Day 3 , slept ok last night thought id be over the sweats by now this time but i guess it doesnt take very long to fuck yourself up again when your really trying . Done my first zoom meeting last night and was good ,now i cant use this pandemic anymore as an excuse to not go to meetings , even though i didnt say much except for my repeated im paul and yes im a newcomer again . Going to try get some exercise today to see if i can shake the fog out of my head again . Hope everyone stays strong today and has a great sunday .
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Watch out for landmines! Dump any remaining booze that you come across. If its too difficult then retreat back to bed and do it later.
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Thanks everyone for sending support,I have been in bed for most of day,it’s been a real wobble mentally not so much physically as I am feeling more calm,I am gonna have consequences to deal with again.its just not worth it.i don’t understand how I forget that I cannot drink alcohol,.I understand I have got to do more like daily prayers,. Sobriety 
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Late check-in today.
Rode the bike with a friend. Temperature went down to 45 so a little cool riding.
This isolation thing is really getting to me.
I really need a meeting, so I will be attending SMART online meeting tonight.
Off to get lunch together and do some work outside.
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Day 222
Woke up with a headache and stuffy nose and just feeling like 
. The allergy season here in Texas is in full force and it’s about to take me out. So here it is noon and I’m still in bed. I’m going to stay here for a while. I’ll have to get up eventually and get some laundry done but for now I’m going to stay here. After my 3 online meetings yesterday I’ve come to realize that I’m stagnant in my recovery and I feel like I need to stop dragging my feet on some stuff. Personal, hard and emotional stuff but I’m setting myself up for a relapse if I don’t address it soon I think. For today I will not drink for sure and I’ll practice some self care. 
Big hugs to everyone on here who’s fighting the good fight. Remember, we’re all worth fighting for.
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Continuing the discussion from Checking in daily to maintain focus #11:
On my 3rd day of another journey been through this several times but this time even though it was my shortest relapse to date (1 week)im struggling to get moving at all , i was in really good shape a week ago and now im struggling to walk my dog 500 yards . All i want to do is lay down and sleep . Then of course you have the paranoia of covid 19 but isolation is not an issue during relapses … its usually just me and whatever im on at the time . Going to try force myself to do something today but i said that yesterday to . Hooe everyone is staying healthy.
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I’m the same; washed the floors then back laying down. Did laundry and same, lol.
I’ll get outside in awhile. Hard to find motivation.
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So glad you’re feeling a bit better friend. Getting things out of our heads really does help but I get how it’s hard to share sometimes.
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For you from us!
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I’m in the same boat with motivation. So I’m going to take it easy and try to relax without being too hard on myself about it.
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Cheers for the shout and glad you’re feeling better bud 
Checking in on day 102. Today was a stressfull day. Feel frustrated and angry. Living together with your gf or bf can be frustrating at times… man.
I fled to my mancave to vent a bit. Playing guitar, listening to music. It calms me a bit. But now there’s that hunkering for that bottle of whiskey that could make all my feelings go away… man it’s tempting.
Sometimes It’s really hard to fit some guitar time and music time in a weekly schedule. How doe you guys deal with your own passions and hobby’s and your partner?
Man I feel bad right now…
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Day 271. Checking in from the home gym, which I’ve dubbed Blackened Barbell (Blackened after the ripping opener from Metallica’s “…And Justice For All” album). Woke up, had coffee, cereal, hung with the lady, played some GTA, and got hit with a surge of energy…figured I’d go hit the weights.
Have a strong day!!!
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Today was truly bizarre. First I got a lot of creepy messages from an ex. He has been stalking me for a while after I broke up with him, in a way I didn’t feel safe in my own home anymore, so that was trigger no.1… Later on I found out my teenager’s got a hickey. So far for social distancing and honesty, yet I was amazed by my own state of calm. He got so frustrated with me, he wanted to run away from home. My brother picked him up just now to stay with him and his girlfriend for a few days to cool off. I’m proud of myself for handling all this weird, intense stuff today. Still sober.
3 full days and counting. 
I feel like this time I’m finally able to pull it off, just as long as I’m taking it one day at a time.
Hope you’re all doing well, too. Thank you all for walking beside me on this journey. I feel very grateful. Glad to be here, glad to be sober. I feel like I’m gonna cry right now, guess my body wants to get rid of today’s tensions, but there might be some happy tears as well. 
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Day 5. Luckily went easy enough but few thoughts to get ‘quick one’ , were there. It’s never the only one so had to help myself with few cups of Yorkshire tea and bowl of …mango sorbet… . At the moment winning with my alcoholic personality and staying sober.
Ps. Was cleaning garden shed and found lots of empty cans which I was hiding from my partner as she was checking the bins sometimes to see how drunk I am before she entered the house. This gave me some serious thoughts and a little bit of strength not go back there again. Fingers crossed as this is only theory. In practice isn’t that easy.
Giving my best of luck and loads of strength to stay sober all of you guys. Day by day!!!Thanks
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Thanks, I’m okay.
Normally I would’ve let all this stuff pull me down, just so I’d have an excuse to smoke some pot but I don’t feel any craving atm.
Thank you for sharing though, I’ll save it for the hard times.
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Your doing great 222 and staying sober in this crazy world and still having the sense to know you gotta change something before it’s too late. Most of us get drunk first and think later. proud of you.
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I’m trying to just do the next right thing each day. Some days it’s harder than others. Glad you’re part of my journey.
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