Glad you are feeling better!
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Good morning! I have been in an exceptionally great mood the last couple days. Which means my exwife will call soon for something and ruin it haha.
Have a great day my friends!
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Congratulations Frank, on your 60 days of freedom from alcohol and not having to plan your life around where the next drink is. Or how. Or when. Or etcā¦ā¦It was exhausting. Good for you man.
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Hello guys. Checking in day 38.
@SelfLove_42 Hey man, thanks for always supporting. Today also was a bit hard. Had thoughts about watching but I did not give in. Anyway, have you heard from @KevinesKay ?
Its only the second time I made it so far and am looking to make it to 90 and more.
Have a great day guys. Peace
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Thank you. Your reply leans a lot. Much love
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Thank you. The fact that I felt nothing really has opened my eyes a lot. I wish I could undo it, but it has taught me a lot
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We will healā¤ļø
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Haha! Gave me a chuckle. When Iām on the phone with my 3 youngest kids and conversation is great, kids are communicating and my week is goodā¦ My ex typically and abruptly will say some false accusing snyd remark and hangup on me and the kids.
So I can kinda relateā¦
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Thank you! Yes, very exhausting.
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So so happy for you!! 
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Checking in
Day17
Itās 1139am here. Im apologizing now for the long post 
Honestly last night and this morning has been awful and full of worry. I had an awful sleep and have been so busy trying to figure stuff out that i havent even ate anything yet. Havenāt done my morning routine either.
It wasnt due to cravings tho. My husband came home last night from his dental consultation. He was prescribed strong antibiotics for a week to help get rid of a very bad infection that is in his gums. Heās always had issues with teeth due to past injuries, and then drug use in his past, and then being incarcerated and I guess not looking after his teeth well. Idk what caused this. Anyway, heās been having pain for months in his face and this is why. The dr told him that he maybe has 6-9 months to take care of this before the infection gets to his heart and he dies basically. I guess teeth issues can be very severe. We hadnāt had benefits for so long and he kept pushing off dealing with the pain bcuz we didnāt have money (due to drug use), so now we have to pay $1600 for his teeth being pulled to just get rid of the infection. Itās sooo bad that the pain in his neck, shoulders, face and headaches are due to this infection pulling oxygen out of the surrounding areas.
So there was alot of tension and stress and worry last night. I even had a thought of taking more than 1 of my new pills (1 is only prescribed to me a day)ā¦ which I didnt, but I thit this bcuz they have a very drowsy effect on me. And all I wanted to do was to stop thinking and sleep. So it did cross my mind to take more so itāll knock me out (not even to get high, just to sleep). But if I did that, it would be a relapse in my eyes and Iām not abusing my meds.
So today I was busy trying to figure out finances. Trying to be grateful that he went to see a dentist yesterday. Grateful that I pushed for medical benefits bcuz if it wasnāt for these new benefits he wouldnāt have gone to that appt. And he wouldāve lived with this pain and most likely died from it. Iām thankful for my brother doing our taxes today so we can get a refund (hopefully) and have $$ to pay for his teeth pulling etc. The benefits only cover 1000 so we will have to pay out of pocket. And Iām hella grateful that we are clean and getting back on track slowly with our $$. Iām grateful that thruout everything that is going on, I havenāt really thot of using. Just the odd thot here and there.
This makes me realize how badly we treat our bodies in the problem. And how we donāt look after ourselves. And now we (he is currently) facing the consequences of prolonged waiting to seek medical help. Heād rather use gorilla glue and tape to put a cut from work back together then getting stitches. Like itās soo important for us to look after ourselves. The important thing is getting those bottom teeth out and then the tops have to go next year. But im grateful we have a chance to fix this.
Again, sorry for the long post. Its been one hell of an emotional Rollercoaster
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Congratulations on those 38 days. Thatās awesome. Iām still around. Iām just not checking in so often. So far, Iām on day 129.
Thanks for thinking of me
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Day 1221 Sober
Day 13 on Parole
When people ask me how I feel, Iām at a loss for words. I feel too much to describe.
This isnāt a bad thing. But itās a lot to try to convey in a simple, understandable way.
The headline here is:
I HAVE A LOT TO BE GRATEFUL FOR.
Where to beginā¦ Hmmmm how bout a gratitude list?
I woke up with the sun today, ready to wake and joyfully sober.
This morning I get to lay in my bed, sip earl grey tea, and complete safety training courses online.
I get to be lovingly supportive of my wife (Kerrieās) need for space. Allowing her to focus on her personal wellbeing.
I got to visit with my dear friend and sponsor, Bob,
Yesterday in my home and share a lovely conversation with him and Kerrie.
I have a new job opportunity and am in the final phase of screening.
I got to talk on the phone with two of my former supervisors who are generously recommending me for this new job opportunity.
I got to reconnect with my friend David and open myself up to his offer of financial support.
I have more friends and love coming my way than I can handle, and it makes my heart swell, everyday.
I found the exact dresser I was looking for, this week, and today I get to unpack my clothes into it.
I have a beautiful new home to share with Kerrie and we get to decorate and arrange furniture together. Taking our time as we do so.
I get to fill out a rental application and provide bank statements to my landlord today, opening my heart to wonder instead of worry.
On Saturday, I get the opportunity to show my character and integrity to my landlord, when we meet in person for the first time.
Outside my front door is a beautiful neighborhood, full of trees, nestled in the foothills of picturesque mountains, walking distance from shopping/dining and AA+NA meetings.
I donāt HAVE TO walk anywhere because I have my truck and my license again.
I get to call whomever I like, at any point in the day, and tell them I love them /miss them /hope to catch up soon.
This afternoon I get to go to my first yoga class in damn near two years.
I get to share that experience with my wife.
Today I can be compassionate toward myself and others, without fear of judgements or misunderstanding
Today I get to make progress in many different aspects of my life, through simple straight forward effort and honest attention.
I do not need to drink or use to be OK today.
I get to love myself instead.
Whoa.
Thatās a bigger list than I thought it would be when I started it. I guess thatās how it works though. We see what we look for.
I hope you guys can shine a light on the things youāre grateful for today. I love you.
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Thank you sober buddy 
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Of course sober buddy
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Harder day today, feeling meh ā¦
However, ploughing through. Itās always harder towards the weekend. I have a dental appointment really early as well tomorrow, so a bit nervy about that but been waiting two years for this treatment!
Think I will draw a line under today and retire to Bedfordshire.
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Everything your going to feel is absolutely normal, not nice but normal. 1 minute at a time I promise you this all gets easier. Well done on 3 days.
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That was beautiful. Thank you for sharing! You could always join in at the daily gratitude thread, too. Itās a wonderful read every day. I donāt post daily, but many do.
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Aaaah, sorry you are feeling rubbish, and about the dental appointment. I am also considering going up soon, probably would if the kids werenāt still wide awake. Love the saying off to Bedfordshire. The County north of me, call in on the way. I can provide soothing teas and a companion who is so tired theyāll stare into space
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