Thank you, I appreciate that. I will pray for the father of your children. I know it’s hard. Enjoy your gardening on this beautiful Sober Sunday 
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Feeling good, happy, and content. I’ve been spending the weekend studying for my final. My class ended Thursday. My next one starts in 9 days, so a nice little break.
I’m having some anxiety because I fell way behind. Doc has been pushing adderall on me for almost a year now because honestly, my ADHD is really annoying to others. I’m used to it 
Anyway, I tried it a little over 20 years ago and hated it. It made me really mean. However, I was also on a double dose of another stimulant to manage my eating disorder.
So, at first the adderall made me so damn tired that I literally fell asleep in multiple classes. I have never done that in my life. It was like taking a powerful sleeping pill. I couldn’t stay up to study or do my homework. So right now I’m on the 5th of 12 modules 
Crap! The good news is that the adderall is no longer making me useless, and I’m starting to notice a bit more motivation.
Have a lovely sober Sunday everyone 
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Proud of you, Chris 
Well done! Sobriety suits you, keep on trekking 
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Checking in at the end of day 70. 10 weeks. Amazing.
To those of you who said that the urges would recede over time, thank you. They really have. I have had a number of opportunities to drink, but I have absolutely no desire to.
It seems a strange thing to say as a 50 year old man, but I feel like an adult for the first time in my life. I feel calm, relaxed and in control. I feel awake and aware. I feel like I can trust myself to do the things that I want and need to do. I feel like I’m a better husband, a better father, and that I’m better at my job. My anxiety has all but disappeared.
This week, including this weekend, has been the busiest I can remember for a long time, both at work and at home. I have absolutely loved it. Everything has been done and done properly. I have a vague recollection of feeling capable somewhere in the dim and distant past and the feeling is coming back to me now. I thought that feeling was gone forever.
I feel like I have been operating at 50% capacity for the last 30 years. If I think about it long enough, I feel devastated that those years of my life have come and gone with me sleepwalking through them. With my glass half full, however, I feel fortunate that I have at least discovered it now and that there are better, more fulfilling times ahead.
Apologies. This feels like a really self-indulgent post. I’m feeling great about not drinking though, and I want you all to know it.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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No need to apologize, Tony. Thank you for the excellent share! Your story can help give hope to others early in their attempts to be sober - it is inspiring to see what is possible! I’m happy for you, and I can relate! It’s a wonderful feeling!
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New life, new plans. New plans, new life! 
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I loved this post. I’m 45 and need to stop thinking about what could have been in my life without alcohol, but it is hard. Thanks so much for sharing this.
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1166. Although, the week has been difficult, I had these Lil Beauties and my handsome Mister Man with me for the night. My kids are older so having the innocence of little kids is great and being sober helps me be a good Tt for them. I love that they get so excited to come spend the night with me. We had a movie night we watched Raya (Great movie). They actually slept in which always baffles their parents because apparently they only do that with me
. We’re up and going to have breakfast. Happy Sober Sunday TS fam have a great day.
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They’re absolutely beautiful! 
Love those happy faces.
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Day 40. It really doesn’t matter to me if I or anyone else labels me an alcoholic. I could still function ok but I also could identify some of the same addiction warning signs as I had for my addiction to nicotine (quit smoking almost 9 years ago).
The time spent drinking (more & more alone) instead of doing activities with others. Frequently focused on replenishing my supply and always looking forward to enjoying a glass or two (or more). To relax. To reward myself. Self-moderating the when, where & how much. Spending way to much time thinking about & restraining myself with self-talk to keep “it” in check. Ya. Sounds like the same ole addiction traits of control over me.
I hate being controlled by anyone or anything. I promised my 19 year old abused young self that I would never allow it to happen again but in coming to terms with my nicotine addiction many years later I recognized that I had allowed something to control me once again. The same I now acknowledge had become true for my drinking.
I chose to stop drinking. No more negotiating it’s use limitations with myself. The yearning for & self-moderating had become a daily focus. Just like with cigarettes. If you have one the “chatter” becomes louder but if you choose not to have one (over & over again in the beginning) then the chatter is eventually subdued or hopefully silenced for longer & longer periods of time making it easier to tell yourself no. This silence & peace is what I am seeking in choosing not to drink. I want my control back. It’s not easy but I’m on my way.
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Coffee, yoga, church today. Life is good.
Been thinking a lot about how I am, dare I say this, GLAD things got so bad that I am now determined to never put a toxic substance in my body ever again.
I get to live the rest of my life sober instead of with the frequent hang overs and black outs and shit show that used to be my life. What a blessing! I will never look back and regret this decision. I will only be thankful. Happy Sunday!
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Checking in sober, Day 432. Feels late to be checking in, the US time change has me all off kilter. Still, I started the day right: sober! Just made a nice brunch of fresh eggs from a neighbor’s chickens with some sausage from the local butcher. Now I’m sipping a coffee, catching up here on TS, and enjoying a peaceful morning. Plan to do a meditation on Recovery Dharma, then go for a hike. Later I’ll skype with the kids, then end the day like it began: sober. Have a great day, everyone!!!
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LOL ahh! The time change! I forgot. I woke up and it was 6:30am and dark outside and I was confused but just went with it.
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Too funny!!! 
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Checking in, day 129. I should definitely cut back smoking, yesterday my lung hurt, had heart palpitations and felt myself really sick. I guess I treat it as a reward and a punishment at the same time and I deeply need both. I kind of lost the framework of life to adjust to and now it’s hard to find out my own priorities without validation from the real world, so I got more permissive and more judgmental with myself at the same time.
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A great number. Congratulations!!
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MONTHS
When I saw people celebrating their 5th, 6th … months on this platform during my first days quit, I was thinking how far it was to me. I have now finished my 7th month. I thank for that and wish God to help us move forward
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 196.
Nothing to report and it’s going to be a very short post. The new update/sober times version doesn’t really seems to operate smooth in my phone. In fact it barley works.
The latest exam I did a few weeks ago, and highly doubted that I was going to pass. Because I wasn’t sure I even understood what I had written came back. With the highest grade possible and really nice comments from my professor about my writing. So that’s a huge ego boost. Unfortunately it’s time for the last seminar on part two in this course tomorrow and then another exam.
Besides that I discovered that my two favorite blazers, one Hot Pink (Yes I know that wasn’t a huge surprise ) and one in strong purple is about 3 numbers to big nowdays because of major weightloss.
You know what that means. More shopping, and because skinny jeans apparently is totally out (And looks hysterically strange on me If I don’t wear them with boot, because I’ve got huge feets,) I might as well buy some new jeans too. My husband isn’t really happy about that, but it’s good to be mostly second hand because we still got some money issues.
Anyway I hope all of you had a great weekend. Love from Sweden.
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Day 188: My husband just said, “I’ve had a really great weekend with you.” My heart is happy. It has been lovely and I am feeling pretty peaceful about things. However, I have been procrastinating on some homework from my therapist, so I will spend some time on that today and get back to her tomorrow to start the week off on a good foot. We are expecting up to half a foot of snow tomorrow morning, but it won’t be sticking around for long, thank goodness.
Much love, TS amigos!
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