Yay: another busy, satisfying day sober. Zero cravings/minimal thoughts about booze.
Nay: didn’t even occur to me that we would see particulates in the air from the west coast wildfires…it was bad enough the weather channel had an air quality alert, skies were hazy and my husband and I both had burning eyes, drippy noses and I had a massive headache this afternoon. I feel for all those folks out west, big time.
I live in CO. The smoke has been getting so bad. We got snow last week so that helped some but still not nearly enough to extinguish the fires. I hope you both feel better. Congrats on another day sober!
I know! It never stops! It’s 7:18 and I just got into bed though 
Dang, I’m sorry! I know lots of folks out that way all up and down the coast and have been hearing what it’s like for them. Awful.
Yay: her post-op appointment went well. Doctor said it couldnt be any better.
Nay: none today.
Yay: got all my baking for this weekend done (5 things!) so none tomorrow, will be busy enough as it is!
Nay: my dogs are still in a terrible feisty mood and growl and bark the shit out of other dogs and also people who look at them a tad too long or walk funny. Judgemental beasts. I get so much eyeroll for that.
So happy the Dr had some good news! 
Yay: got my bicycle from my parents and plan to start riding in the mornings.
Nay: it still isn’t Friday! 
Yay~ had a little karaoke session in the shower sounds nuts but it was fun 
Nay~ my moose (our 15 year old lab) is not doing good. My heart is slowly breaking… it’s almost time for him to walk that rainbow 
bridge and join his brother Teddy. Which I know for sure will be there waiting for him. I’m gonna be lost without him. 
Oh man, Courtney, I choked up reading that.
It’s killing me… I have such a pit in my stomach. Worse thing about pets… loosing them. 
Yay: My son turns 1 tomorrow (TIME FLEW!!!)
Nay: I’m working most of the day
That’s the worst feeling. Cherish that pup while you can! Which I’m sure you will!!!
Aww, so fun!
My yay is that my doctor told me today that she is proud of me for quiting drinking (38 days sober) and for working on losing weight. My nay is my fiance and I got into it because I was trying to explain to him that I will be uncomfortable being at his sister wedding with my ex best friend ther, whom I found sexual messages between her and my fiance years ago. He told me he doesn’t understand why it’s such a big deal. I don’t have much of a family or friends so here I sit alone crying. I never said I wouldn’t go to the wedding of course I will. I just want my feelings acknowledged. Its hard because all of my family that will be at the wedding are all buddy buddy with her.
Glad he will be okay!
Absolutely fair to want your feelings acknowledged. When is the wedding? Do you have a plan in place?
The wedding is October 17th. I don’t have a plan in place. Idk what to do. I have bad social anxiety so that makes it hard enough with all the added stressor and being tempted to drink. Im just going to feel alone. At least I will have my son there.
Nay : I had a craving today at work while I was talking to someone. Felt weird, the day was almost ending and she was giving me feedback as I am intern. I missed a couple of phrases because I had to talk myself outside of this thought of drinking.
Yay: I didn’t drink and won that battle in my head by asking myself if this thought was helpful for me and answering it by no and focusing on what I want. I performed well, I met my girlfriend sober in the street, kissed her like I haven’t for awhile as I felt so much love for her when I saw her blue eyes with my cleared eyes… I felt like I’ve just haven’t seen her for so long, even if she was always at my side these last days and weeks while I was so far and stuck into my head and obsessions. I may have been on the couch but I’ve been away and I saw her with her smile and she was the one I wasn’t even waiting for, I wasn’t searching as I was drowning but when I saw her today at the end of work day, we met at a corner of a street, both removed our masks and I kissed her strongly, held her tight to lift her just a bit so I can keep loving her and holding her for longer than I thought I could… yes I cried a bit and I said “I love you so much” and she knew I was back and she said “I missed you”. And I walked her home holding her tight by the shoulders as we laug he about our days and she felt asleep on me not so long after on a movie. And I thank god for being here today to feel her breath on my skin as I hit the bed sober and free. I cried yes. But I am Back.
That’s a tough one, BUT doable! You look beautiful and you’re so much clearer in your mind/head space. Walk tall and confident. If you must say hello as you would to anyone you bumped into. No need to lie and say lovely to see you, 
. Get past it and dance your butt off when the music starts!
She will be the uncomfortable one…
