@Charlie_C congrats on 70 days 
@MagicMama congrats on 3 weeks and happy birthday:balloon: for yesterday, hope the getaway is relaxing 
@RetainKing congrats on 60 days
@Soundlab congrats on your week
@Petri congrats on 6 months
@Singtone congrats on 3 weeks
@nwags congrats on 3 weeks
@Clarity congrats on 6 months
@Quit4myDaughter congrats on 300 days
@Ewok1904 congrats on 30 days
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ok, its over. Except while I was searching in her bedroom Dad found 4 unopened bottles in another room. He chose to take them with us. Said, oh ill give them to someone… Im not happy about that. We are dropping her trach at the recycling center now and I told him he should give them to the people working here. @littlemisschatterbox just saw your message. Thank you
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Checking in 
Really need to start making some changes in my life. Not just recovery related but in other areas of my life too. I seem to have trouble following through with things. Ugh 
I’m tired of living this way. Like why the hell can’t I just get it. I want to be clean and sober. I want to have financial stability. I want to be healthy and exercise and feel good about my body. I want to feel pretty on the outside like I used to and have the time and energy to get ready for my day without having to rush every morning. Today is day 0… once again! I just dont get it. Like why can’t I be honest with myself about my addiction. I hate my brain lol anyway… besides the fact that I used last night, I am at work today. Not feeling the greatest and feeling pretty shitty about myself (which is a good thing I suppose bcuz then maybe I’ll stop f*cking up). Like I just feel like I can’t pull myself out of this rut. I KNOW that as long as I stay clean things will fall into place for me. I just need the clean time.
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The smell when you are dumping it out can be overwhelming so put on potpourri, burn incense, open the windows, anything to block it. And like others have said, have someone with you - even if on zoom/skype/facetime! We’re all here for you - Post if you need support and we’ll come running!!
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US is amazing. But Whittard of Chelsea is probably going to be the best tea forever. I’ll take the best of both words. Meeting up with friends and family in US (If you like country you’ll love Memphis and Nashville, I might not be objective here, family and friends in Memphis) and vacations in UK, London is amazing. And I’m dreaming about going to Nottinghamshire and Sherwoood Forrest. I’ve heard it’s supposed to be an old fashioned candy store in a city nearby as well the greatest thing with living in Europe id the “non distance” that makes traveling easier when it’s not a pandemic.
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@Luckyredz congrats on triple digits 
@Briella welcome back, congrats for your honesty.
@Mephistopheles congrats on the interview, good luck 
@Butterflymoonwoman sending strength, never give up 
168 days no alcohol.
136 days no cocaine.
I got the news I’ve been patiently waiting for all month today, I got an interview for the Dual Diagnosis Outreach Worker position 
I’m naturally instantly terrified, it’s not until the 10th February, the day before my other one, so there’s a couple of weeks to try to prepare.
It snowed here yesterday, my estate is like an ice rink so I can’t risk going out and doing myself any extra injuries, hoping it melts soon so I can resume my short walks.
I finished the first book in the series from the fiction and I’m making short work of the 2nd book, I’m finding them so exciting and my imagination is actually working for a change.
I have managed not to binge-eat since the treats I allowed myself Saturday night, have had some cravings today but there’s no way I’m driving in the ice for crisps!
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65 days and sick as a dog. Waiting on covid results, but I did test positive for strep. Ugh.
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Definitely be at a meeting girl, know that! Thanks for the air hugs… 
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I’m totally in love with the American south, Florida sounds like a dream to me. But I’m probably pleased as long as it’s palm trees and decent weather, like over +10 c year around. 
Would probably still go to Sweden during May to July anyway, even if it’s colder sometimes. Daylight 24/7 is hard to beat no matter the sun hours.
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Hey, @Butterflymoonwoman
I’m glad your back and trying again. It seems to me you are always struggling for that “clean time”. You come and go on here and have been popping in for as long as I can remember. I was reading something the other day. I can’t remember exactly what but it made me think of you. Basically:
“If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always got’. If you want change, you have to change.”
I really am a big fan of yours. And I pray for you when you pop in. I cannot imagine your pain. I do remember a lot of your story. I know you been through a lot. No one should have to go through the shit you been through. No one! I hope you can find that clean time because you are so worth it. You are a beautiful kind artistic lovely lady. And you’re worth so much more. You WILL be in my prayers.
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Thank you
Also, I noticed that you were 136 days free from cocaine. My doc is crack cocaine. Any advice that has worked for you. That shit just has some sort of power over me :S
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Your post made me tear up… not in a bad way. What you said really means alot to me. I LOVE that saying. Im going to write it down… maybe get it tattooed or something lol It’s true. I just struggle with things… not just with recovery but with other things too. I’m starting to get frustrated with myself. I CAN do this… ull see I’m positive I can… its just keeping that motivation going and not giving in so easily. Sometimes I wonder if I really, REALLY try not to use when I’m craving it. Like do I give in too easily. Do I use everything in my recovery toolbox before I decide to pickup? And to be honest, I don’t think I do. That needs to change. I love being clean! I just need to string together a longer period of time
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Day 140: I’m grateful to be sober today. Working on my mental health and dealing with grief is only possible without the numbing of alcohol. I’m struggling with some pain flare ups and that is a huge bummer, but we are about to be nailed by a snowstorm and I’m excited. So, I’ll leave it at that, friends. Sober on 
@CapriciousCapricorn I’m so glad you’re here! I have also been trying to take irritation (which I have a lot of) and look inward and it doesn’t always seem to settle things. In aspects of my life at home, in the world, online. Feel myself drifting away from the forum at times. I don’t have any answers, but I like the idea of “maintaining focus” on this thread. It’s been my favorite one…
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You’re going to be fine. Because you don’t drink. I can’t believe you haven’t been around alcohol for 7 months. I believe you when you say that. But. Alcohol is everywhere!! I have also been in the situation your in. Way too many times cleaning out an apartment after a person who is an addict. It’s disgusting. Usually I’m so angry. I feel anger can be use as a benefit in some situations. I would be so angry right now if I was you. You got this Corin. Be angry at the Booze and throw it all out. And you’ve got every right to be angry. You got this you beautiful sober lady.
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I guess I was a little late on my last post. Glad that’s over for ya.
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Hey Corin, I see you made it through the other side successfully, I knew you been a bit off lately so I’m sure it was tough.
As far as your dad, I mean I understand the mentality of dont let anything go to waste, but just tell him, you seen first hand what this shit does to people, why give that curse to someone else.
I’m proud of you,
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Day 1504. Stressed out over distance learning. I spent 36 minutes trying to log my daughter onto band. They changed the zoom meeting ID and log on method – it now requires an email address which I would need to look up. You’d think they might have emailed the parents to let us know??
When stuff like this happens, I think back to my drinking days. I would drink over a stressful school drop-off. So this would have been a reason for sure to drink. Now I just sit here in a grumpy mood. Glad I am not drinking today, grumpy mood and all!
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Message me and I’ll fill you in
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Gross, hope it isn’t too terrible.
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- Haven’t been on here much for the last two days. Feeling bad for feeling bad today. Super grumpy, irritable and needing a nap soon
Not sure why. Was gonna respond to a negative post on this thread, but I will wait for my own stuff to pass before I do 
Hope you guys have an awesome, sober day!
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