Checking in, day 1006.
@SoberGuyUSA that thread is closed so I’ll respond here… things are good. Life is good…It’s 2021 and that makes me happy! How about you?
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Hey,
I’ve seen you explode before and you graciously returned to this forum and was welcomed back. Please know that everyone here wants you to do well. We all have challenges and I appreciate that you have some considerable ones to deal with such as D.I.D. You have also contributed a lot to this forum and that has been appreciated.
I hope you feel better. I wish you well. 
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You said what I wanted to say, better than I could. @ICanAndWill we are here to support you. You only need ask.
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I hope you feel better bro.
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Day 364.
The streak of good days might be over depends on my perspective and yours…
Sticking to my routine of prayers, daily readings, writing, volunteering, and gratitude. Listened to some music. Ate some decent food. Talked with my sister and texted with mom. Had a house meeting and attended an NA zoom meeting.
The NA meeting was good and I shared as hotestly and openly as I could. I mentioned how sick I am of the covid excuse. That’s partly what I believe it to be, another one of our addict and alcoholic excuses. If you want to stay off the booze and drugs, cigarettes or sex, gambling or food addictions, it can be done, one day at a time covid does not change that. Loneliness due to covid does not change it, financial difficulty due to covid does not change it, anyway you get it. Lmao pure frustration Laugh
The house meeting went terribly, had and still has me a little stressed. One of the staff members tested positive for covid and we only found out today. That staff member hasn’t been in for a shift for a week now. I feel good but my housemates instantly began judging me and telling me what to do. You know how much we all love being told what to do. I as a person who goes out of his way to help out even during covid really doesn’t want to hear it. I practice social distancing, wear a mask sanitize and wash my hands extremely routinely. As I mentioned I am exhibiting no symptoms other than frustration that myself and the counsellor who comes in to facilitate the house meetings literally got yelled at. I shared a little at the NA meeting on this as well. I will pray again about it too. I have discussed with my housemates that I found there behaviour inappropriate, yet I do understand it. It’s a scary place we are in this covid pandemic and need to support eachother not lash out. Writing all this out here does even more to lessen the burden, which is why we do this together, like my nickname out whatever you call it says. I can’t do this alone but together we can.
So back to my opening post thought… I believe it was still a good day. I’m clean and sober. Grateful to have problems I can solve. Grateful to have this place to share it. God bless you all. 
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P.s. you are so good looking. Ya you!!
P.p.s. Fucking right I’m excited, almost at a whole year. TS friends that have already made it there thanks for your help lighting the way. Anyone not there yet I believe in you. Join us your worth it. Ya you!!
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Congratulation on 364 really a great achievement
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A bard composes and recites poetry and writing. Billy Shakespeare was known in his time as The Bard. It’s the Tudor equivalent of being The King or The Boss.
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I am glad you are here now socializing and not isolating. Like you said, its only up from here. Your friend is lucky to have you for support, at least you are doing some really good things in the world by helping your friend. It does sound like a lot that you are dealing with right now. Personally, Ive noticed that the more things I survive while sober the stronger I feel both mentally and physically afterwards… When you get to the sunny days that are coming up (soon I hope), you are going to feel amazing. I am rooting for you… Job avenue #5 is the one… I can feel it. Hang in there.
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Please reach out if you need any help. There are a lot of awesome people on this Forum who can help.
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Awesome @RyanSA. Crossfit cleared my mind tonight and made me appreciate how I feel in the moment (because I legit hurt) Damn proud you told that damn voice to fuck off and how exciting is it to be able to post your Day 15!
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Day 49. Happy Friday everyone!
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Day 200.
Friday none too soon. I stayed up too late last night reading. Having spent too long filling my evenings with wine, I’d forgotten how much I love to lose myself in a good book. While I may have a substitute addiction in the works, I’ll take “just one more chapter” over refilling my glass (was it ever really just one glass?) any day. 
I have to chip away at some paperwork this weekend I’ve been avoiding. Now I’ve built it up in my mind as some kind of epically daunting task. Everest. (I’ll check in tomorrow from base camp. Now that would be fun!) Gonna set manufactured, artificial deadlines and mini-rewards to pull it off. Hope to get back on the ski trails too - fresh snow in the forecast, after all.
And that’d be a day, good people. Let’s do another one tomorrow. We have it in us, I’m sure of it.
G’night all, big love. 
@MagicMama and @AllyP and @RyanSA Ah, I love your posts! Isn’t that the best feeling? To have gone into the ring with a really tough craving (like a team of cravings) and come out victorious? That natural high of triumph beats anything we put into our bodies, no?
@ICanAndWill I hope we can all work this out. I think we can if we try. We likely all have something to learn if we’re open to it.
@I.cant.We.can Your post - like @Lisa07’s earlier this week - just another example of the serenity prayer in action. Neither of you caving as the houses and people in them fell down around you. I learn from your examples! Every. Single. Day.
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Good going, Emm!
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@M-be-free49
What? Not even mentioning the big 200?
I would be shouting it from ts rooftops!
Congratulations!
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I thought I’d find you again.
Big congrats. Again.
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Hello. I’m here because I have a problem with porn and masturbation. I just have to get control of myself. And I need to be accountable to someone. So I thought I’d give this a try. Because I know I can’t do it alone. I have to stop watching porn for sure. I’m not sure about masturbation, if I have to stop that completely. At least for now I’m going to try to limit it to maybe once in three weeks. I do it way too much, and it has a bad impact on my mood and personality. I’m not even sober for a day, but I had to write this now, because I know I won’t want to tomorrow because I’ll just be craving. So to start off my rules are no porn at all and if I masturbate more than once in three weeks I will start over. That’s it for now.
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Amazing. Muy gigante big big felicidades, amiga mía! Well earned 200. I am looking forward to when I can finally settle down enough to get deep into a book again. So happy for you and proud of you!
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congratulations 
you’ve done an amazing job! You add so much to the community I’m glad you are here. 
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Welcome, Jesse. Good for you for setting an intention for yourself and making a “public” statement. Vulnerability is strength, admitting we have a problem and need help is brave. Hope to see you around. I don’t have specific details, but I know there is a private thread/group message specific to PMO addictions and you can request to be added to it if you wish. @Matt can help, I believe.
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Already proud of you, Jesse. Welcome and please stick around, read, and reach out.
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