Nice one Donna! Great gift. Hope you get to use it regularly 
- Have to get back to work for late weekend shift. Don’t feel like it as the atmosphere is poisoned right now. Lots of stress. Some gossiping behind my back. Residents locked in going nuts. OK. Deep breaths. Deep sigh. I can do this. Then I feel my two real friends are relying on me a bit too much while I don’t even know how to take care of myself. Feel like I absorb too much of their sadness, worries and troubles. Makes me feel sad, worried and troubled myself.
There is this thing that makes me glad though. That’s the fact I got out of bed sober and clean this morning. No joke. At least I’m not extra burdened by feeling hungover and much more depressed as I do now. I will and I can deal with life today. Life can be hard any day. But I can face it so much better clean and sober. Have a good weekend all. Using helps with nothing. Love from Amsterdam.
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Hang in there. you are probably very compassionate. yet try and not absorb to much which is hard enough already in your line of work I guess. Put on your own mask before you can help someone else. whether this mask is sobriety, oxygen or worries of some kind. And thank you for sharing beautiful amsterdam again!
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Good morning beautiful people,it’s been awhile ,I’m like a turtoise I retreat intoy protective shell,when the going gets tough but like the tortoise it’s not great to stay in there as fuck all gets done and he doesn’t move to safety,so today( ME THE TORTOISE ) am going to try to get my head out my ass come out of my protective shell and move forward,day 150 life tough but today I’m clean but life’s still tough .keep moving forward my friends even if it’s at the pace of a TORTOISE 
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Win 1 day at a time. Like anything else in life sometimes it’s easy, sometimes it’s really hard. I hope today is better for you.
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Day 175… 4 shifts left until the place I work shuts down like the rest of the world… there uncertainty has been damn tough but i can be certain that im much better sober… stay strong friends.
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Day 5 Check-in
Despite everything had a lovely day for my Son’s birthday, saw my brother as well for the first time in over a year (we had fallen out (you can whose fault!)), he visited to drop present off, sat in garden chatted and caught up. Think he was pleased to see that I was ok, and it made it special for Sam. So got to focus on these wins. If it would have been a weekend earlier I would have argued! 
Today is reading up for interview 
Catching up on 24hrs on here, lots of posts which is good.
@GVLNative, so happy you “let the force run through you” and you feel so much better 
@marcusmaximus2000 congratulations on 100 !
@Desire2ChangeToday so sorry for your loss, beautiful picture
@Flamestar welcome to the forum
@Misokatsu thank you and thank you for the course details will look it up
@Sam7 well done on your 70 days 
@Lisa07 leaving dishes is a guilty pleasure (only spoilt when you forget and walk into a kitchen of devastation 
) - those lovely 7 months congrats
@Mtrav0040 so sorry you hear this sad news so tough. But acknowledging your achievement of 100 days well done
@Claire welcome to the forum
@Mno, I would be in heaven there I have always been a water person, love swimming beaches, lakes, rivers etc. Always calms me. That picture is beautiful. Have been Amsterdam some years ago and enjoyed. Bruges was also pretty I went for Christmas Markets.
Ran out of “@” now… but reading all your posts. They all inspire me in one way or another. Thank you
Wishing you all a strong day. 
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@Conor689908 well done for making it through your difficult day, total respect to you. Keep going you are doing amazing 
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A dreadfull train ride ahead, no intercity’s just stop trains and 4 shifts to make it home with an additional 2 hours of extra travel fun with my sweet Nala.
I wish you all the best, i’m glad that i had my vacation but also good to start working again monday.
Bless
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Checking in. Rainy day. I am still stiff, back doesn’t feel right, but sober.
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Slow, fast, hard or easy 150 days is wonderful. I’m literally holding onto the arse end of the tortoise while it drags me about 
. Love ya EM 
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Allen I’ll see your simplicity and accountabilty and raise you with respectability. Your a rock. Well done.
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Waking up sober on a Saturday, a girl could get used to this
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Paul the love and respect I have for you has no boundaries,I know what it feels like to fight with all I got to hang onto doing the right thing and feeling like crap when I don’t,that’s BC were really good natured people and we feel shitty BC we know there’s another way.LOVE YOU BIG FELLA.
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Thank you! 
Heading for my third day of sobriety. Going strong, I am a little worried about sleeping though. Last night was awful as I was feeling very restless. I’ve been having nightmares for as long as I can remember and smoking cannabis “helped” to cover up their vividness. I’m gonna meditate right before jumping into bed, that’s the plan so hope it helps. All of my attempts in the past failed because I felt like I was living 2 lives in 24 hours. Really exhausting but I’m sure at least some of you recognize this problem.
Wishing you all a lovely and sober day!
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whatever you think about the people on here, times it by a 100 bc that’s what we think of you.
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I am so proud of you for pouring out that drink. That takes amazing willpower and strength.
You are so strong.
Your post of self deprecation shocked me, because only a truly strong and amazing person could pour that drink out.
You are far stronger than you are giving yourself credit for
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Thank you so much for sharing your struggle. I know what it feels like to put on your “happy mask” and act as if you have got it all together when you don’t (as many of us will recognize, I’m sure). But I hope you also realize how strong you actually are, feeling ashamed and vulnerable but being honest towards yourself about what’s going on inside of you, that takes a lot of guts you know. I’m so proud of you for flushing that drink and for showing up for yourself. Please don’t be so hard on yourself, yes I know that’s easier said than done but I applaud you for your openness and strength! Please contact me at any time whenever you feel like it or when you need someone to talk to. We’re all here for you.
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Out walking early this morning. Wait, let me back up. Operation clean up garage was successful yesterday. Okay, now walking for 6 miles this morning. Decided to lay off the bike for a couple of days. Later mow the lawn, change light 
that burned out. Then clean the roof, blow off surfaces and then lunch. Not sure about the rest of the day.
Have a great and sober Saturday!!
Oh, saw this cool Karmann Ghia. Love the green.
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