I think you should cut and paste this over in that over a year/my story sober thread. I would like it to be somewhere that people can see it when they join. It will get swallowed up here. Who knows the name of that thread? James? @ifs
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Day 23. I REALLY want a beer. Itās so hot. I worked so hard at the farm. An ice cold beer sounds fantastic. So, if I just want ONE ice cold beer, this N/A beer I am about to drink should satisfy that. Right? No alcohol in the house and I sure as hell am not going back out in that heat.
RDO Meeting in 20 minutes.
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Enjoy that ice cold af beer and get on that meeting. I agree, Itās much too hot to go back out anyway.
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Day 581. Feeling sad and lonely and tired this evening. Itās times like this I wish my social life wasnāt entirely online. Iāve also got a hard week ahead of me and I feel weak and weak-willed. Life is good right now, but also hard. 
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I hear yah man. Besides the days I have my girls, but my Snapchat was filled with ppl hanging out this weekend, all ppl I use to hang out with. A guy I know who is sober was there, but I never get a invite and I never know of anything going on. My one buddy went out in the pontoon Thursday and Friday and I have not heard from him. Ppl going for hikes on FB and I want to ask if I can join, but there girls so I know they would say no. I can still feel ppl think im the old Mike. The creeper who said stupid shit to chicks when he was drunk, also my ex has made a bad name for me in this town. And at work it sucks bc I just donāt want to make friends with anyone there and everyone is miserableā¦so I totally hear yah bro, eventually will find something man, stay positive
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Well put Menno.
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Thanks for sharing it Menno. So much of this I can identify in myself ( Iām sure others too). You have āopened my eyesā even more at where my problem is.
I wish you all the best!
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Checking in on day 7.
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Glad youāre not in a bad place and youāre back on the wagon. It is what it is!
Blessings and sobriety!
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April, your body and mind is still healing. It takes time to repair the damage weāve done in our addictions. Could possibly be a vitamin deficiency.
I have had gastric bypass and must monitor my optimum vitamin levels on a monthly basis. I did not in my addiction and have paid an incredible price mentally and physically. Slowly I am turning things around for the better after almost 3 years of sobriety. Patience is definitely a virtueā¦
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Thanks! I think youre a few days ahead of me so congrats to you aswell!!
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Alcohol counter is ticking away nicely, but I am most proud of no binge eating 23 days. This is unheard of. I am not losing weight anywhere near as fast as I would like, but the general trend is down, and with better eating habits. I have had periods when I got frustrated and restricted, but then when the inevitable binge desire came, I ābingedā on healthy food, which did not have the same negative effects. Added to that I am running for longer times, I must be much healthier even if the scale is not showing much of a difference.
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Likwise Paulā¦ we all are warriors i guess and only King of our thoughts and doing when all battles are doneā¦ wich they nevver will be , only for brief moments. ( blood of a slaveā¦ heart of a King)
You go on m8 !!!
This morning all is coolio 
Had some troubles last week mentaly and was dissapointed in those who vouched to help me with Nala so she had good walks but this week i made a planning myself so i can count on my own action and preparations.
Figured out that when i put things out of my own controll and it doesnt work it bugs and annoys me as a hedgehog up my budhole soā¦ thats that. Iām itchy enough allready 
Revalidation finaly starts groing the fruit of healingā¦ just gotta hang in now.
Good day my warriors !!!
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