Hey there, lady! How’s your son? Good to see you!
He’s good thanks, he went back to his boxing a couple of weeks ago how are you?
Good to see you are back checking in
Amazing and good, thanks for asking. Glad you are back.
First 24, been chilling today. Got some more lions mane (mushroom) in the post today. I’ve been taking for a month and is really incredible for anxiety, thing is as soon as I find a new supplement , I just try and drink to outdo the good effects, pointless exercise yes. Still trying to find a way of carrying on being an active addict. Again pointless.
Glad you’re back here and that you don’t stop trying! Keep looking at things you can do differently in support of your recovery. You CAN do this.
24 hours 7 minutes, had my lions mane last night and this morning and I’m feeling grounded and no anxiety. In an online NA at the moment. Needed some motivation to get myself washed and stuff. Don’t want to think of anything still at the moment, apart from living today sober. I’ve had a coffee and an apple.
I’m back in the rooms, and have decided to do recovery dharma aswell. I rarely share in meetings in the 20 years I’ve been in and out and that is what I want to look at through recovery dharma. The behaviours surrounding my drinking is what I need to look at honestly with my myself with guidance. I feel like the words offered through recovery dharma are touching me deeper in a different way where I can feel a shift inside where I feel I could actually change deep inside for the better with healthy habits. I toyed with the idea a few years back as I know a place local to me where there’s in person dharma meetings. It feels a bit scary because I feel inside actually that I can change. I have many fears and the last couple of days I have pinpointed them and put labels on them;
Fear of failing
Fear of succeeding
Finding my authenticity
Understanding what the holes in my soul are and endeavour to heal them
(Addiction is not the problem, it’s the rest of me and I want to know me)
Great to hear your trying another program. Sometimes changing things up is just what we need to get momentum going. @Thirdmonkey did the same thing and it seems to be working well for him. He has a thread going and all are welcome. I’m sure he’d love to hear about your experience or anything that strikes a chord with you while on this new adventure.
Yes I saw that;
I think recovery dharma will be great. I have their literature. Glad you have a meeting close to you. Would love to here your experience with the group.
2nd dharma meeting this afternoon (1st was yesterday) over 70 members in today’s meeting! Wow. I like the meetings, I like the words used by the members. A new path, I love the group meditation ; it was really difficult to motivate myself to mediate so it feels good to have daily practice in a group setting.
I’m going to try some zoom recovery dharma meetings. Need to jump on @Thirdmonkey thread. I think RD is becoming more known and popular. Awesome.
I’m so glad to see you! And so grateful you’re here.
I tried an 11.30 pm one last night and there was only 9 people and they played a Tara beach meditation which I didn’t like; I prefer when they read the meditation. The 2pm (uk time) seem to be the biggest so far, it must be early morning in USA???
I’ll check some out. They offer RD locally, but zoom will better accommodate my schedule. I still have my AA and TLC communities that I love, but feeling a little nudge to expand. Recovery is progressive for sure!
Just realised why I’ve been feeling so sweaty and ill ; started taking Chlorella on Sunday and IT’s promptly detoxing! Must of been full of shit to work so quickly! Middle of the night; woke up from dog barking, I was sleeping so deeply I thought it was already morning so was disappointed to see the time . Neurons are firing up again and got a full on couple of months ahead with uni. I’m ready. I did the bare minimum last term but my brain needed the rest; from already 2 years INTENSE studying I had to just keep it to a minimum for a bit. 4 months till end of year 2 (third year studying)
(I read a great article in Nexus magazine today-reaffirming my minimum studying justification(!) that all through the ages, Middle Ages, back to Hippocrates, practitioners and scientists and doctors wrote about how intense brain/mind work makes toxic waste that can leave the brain dull and to be careful of how much time one spends ‘studying’ or using their brain; kind of makes sense really as it’s all chemical reactions and too much of any chemical (adrenaline/cortisol) is very damaging to the body.
So ; mindful studying with breaks, a day at work, spend time with friends and family, and don’t stress that I’m NOT doing ENOUGH!!