Good morning! Feeling great. My husband moved the spin bike out of the basement to the main floor yesterday. Hopped on that sucker and with an awesome Playlist worked up a dripping sweat in a half hour. After a night of a few glasses of wine, I would have listlessly cycled through an episode of Law and Order without a drop of perspiration and called it done. What a change! The Friday night twitching is so long ago, so been there, conquered that. Like all you’ve been saying, hang on. It’s worth it! See you later! Thank you so, so much. I love this place!
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Things rather busy/crazy so not able to check in regularly. But I’m still sober! Today is Day 252 which makes 36 weeks AF! Hoping everyone doing well, staying strong and continuing in a positive direction on recovery!! Sobriety works if you work it (and sucks if you don’t!)
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Checking in at 110.34 days sober. Not too much to report. I have been sticking up for myself in a respectful way lately, and it feels good. I guess by that I mean prioritizing my wants and needs. I have always put everyone else first to the point of damaging myself or my business just to avoid possibility hurting someone’s feelings. It’s no way to live, it’s like being a prisoner in your own head. Though it’s not been comfortable, it’s been liberating.
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Day 95 clean and sober today. Need to get out and stay out of my head. I’m powerless over my ex and my life is unmanageable. I’m not sure if I can be restored to sanity yet but I need to come to believe that I can. I’m turning everything over to God and continue to not reach out to her even though my heart is screaming for me to do it. It’s been 3 months since she left and I wish she could see how much I’ve changed. Thank you all for everything you’re amazing. Have a blessed day today!!! 
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Hello everyone. I’m 445 days sober today and I am Amazed by this accomplishment. Feeling blessed. One day at a time
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Headed toward 48 hours!
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How did it go??
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So when I got there, there was only one car there. It was a lady that was super awesome and sweet. Unfortunately the meeting is cancelled for niw because of a visitor testing positive for covid. But she did tell me about another one Tuesday’s and Thursday’s. So I’m going to that one tonight! Thank you so much for asking!
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checking in Broncos are a trigger, no doubt @ everyone have a great day!!
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Just remember that a lot of people who are married and have kids are super jealous of what YOU have. Freedom and independence! Grass isn’t always greener… And a ton of married people arent even “happily” married… they feel trapped wanting out. So just be happy you arent dealing with any of that nonsense. 
I am super jealous of one of my friends who is a famous DJ and travels the world and has a husband AND a wife now and no kids… we didnt talk to each other for a few years recently (because I was jealous?) Idk… point is, it wasn’t until I truly decided I was proud and happy about my own life that I was able to unmute her. And I am surprisingly glad to have her back. I used to be really jealous as an addict, maybe because I was depressed? But now I am happy for everybody and it feels a lot better this way. 
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Day 8: I slept so well last night I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. This is unheard of. I’m grateful because yesterday was tough at times. We had emergency repairs done on our bathroom with the discovery of rotted floorboards under our bathroom. One of those times when I’m glad to rent and not own and have a responsive landlord. They paid for a hotel room so we could have use of facilities while our toilet was out of order. My husband stayed home because he has to telework, watch the dogs and be present during the repairs, so I spent part of the afternoon/evening working on a project in the hotel room. It was a nice escape, having not had much alone time for a while. If I was drinking I would have jumped on that chance to binge in private and stocked that mini fridge and probably passed out with my husband wondering why I wasn’t responding to texts/calls. But I am not drinking. That felt good. The job was completed late last evening, which was good because my poor old man Chucho dog, who has the heart condition we just learned of last month, had an episode and wasn’t looking well. It was a very emotional night and I couldn’t stop crying at one point. This will be the first dog I will have to grieve, and I’m already feeling it powerfully, watching him struggle and have bad days. I’m so grateful to be sober to feel this and be there for him and for my husband. I will have to summon all my strength to not seek numbing to cope with the hard emotions. I can already tell it’s challenging me, I slipped up weekend before last after 20+ days. But I’m working hard on my sobriety and learning about myself and how to do things differently, starting with not drink. But of course there is the “then what”? That’s what I’m working on.
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Aww poor Chucho 
That sounds so tough. I am so sorry you are going through that. Always remember that drinking will make a bad situation 10x worse, and Chucho would want whats best for you! 
Stay strong my friend!
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Thank you, so so much. He’s really the best kiddo. My husband reminds me that dogs don’t feel self-pity, they truly live in the moment and we are serving them best by being fully present in the moment with them. I continue to remind myself of that.
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Day 8. It’s been a week- that means I get a new headlamp for hiking next summer.
I’m doing okay today, just super bloated. Idk if it’s the residual alcohol or something else. It’s very taxing and draining and it’s a huge trigger for me. I’m at work so that keeps me occupied and mostly happy. I didn’t bring any money with me so no stops on the way home. Later I’m going to write in my workbook and go to bed early so I can workout tomorrow morning. Everyone have a safe and wonderful day!
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Congratulations!!!
I won’t drink today.I live just outside of Salt Lake City, Utah. That reservoir is up in Northern Utah, about an hour from where I live. It was a perfect day, leaves were just starting to change color, beautiful day. I love the fall here in Utah.
Congrats on 35 days, be proud of where you are at. Depression can be so heavy at times, sorry you are having to fight through that right now. Just don’t give up. Keep enjoying the small things, like the day with your friend, try to keep things simple and small. That’s what has helped me at least.
Hope you have another happy day!!
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Congrats on your progress! You’ve been doing awesome. Definitely inspirational to see your growth personally and with your sobriety!!
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Thank you! I need to get up there more often. Definitely helps me to reset from the monotony of day to day life.
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