenends are so hard
when I showed up to work today my boss was like “WOW you’re in a good mood!” I wanted to say “Yeah, I stopped drinking!”
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