I feel you in the friends department, I moved to a different state, I have a few friends but you know they all have lives, and other things, so yeah its rough. I’ve been trying to meet people outside of AA and the rooms, which is difficult at times. I don’t want to pull no dating app shit, cause well finance and romance will definitely take you out plus tinder is a hook up site.
So yeah it gets lonely at times
Hi Michelle,
I can relate and think /hope that maybe the post-covid season will make social connections a bit easier! Sending big hugs. 
Thanks, man! Yes, it does feel freaking amazing!! Never thought I could do sobriety, let alone do so for a year, let alone do so for all of 2020!!! I also didn’t expect all of the personal growth I would achieve, though in retrospect that is what has enabled me to do sobriety for such a continuous period - the maturing and learning how to handle life like an adult!
Thanks for the kind words, it helps knowing we’re not in this alone! As for the “haven’t known you that much on TS” that’s on me - I’m an introvert and I have trust issues so opening up to others (i.e. being vulnerable) is hard. That being said, I’ve been working on sharing more here and at meetings and with people in person! I’m a work in progress, recovery works if you work it!!!
I have dealt with a lot of itching before, too. Even after a month in…I also over think my symptoms, I am pretty sure. It’s a hard reset for our bodies and it takes a while to find an equilibrium. Showers, lotion, antihistamines, and I’ve even used cold packs and damp cloths before. Hang in there! Good to see you check in today!
@Juniper and @SugarBear60 Good to see you two checking in on day 1! Looking forward to seeing you check in tomorrow, and always remember to reach out on the forum anytime…ANYTIME! 
After a slight miscalculation I realize today is actually day 363 lol! So here we are.
I had a great sessiob with my therapist this morning.
Gave me some strength and insight.
So glad I im therapy!
And also… this saturday is my big 1 year sober!
I went through it all alone and without proffesional help. How should I celebrate it? 
@Fury congrats on 200 days 
@Benroth welcome and congrats on 4 days
@montasir congrats on 90 days
@MagicILY congrats on 40 days
@Private50 Feel better soon 
@marcusmaximus2000 congrats on your official soberversary 
@SugarBear60 @Juniper welcome and congrats on day 1
150 days of freedom from alcohol 
though it was 10th of August when I quit as soon as I found out I had Fatty Liver Disease, so 5 whole calendar months will be this Sunday.
118 days no cocaine.
Did my meditations.
I haven’t managed any reading today, been doing job and rental property searching, which has lead nowhere, but there’s still hope, I haven’t had any news yet, and there is that one saying ‘no news is good news’
I think I will read some of the self-esteem book after dinner, because it puts me in a positive headspace.
Happy dance for you Marc! Huge congrats! A full year is enormous!
Day 122: Yesterday was quite the day! I didn’t have the emotional energy to share this yesterday, but I had a conversation with our vet regarding a question about medication, and then he took the time to speak with me a bit more about Chucho’s condition, what I’ve been doing to help him eat, etc. I got off the phone and had to break down sobbing, because he gave me such a sense of peace about everything, I could feel my shoulders lift and my breath come easier. He was so kind and reassuring, saying that considering the advanced stage of Chucho’s heart condition when first diagnosed, he’s amazed we have made it almost half a year! It reminded me that when we first got the diagnosis we were talking days or weeks, maybe a month. He said that I have been observant, done my homework, thought through things and have done the best I can with the information I have and that I should feel really good about that. And that Chucho is a damned tough critter, LOL! I had to choke back my tears then, and said I was just so grateful for the care he had provided and the willingness to guide us through this. It’s funny, at first blush he comes across as a terse, kinda grizzled older guy, but I couldn’t ask for a better vet. No nonsense but compassionate and really knowledgable.
What does this have to do with recovery? Well, my last lapse was around the time Chucho first got his diagnosis, roughly a few weeks after first showing some concerning symptoms. I credit a huge piece of not only staying sober but honing in on recovery to the desire to be my best self, knowing that I needed to be in order to handle this crisis. That then morphed into wanting to be fully present to enjoy the time I had left with the kiddo, and not just scrape by. I went through a previous doggy health crisis with my other dog the year before and I was an absolute mess, crippled by anxiety and no emotional stability to speak of. It was horrible. The memory of that time coupled with being at the point where I was working on sobriety seemed to help things line up for me. I wish it didn’t take my dog getting a terminal diagnosis for me to commit to recovery, but it is what it is. I have had thoughts of whether I will want to drink when he does die. To be honest, thinking about it does feel like a trigger. At the same time, I have used alcohol to deal with every other death, loss, terrible moment, and it did nothing but prolong the pain, even worsen the pain in the moment! It simply does not help. So I do not plan on it, but as always, I am not drinking today and I am good with that.
So glad to see more people coming to check in here! Please remember that you can share both your good days and bad, your triumphs and your struggles, or even just your blah days. It’s being here that counts. Sending love out to you.
Holy Moley… Day 3 and reading all the posts and just feeling a bit in awe of all you magical peeps. Journey is a day by day progression and I feel like having to reset the timer is the biggest deteriant during my evening witching hour. Anyone else get that??? Its like my safety switch or blanket… see the timer and chose something else girl!
On December 21st I decided to give myself 365 days of kindness. I started slow, but journaling everything (I am not fond of journaling so big step for me). Starting to excerise again and feeling so much support from my hubby. Wishing the same for you wherever you are at on this journey! Warm hugs to ya’all today!
I’m so glad you’ve found some peace. As a fellow dog parent, I am so sorry you have to go through this but you are treating him so well and giving him every possibility to enjoy life to the fullest.
You’re so strong for staying sober through this all and I’m sure he thanks you for that! I know I never walked my dogs enough or gave them enough excercise when I was drinking. Now you have a clear mind to take care of him and enjoy your time together.
Give the old man some pets for me!
Words to keep going back to… its a seems like a strong truth for you. 
Coming along as good as I can,
Still managing depression but trying to make it work. Day off of work so I’m just chilling. Literally I walked to 7-eleven for cigarettes and it’s cold AF out.
I talked to my roommate who fell out he’s in treatment decided he wants to do a 30 day program and it’s for the best, he said he’s grateful we talked him into it. That he would have kept going down the hole if we didn’t stop him.
My other housemate is sick, and requires a COVID test. He doesn’t exhibit classic COVID symptoms but they want to be proactive, in the meantime we are doing what we can isolating and sterilizing everything in the meantime.
Thinking about hitting up the local BMX park for some air time, but the cold weatber is discouraging me.
I absolutely get that! Not wanting to reset…and then the more I’ve been active here and built relationships the more I am motivated as well. I do not want to have to say I slipped up again, after having done that a few times here. Of course I never got anything than support and encouragement so I’m not afraid of judgment, but I still don’t want to let my sober fam down! It works for me 
Day 14. No fanfare. No pride in this accomplishment. With a mere couple of days lapse in judgement, I find myself at this number. Today, I am sober. Counting days has become a mental mind f*ck for me. I feel like I am not as present as I would like. Really, I don’t care about that number. I care about today. Dear @Dazercat - I am not drinking today and I am probably not drinking tomorrow.
@montasir Great work on 90 days! Woohoo!
Congrats on 200, @Fury!!!
@Figgie - I had a passing moment where I was like, “F*ck it!” And then I grabbed hold to the forum - still shaky, but hanging in.
@MagicILY Yay for 40!!
@marcusmaximus2000 - Fantastic!
Welcome @SugarBear60 Fear is normal and it does get easier.
@Juniper - Jessie, keep on keeping on, my friend. It’s not over until you stop trying.
@RosaCanDo I am enjoying watching your growth here.
Day 13 here. I changed my start time because yes, noon on Christmas Eve was my last drink but I was not sober. So Ive changed it to 12am Christmas morning. No sense in lying to myself. Hope you’re all hanging in there and having a good day.
I take it at 430 in the morning when I wake up. Occasionally I will take some pre workout but I haven’t touched that in a while, I don’t drink soda. Just almond milk and water, so no caffeine at all. I know my mind was excited after I met that kid and like I kept replaying the conversation in my head and, my mind will do that alot when I’m trying to sleep which is what I thought these medicines were spoce to help with.
One month and one day.
Checking in.
Firmly on Shakey ground… I’ve relapsed at this stage so many times before.
Going the distance this time.
Phone broken probably won’t be back until I have a new SIM.
