- That was quite a day yesterday. Happy I went for a walk that turned out longer as planned despite the grey wet weather. Needed that. It’s too cold for biking long stretches, well, it is for me anyway. These are the months I use my gym membership a lot but my gym is closed and it could be for some time. It’s good I got my ass moving because once I sit down I tend to stay put for long stretches.
My bestie invited me over for dinner. Which was cosy. When I got home I got to watch a classic night of US news television. Which only just sort of finished. Happy I slept through the last 8 hours of it. It was upsetting footage but the positive for me is it didn’t trigger me one bit. I had tea. I remained sober and clean. Which I hope you’ll all do because for us it’s the only wat to live a more happy live. Have a good day all. Clean and sober. I’m back to group therapy this afternoon. Actually looking forward to it. Love from a grey wet Amsterdam.
@Fury Big congrats on 200 Christopher! Excellent work. Keep going.
@montasir 90 days is awesome! Huge congrats!
@MagicILY 40 is going places! Congrats!
@everybody You’re all awesome for being sober and clean today. One day at a time. Together.
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Look at that bird in the middle with its wings spread!
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The black birds/ducks that are all black with the white nose tips are the exact ones I have on the lake opposite my house… How did they fly all the way to Amsterdam lol 
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Yes, it’s a cormorant April. It needs to dry up like that after fishing. I was happy it did right there 
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Well, about the coots… They say crazy as a coot but they are very successful around the world yes.
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Help me just getting out of ER for diverticulitis I always get it. IV of antibiotics who knows a diet to not get this. Dr said there is no real diet just hear say
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Checking in January 7th 2021
LETS GOOO !!! Goodmorning TS
Lets get it !
-truckinmonster
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Hope you feel better man !
Thanks for being there for me get some rest and wishing you a speedy recovery our health comes first !
There’s a government press release in 15 mins about the school. There’s a few provinces that has turned to distance learning in the years 7-9 here in my village we’ve got the years 6-9 in the same school. God forbid that year 6 will turn to distance learning, because if they do there’ll be me and tweenie home alone all days. And I’m not sure I can handle that.
Needs to wait and see.
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Like YUM!! I heart eggplant.
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Schools won’t Close. Or at least it won’t be a national closing, they’re leaving it to the cities to decide by themselves. But they don’t recommend a closing.
Good for me but probably not good for the virus spreading.
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Day 115
Feel like I’ve relapsed on overthinking. Like letting myself thinking and searching about futur plans for hours instead of being present. I know it’s a way for me to reassure myself, to try to know where I am heading to - because after years of studying I still don’t know what I am going to do. Although I have to be careful. I’ve been neglecting my present self over the planning of a futur professional journey - and I can’t let myself do it. It can be a slippery slope into drinking if I let go the habit that support my recovery.
I am going to let go a bit of the “what if” and try to focus more on this moment. I’ll give myself some specific time in my schedule to look into futurs academic/professional planification, instead of letting my mind wandering into it anytime while stressing myself.
I am a recovering obsessive thinker. It has let me to drinking and bad habits too much for me to ignore this. Back to training, self soothing, working on being mindful and letting it go. Getting everything I want in the futur won’t matter if I’m not able to be present and enjoy it - and this is the hardest part. So, better start to work on that.
Wish you all well,
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Day 4, checking in. This morning I’m exhausted, but I didn’t have to sleep in the spare room so I feel like that’s a step towards better sleep coming my way. If only I could stop waking up all throughout the night. Off to work again, yesterday was busy, which was nice, and it was also nice to get out and talk to co-workers again. I feel bad for my kids being stuck at home with online learning, I know they hate it. Have a great day everyone 
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Day 209 clean and sober today. I am learning so much as a result of having to remain at home and heal. So much I am starting to see that has blocked my progress and happiness. I hope everyone has a wonderful day I love you guys!!! 
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Omg @WCan I’m going through almost the same thing! Yes MINDFULNESS, being present here and now is what I’m working on too! I am surprised at how much time I am in the future as well. Also an obsessive thinker too lol. Proud of you for recognizing this that’s AWESOME!! Have a great day!!!
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Day 339. Took 15 mg of melotinin and still had a hard time falling asleep. I’m really not sure if this medicine is helping me, but like I can’t stop taking it my mind just tells me to do it if that makes any sense. Usually I wouldnt even bother with meds so maybe they are helping. I feel ok otherwise I geuss, I didn’t get in trouble for yesterday calling In. I’ve got some money saved up to finish the last little fine that needs to be paid here in my hometown and then I can send in for my license. Have a good day guys and girls.
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I was taking melatonin for 3 days, and I don’t think it was helping me at all. Seemed to make my sleep worse. Last night I didn’t take it, and I stayed put for the night. My suggestion from googling was take less, I was taking 5mg, so I may try half the next time I feel I absolutely cannot sleep. 
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Mike I’m with everyone else here bro. You’re an amazing person and dad and you had an off day that’s all it was. You have helped me and so many others here bro you are an asset and a good friend. Lighten up on yourself, you’re worth it and don’t forget about the PAWS shit too bro! You could be going through a little of that as well. Much love and respect Mike you’re a good man and a good dad!
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If I may ask , what time in the morning do you take the meds? And also how much caffeine you take daily/ when is your last serving? Those might be some stuff that have impact on your sleep as well.
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Checking in sober, Day 366. Still processing what went on here in the US yesterday, but the important thing is that I didn’t drink and I won’t drink today.
On to positive things: I’ve gone a YEAR without alcohol!!!
Throwback Thursday, I pulled out my 2020 calendar and looked at what I had written Jan 7: “Day one, day won. Feeling rough. Sleep. Lots of fluids.” It is good to remember where we came from and what we left behind.
Here’s to a new day one: Day One, Year 2!!!
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