I’m grateful to hear from you, I figured life had got busy for you. That gratitude will do more to help us stay sober than anything else.
Life is just grand, my kids are on the cusp of taking wing - one graduates college in two months and has a professional position all lined up, the other is in Mexico for a semester abroad, then he has two more semesters to graduate. My dad has gone into hospice - he’s not imminently dying, but at 90 he has decided to stop treatment for his brain condition. He’s doing quite well, considering.
It’s a privilege, it’s gravy, to be able to be sober and present for our families.
Haven’t been on here in too long. Sorry guys! But I’m almost at 120 days sober woot woot! Had some ups and downs but still staying sober strong. I need to post a proper update! Thanks all for caring and reaching out!
Wud up, bro. I’ve been good. Still sober. Staying busy with the family and the kiddos. I’ve been reading a lot on here. I just haven’t posted as much. Been dealing with some health issues. The docs got me on antidepressants, they kinda been effin with me, but I think I’ll be alright.
Hey Jasmine how nice of you to think of me😇
I’m alright I think. Haven’t had much energy for some time and a few other depression symptoms resurfacing a little, but honestly nothing compared to before. Addiction wise, no huge cravings, here and there but endurable. I have been to a therapist five times and have now signed the thing, so I will go for a year. It was thanks to this community that I went and that I stayed. Jasmine I was already calling to quit and you wrote that I should give it another try. I am grateful and feel humbled and warm.
My brother has decided to go to one as well😂 Which is amazing bc Im tired of dealing with his mental crap all the time, said lovingly.
I feel peaceful.
I am seeing my mind only as a tool, apart from my conscious self. Im trying to put the tool down and just exist. Thats really the only way that I feel deeply peaceful and good. When Im not thinking literally anything. At all! Feels what I imagine a hug from god feels like. Or even better: Benzos. I had a short time of being addicted to benzos (pills that take away all worry and anxiety and make you feel existentially comfy and blissfully good, until I ran out). They ofc come at a great cost.
By just existing to exist and completely silencing my mind, I have basically the same effect, if you can believe it. Its crazy. But I dont have to swallow a pill for it, no side effects. Incredible. So all in all, I am extremely grateful for everything.
Big fat amount of love being thrown your way. throwing noise
So lovely to hear from you Mulan
Grateful that you did find and are staying with a therapist and impressed that you brother is going as well. This is a huge step - hope it helps tighten the bond between the two of you. I do send you some positive energy to help you with the depressive times.
Oh sweetheart - this was a lovely line to read and wish you so many deep loving hugs.
Appreciate your kindness and all the love. Same for you my friend. I am well - today is my day (its Halloween ) so i’m giddy like a little kid Much love to you
! way to go on your 120 days of sobriety. 
I am grateful and feel humbled and warm.
Feels what I imagine a hug from god feels like. Or even better: Benzos. I had a short time of being addicted to benzos (pills that take away all worry and anxiety and make you feel existentially comfy and blissfully good, until I ran out). They ofc come at a great cost.
) so i’m giddy like a little kid 
Much love to you 
I missed your year 