Sorry that happened to you…though it definitely seems you took the exact right lesson from it…
I’m lucky I haven’t seen my dealer in three years…last time I did was the last time I used.
Let us all get as far away from that toxic void as humanly possible 
@apes2020 Enjoy your detox!
Enjoy your retreat April. I’ll miss you and Baby while you’re away but I know it’s going to benefit your recovery process. I have to admit, I’m jealous. 
He’s a POS and thank God you’re not in that circle anymore, Mike. Take that as a sign that you’re doing good and maybe look at him with empathy.
Onward with the good life, my friend! 
Checking in…end of day 32. Feeling the feels tonight…
I will sit with it, feel it, deal with it. No plans to change my course, no desires to drink…Maybe I just need some actual sleep. Regardless, the feels are there wanting to get out. Need to find myself a private space and just scream it out.
That is a lot for your family to handle. The mother sounds like a piece of work. As if childhood isn’t hard enough, this child has had it rough. Truly, though, it sounds like you are trying to do the best for her. Sounds exhausting. If I recall from a previous post you have been in her life since she was a little tyke. And you know she doesn’t hate you. You are available! Trying to help her. Makes sense in her unsettled state she would lash out at the person who is probably doing the most for her. If she can get you to hate her then she will know with certainty she is unlovable. On one hand I feel very sorry for her. But on the other, if it were me, I would want to throttle her for being such a little pill.
Thanks for sharing and the BEST of luck tomorrow!!
To the moon 
Just a suburbian health/wellness retreat.
Awwww man, now you triggered my new boot goofin’ addiction 
I must have missed your tat pic, off to find it 
That sounds intense…
…how was the pizza though?
Oh wow! It came out soooo good! Yeah, pics don’t do them justice. But I can’t even imagine it looking any better. Glad you put so much thought into it. It sure paid off and you’ll feel so proud every time you look at it 
Not feeling so great. The parental alienation has become too much and I waved the white flag today. They win. I have therapy tomorrow, thank God, and thank God I’m sober. This would have killed me.
Day 4.
Starting to feel like myself again.
Did yoga and meditation this morning and just finished my workout.
Drank more than enough water.
Homeschooled, watched harry potter 6, and cooked some bomb ass food.
Happy Thursday
Day 131. Worked another 12 hour day today, so now all I want to do is sleep. Before I do, though, a few shout outs:
Congratulations on 90 days, @Tomek! I’m glad that things seem to be evening out for you a bit. Also, thank you for checking out the baking blog!
FIVE MONTHS, @RosaCanDo! Way to go! I know that a ton of things have happened in these past five months, but you’re still sober, and you’re here with us, which makes me so happy!
@Fury, I’m glad you’re back, and I know you’re going to do so well when you give your talk. You’ve got this, and I’m looking forward to your novel of a share here!
@apes2020, enjoy your retreat! I hope you have a lovely, peaceful time.
I’ll miss you girl! Enjoy your time. I’m interested to hear all about it when you get back.
Wow, that’s intricate 
Day 69. Been a great week so far. Today I was a guest speaker in my friends high school classes he teaches (virtually), and it was so awesome. Took most of the day and I volunteered my time, but it was worth it. Really inspiring to talk with these students. And I should still be able to wrap up my regular work tomorrow and be free to enjoy the weekend. Amazing how when I’m not drinking and smoking weed I have the energy to do these things…
