What I am being taught in my mindfulness practice is that being mindful about NOT being mindful is all part of the practice/training
Watch it go. Bring it back. Over and over and over…
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I think you should cut and paste this over in that over a year/my story sober thread. I would like it to be somewhere that people can see it when they join. It will get swallowed up here. Who knows the name of that thread? James? @ifs
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Day 23. I REALLY want a beer. It’s so hot. I worked so hard at the farm. An ice cold beer sounds fantastic. So, if I just want ONE ice cold beer, this N/A beer I am about to drink should satisfy that. Right? No alcohol in the house and I sure as hell am not going back out in that heat.
RDO Meeting in 20 minutes.
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Enjoy that ice cold af beer and get on that meeting. I agree, It’s much too hot to go back out anyway.
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Day 581. Feeling sad and lonely and tired this evening. It’s times like this I wish my social life wasn’t entirely online. I’ve also got a hard week ahead of me and I feel weak and weak-willed. Life is good right now, but also hard. 
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I hear yah man. Besides the days I have my girls, but my Snapchat was filled with ppl hanging out this weekend, all ppl I use to hang out with. A guy I know who is sober was there, but I never get a invite and I never know of anything going on. My one buddy went out in the pontoon Thursday and Friday and I have not heard from him. Ppl going for hikes on FB and I want to ask if I can join, but there girls so I know they would say no. I can still feel ppl think im the old Mike. The creeper who said stupid shit to chicks when he was drunk, also my ex has made a bad name for me in this town. And at work it sucks bc I just don’t want to make friends with anyone there and everyone is miserable…so I totally hear yah bro, eventually will find something man, stay positive
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Well put Menno.
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Thanks for sharing it Menno. So much of this I can identify in myself ( I’m sure others too). You have ‘opened my eyes’ even more at where my problem is.
I wish you all the best!
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Checking in on day 7.
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Glad you’re not in a bad place and you’re back on the wagon. It is what it is!
Blessings and sobriety!
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April, your body and mind is still healing. It takes time to repair the damage we’ve done in our addictions. Could possibly be a vitamin deficiency.
I have had gastric bypass and must monitor my optimum vitamin levels on a monthly basis. I did not in my addiction and have paid an incredible price mentally and physically. Slowly I am turning things around for the better after almost 3 years of sobriety. Patience is definitely a virtue…
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Thanks! I think youre a few days ahead of me so congrats to you aswell!!
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Alcohol counter is ticking away nicely, but I am most proud of no binge eating 23 days. This is unheard of. I am not losing weight anywhere near as fast as I would like, but the general trend is down, and with better eating habits. I have had periods when I got frustrated and restricted, but then when the inevitable binge desire came, I “binged” on healthy food, which did not have the same negative effects. Added to that I am running for longer times, I must be much healthier even if the scale is not showing much of a difference.
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Likwise Paul… we all are warriors i guess and only King of our thoughts and doing when all battles are done… wich they nevver will be , only for brief moments. ( blood of a slave… heart of a King)
You go on m8 !!!