Thanks so much for checking in. I pretty much forgot about this appā¦oops 
Iām doing pretty well, all things considered. My muscles have really been waking up in the last couple of weeks and my glutes and lower back are just a solid mass of painful trigger points. I think the real recovery begins once this godforsaken brace comes off in 4 days. Iāll need loads of massage and PT.
I was sentenced last week, and only convicted of an OWI. Somehow my lawyer got the prosecutor to drop the high BAC charge. Secretary of State gave me a 30 day suspended license with 6 months restricted. No interlock device was mentioned. My lawyer said those things almost never happen when there was a car crash. I genuinely canāt believe how fortunate Iāve continued to be throughout the entire ordeal.
That said, Iām still so grateful to have this opportunity at a second chance to do life right, that I really havenāt craved alcohol at all. I plan to stay vigilant to keep it that way. My mental health has been taking a small hit from being isolated at home with very few opportunities (and little desire) to be out in the real world. I started Naltrexone shortly after being released from the hospital to help prevent cravings if this started to happen. Itās been pretty effective so far. Iām grappling with my doctors over meds and dosages due to negative side effects, on top of unmanaged ADHD they continue to dismiss, so thatās really my main focus as of late. Iām frustrated, but happy to not be thinking about drinking all the time.
Again, thanks for the follow-up. Itās really kind of you 
So good to see youā¦yes it is right around the cornerā¦ super excited.
Hope you are doing well 
Hey @Cjp 
yea I never would have thought still doin the damn thing lol. Iām in the middle of fighting an adoption case for my son right now but I have had 2 hour visitation with him every 2 weeks for 8 months now.
1 year 9 thatās great sir. Keep that up. Good luck with your son. I hope it all works out for you.
Iām glad youāre healing, and I bet it will be so nice to get that brace off in 4 days! I hope your recovery continues to go smoothly and that we see your around here. 
Great to see you bud. Lol ā¦ sending you luck
ā¦Iām still on my quest 
Me too budā¦ me too 
Well am I glad to see your name pop up
1 year and 9 months!! Thatās calls for a huge congratulations 
Itās so good to see you!! Donāt be a stranger
Happy to see you!
I have not been doing well enough to look at myself in the mirror with my head held high, for a long time. And Iām ashamed and angry at myself for that.
Thank you for remembering me.
A book that has had a serious effect on me recently is Escape by Tim Kaufman. I hope this effect continues.
Sending love and thank youās.
I donāt remember his nameā¦ Gym-crazy guy with beard and cool t-shirts and a little kiddo if I remember good. Some good sobriety time behind the belt. Didnāt see him for a while.
My new Dwight Shrutte t-shirt arrived yesterday and remind me of this guy 
Someone know who Iām talking about?
Edit: I was talking about @Reddawg7768! You still with us?
Iām alright, still sober. Dealing with my teenage son and trying to navigate all of the hard feelings completely sober is tough, but weāre getting through it.
Iām having trouble posting, not just on here but on all socials. I just feel really lame and disconnected and donāt see the point. Like shouting into the void 
sounds weird when I say it out aloud haha. Thanks for thinking of me. You have a big heart 
Oh wow. I have thought about you and messaging you because much has happened. And then I went for more days pushing away anything to do with recovery. I have been on almost a week binge. I was doing so well, got a sponsor and started step one. Well she was for 3 days before I just jumped off the ledge. I had to go on a work retreat and be social which was hard and when I came home, I smoked instead of going to a meeting. Then over the weekend my friend came from Queensland for me to through her a babyshower I was so so drained from being social and my anxiety had been so bad. Then Iāve had a hard week of work and my worst day ever at my new job. I made excuses that it was too far. I had been listening to a whole bunch of NA speaker tapes that made me feel so proud of myself and I was beginning to look inwards. To be honest, it hurt and I make the excuse to myself that I donāt have enough time to go through the emotions of getting sober. How dumb? Tomorrow night is my next meeting. I have blown off my sponsor too scared to admit my pain and stupidity. Iāve done so much reflection and understand what to work through the first step but it is painful to search inwards and be so vulnerable. It seems so hard
Aww mate I want to give you a big hug 
it is painful but itās healing Iām working my step one too weāre doing this together . donāt worry about your sponsor sheāll have been where you are now and I tip my hat to you for going back so quickly that takes balls I didnāt do that and ended up in hell
welcome back 