Good morning ! Landed here on here on day 12 . Today is is day 31 - officially a whole month .
You guys have been my inspiration . Thank you 
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Just reread your bio. I’d add life is much better without schnapps. 
I remember those Germans know a thing or 2 about schnapps. Don’t miss that a bit. 
Have a great and healthy bike trip.
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Finally have hot water again. I’m so grateful. I haven’t had time to be on the forum much in the last few days, but I’m doing okay. Just busy.
@Dragonflygirl82 congrats on 200 days!
@anon79808082 congrats on 90 days!
You are both amazing and wonderful parts of this community and you’re doing so great. Keep it up! 
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Week 3!
And it feels so long, and yet to my husband, I’m sure, so short. He still peeps through the window every day when he comes home to check that I am standing in the kitchen cooking, not passed out on the futon. It is far enough away in the past that I can barely believe that I am that person who cannot drink. Surely I never drank in the morning. Could it have been me that hid drinks and then sneaked sips? Never. And yet, if I don’t hold on tightly to the memories that, yes, that was me, and that could so easily be me again, it will be me again.
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8 day checkin alcohol and cigarette free and loving life. Back to work after a week off sue to PTSD getting so bad but I had a week off and got stronger so hope I last longer before it hits again and I start my EMDR treatment. Will have a good read an a catch up in hear after work today peace out friends x
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Well done on hitting 3 days, they can be the hardest. Keep doing what you did yesterday, your days will soon add up
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Day 18 today… my emotions are still all over the place but my head is getting so much better… I’ve started to go through the big book again with my latest sponsor she’s a lovely lady who is dedicated to recovery i find it so hard to meet up with her because of my work and being a single parent but we’re hoping to meet once a week to do step work . Apart from that my life is very peaceful and I’m really enjoying the calmness of home life . Happy Tuesday everyone x
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The longer I do not share or participate It gets harder to do so and the image in me of me being not good enough keeps fortifying. Over the last few months I have lost faith in daring to speak or stand up for my self to levels that make me almost invisible. Instead I eat or drink my feelings and do havoc on my body. I am the only one that can decide to change, and I have never been more scared of being not able to turn things around.
Yesterday I was bypassed again by the yoga studio owner where I teach (yoga is just like life right with all the politics 
I had the perfect opportunity to speak up about something they did to me and got away with that is eating me up… I had been obsessivly thinking about it since july 6th…!! I tried, got a bit of backfire and gave up while even agreeing on teaching the classes nobody wants round the holiday without speaking up about my dissatisfaction. I could feel the anger eating me up and wasting another day in harming myself. If I do not learn to take up my space in life, even in this place of total helplessness with myself I will not change it, I need to give myself a change again.
I had peaceful sleep for first time in weeks with having a dream in which I felt LOVE 
… So the time is now.
I am going to do a 90 out of 90 here with a SAT Kriya meditation and a daily little routine on supporting my gut health. And I can maybe today only get as far as admitting that having to take my vitamines for 90 days seems like an impossible task to not fail in.
I will make a 90 out of 90 post and embrace all people holding the space for me here.
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Thank you!
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46.08 Days
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37 days complete without alcohol in my bloodstream. I started feeling damn good since yesterday. Rode my bike for 21 miles late yesterday and woke up today at 0430 on my own ready to kick today’s ass!
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Thanks so much 
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@Joy May the Lord always bless you!!!
You are such an uplifting presence here!!!
Day 4 sober. More motivated today, still somewhat numb
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Thanks Thomas, I really admire your strength and resilience for being able to pick yourself up each time you’re down. We can do this, you’re doing this!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in sober, Day 238 (34 full weeks - which is ~2/3 of a year!) I’ve said it before, but while 2020 has sucked in so many ways this is one amazing bright spot!!! Wishing everyone a wonderful, sober day!!
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Thanks Dan!
81 days clean and sober today. Woke up from nightmares about my ex fiance with another guy 
it sucks when you are getting better at accepting things and then it comes and gets you in your sleep. I thought about it and am going to choose to believe that even the horrible things like my nightmares are actually for my own ultimate good and accept that it’s building incredible strength and fortitude of soul. Dang that was kinda deep lol. Have a KICK ASS DAY!!! 
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Just checking in on Day 4
Starting to feel more energy now that I’m actually sleeping and sleeping well. Im not groggy in the mornings. Contacted our condo board lady to ask about when the gym is being opened up again (closed due to covid). I’m in dire need of dumbbells and cardio equipment lol. Going to be doing some cleaning and organizing today and then working on a cake I was asked to make for Sunday. Feeling pretty good today 
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