Good morning everyone! Day 2 completed and now working on day 3. I’m up early and getting ready for work. My anxiety is through the roof and I keep hoping nobody I work with was at the concert this weekend and recognizes me. I’m struggling with wanting to keep myself at home instead, but I know I have to go to work at some point. Here’s to hoping for a smooth day and staying on track. Hope everyone is having a good morning.
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Day 38 (Part 1) - I’m doing an early check in today as I feel so incredibly exhausted and broken down today.
I have realised that I have not been following the advice I read on here and I have myself recommended. I have spent the last week rushing around trying to meet other people’s expectations and my usual over inflated expectations of what I can achieve.
A large part of that is the guilt that I am not with the children full time anymore. So when I do see them I try to cram in all the things they want to do. I need to set healthy expectations for them and me.
I am working today but from home. I am slowly working through a backlog of work but the brain fog is real today.
Because of this I have decided to have a mental reset. Try and focus on what is happening today, not the anxieties about conveyancing and the future nor the frustrations of having no fixed abode and relying on the kindness of friends. I can feel that I am impacting their lives now and I really just want to get to a point where I have a place to call my own.
But wanting things to change isn’t going to get me anywhere and the conveyancing will be done when its done. I complete my actions as quickly as possible, now it is down to the professionals.
In the mean time I am going to focus on getting some good sleep. Eating well and exercising more, because those things are in my control.
I hope everyone is having a better day than me!
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Sounds like a brilliant idea!
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Day 10033.
I woke up a little after 6am this morning to a message from a friend who lives in Solvenia. His father just passed away. I didn’t have a muddled head and I wasn’t in a mania of tweaking so despite not having coffee yet I was able to speak to him with calmness and compassion. I was able to feel his pain and let him talk without making it all about me. The gifts of recovery are amazing.
I’ll be 69 in five weeks and I’m still a gamer. No longer hard core, up all night and day, but it is part of who I am. I’ve known this friend for five years and I love him dearly. Gaming has given me beloved friends from all over the world. I’m grateful for it. I’m grateful he thinks of me as his cyber mom and was able to reach out to me.
Sitting here in the stillness of the dawning day enjoying my morning cup and enjoying the stillness in my mind and heart. My one eyed cat, Pumpkin, wallowing on my lap being bathed in love. Perfect way to start my day.
Four days to the convention. Today I’m in pre-pack mode lol. Making my list of things to pack, laundry and shopping. Trying to calm my excitement and just be.
Lol so much for calming my excitement. I heard a different bird call and stepped outside to find this beauty perched in our tree and it’s mate soaring. Bald eagles are so majestic!
Have a blessed and sober 24!
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Oh they are adorable and precious!
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@BrianP i am so sorry you are going through this. Im sure Penny is greatful for the life you have provided. Although very tough on you take solice in the fact that this is the compassionate thing to do. So so sorry 
we are here for you. Just dont pick up! Come here. Weve got you
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Cutie-tooties! They look quite a handful!
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Hey all, checking in on day 743. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Today is day 60 for me. It’s been a struggle. But I am happy I have made it this far and look forward to seeing where things go from here.
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Thank you, I just figured it out lol
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Maneuvering around the app takes a bit to get used to. At least it did for me 
a HUGE congratulations on 2 months!!! Great work!
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Thank you, it has been a struggle but is getting easier. I’m just glad there are people out there that understand and relate to the same things I do.
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Oh absolutely. I felt really alone honestly with my addiction and struggled to get past 3 days of clean time. And since being on TS over the past couple years I got 133 days today having a support system helps SO much! And I truly have found some great friendships here from across the world
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On day 23 today. Last week was a shitty and stressful week. Not tempted to drink because I know that will not make anything better. When I’m struggling I need time by myself to process. I’ve explained this to my partner but he still takes it personally if I’m not bubbly or engaged or chatty. Hoping this week is better.
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Rome IS awesome. It was extremely hot, but I knew it would be. It was my third time in Caput Mundi, but the first one with my son. We took ling walks in the afternoons/evenings, visited some areas that tourists often don’t get to see, because of lack of time, went to a couple of galleries etc. The app on my phone shows that we walked almost 86 km in a week which is great… well, what with the heat and everything, it still is some activity :-))))
We argued a little bit, got on well most of the time and so on. Also, we went to Florence for a day, ‘cause we both adore it.
Thank you very much for your kind words.
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Morning Check in
Day 133
Morning TS fam! Feeling not too bad this morning. I worked out with weights and am planning my day now. I do have some grocery shopping to do as well as some supplies shopping for a cake I have to do for saturday. Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Thank you for so emphatically saying what is on my heart. Love to you.
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And I’m glad you’re here! Welcome!
you’ll find loads of support here just reach out anytime. Congrats on taking the first steps to change the rest of your life 