Checking in daily to maintain focus #45

18 days is great. I hope you will be able to get some rest tonight. And I hope that all this goes in your favor and helps you with your life and your sobriety.
That’s a disappointing gesture from your friend, I hope that doesn’t happen again, and I’m glad that it didn’t convince you that you needed to drink.
You don’t.
I think you’re doing great and are on the way to do better whether it be with counseling or medication or whatever they decide.

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Fantastic milestone, Flo! You’re an inspiration! :partying_face:

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104 days :sparkles:
It’s been a nice, wholesome and productive few days. Finished my unpacking finally.
A few small things I’m working on in the house, my snake is moving into a bigger enclosure which I’m escape proofing at the moment, and I have a planted aquarium I’ve got to get cycling, but we are basically done now which is awesome!
My kids, an older boy and younger girl have made close friends already with another brother and sister the same age in the neighbourhood. It’s so great, I had the girls here last night for a sleepover and the boys went to there house (did a kid swap haha).
Today the boys went our dirt bike riding, my sons first time riding motorbikes! The girls played all day, like they have known each other forever. Really feels good to see our move making a positive impact on them already.

Had a bit of a grumpy morning, was a bit tired and stroppy, the cold really irritates me haha. But I managed to turn it around and I didn’t drink- so that’s a win. And I’m glad I didn’t. Life is just getting good again. Thanks for listening :heart:

@Misokatsu massive congrats, 700 days what a bloody achievement!! :tada:

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Good morning. Had a slip and drank with some friends visiting us from out of town on Saturday night. Of course, I didn’t HAVE to drink, but I made a conscious decision to do it. I even played the tape forward and distracted myself with other things for awhile before that stupid “f*-it” switch flipped. I didn’t sleep well and woke up feeling anxious Sunday morning. So, I drank Sunday night. Good grief. :woman_facepalming:

I know this is the nature of addiction. That’s why we’re here. Having a spouse who drinks – and likes having me drink with him – is a major trigger, but it’s also a convenient excuse. No one is forcing me to drink. There have been many times I’ve enjoyed myself sober while my husband had a few to several beers. I’ve celebrated many holidays and worked through stressful tragedies with a clear head. It seems like little get togethers or even boredom are the times I find myself giving in.

So, I’m posting to be honest and accountable. And, I have a fresh Day 1 achieved.

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Good morning all! COFFEE!! Didn’t sleep well but it happens. Have an awesome sober day everyone.

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Hey fam, Hope everyone has a good day… Definitely can’t lie I fell into a funk yesterday and feeling a little off this morning still, it’s weird being in a funk around people I don’t know. It’s also nice to be here and not around my family taking it out on them and playing like I’m a victim, it’s nice to be a big boy for once. I did complete one of my goals yesterday and have a eye doctor appointment this Friday yayyy. Much love

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Hey all, checking in on day 758. I hope everybody has a good one!

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First, some shout-outs in no particular order (if I missed anybody, I’m sorry! Just let me know!)
@SoberGuyUSA & @Nordique Even if there’s nothing going on, you still check in to say hi. I should be consistent like that.
@Alycia Congrats on 104, I’m happy the move is going well; it’s usually a major upheaval.
@CB103036 You’re going to have a lot of people offer, some by accident, some are tempting you. Either way the important thing is to keep saying no.
@SadMemeQueen for 131, and @Butterflymoonwoman for 147, great work!!
@Misokatsu 700 days is downright inspiring!

Woke up around 5:45 having slept comfortably. My mood turned foul as soon as I realized I was awake. I’m beginning to think that’s just habit and there’s nothing organically wrong with my brain. :face_with_monocle:
But something good finally happened: my tax refund came in. Temptation. And not just for alcohol. I wanna get on Amazon and buy some crap I may or may not need in the future. Oh, and I found a promotional airfare for getting to France. If I buy my ticket in the next week or so, I’d pretty much be committed to hiking the Camino de Santiago. Good thing or not? I have such terrible follow-through on long term projects. Any ideas?

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Good morning friends, day 605. Dentist appointment this morning, then Costco trip. Working one more late shift to help out a teammate. Last few pieces of baseboard later and then bathroom DONE!
Have an awesome day! I am going to do mine sober!

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hey there, first time checking in. On day 3 after a long relapse, hoping to not fall back into the pit again this time. feeling good this morning!

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Great reminder!:white_heart:

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My husband still drinks too. He doesn’t drink nearly like he used to. It’s hard at times. He also likes me to drink with him. This time with my sobriety though he hasn’t really pushed it, yet. I also drink when I’m bored. In the early days we probably need more tools in our toolbox to help redirect us. I’m still trying to work out what that is for me. I think I’m going to start reorganizing my house on the weekends. That will be never ending so I’ll have plenty to keep me busy!:joy:

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:high_brightness: Morning Check in :high_brightness:
Day 148
Feeling sort of tired today. I woke up at 530am for a cardio session. Kind of struggled to get thru it but still feel good overall. I am noticing an addictive pattern that used to happen years ago when I’d basically live at the gym. Alot of people would say, well its a healthy addiction… it wasnt for me at the time. Emotionally and even physically it broke me. I pushed myself beyond what my body could realistically do. Anyway, I am supposed to take tmrw off (I only wanted to workout 4 times a week to gain balance in my life). I am already having anxiety over not going to the gym tmrw. I feel this pull to go and the fact that I set wednesday up for no gym is bugging me. Even yesterday I worked out in the morning and by the afternoon I wanted to do a home workout. I didnt tho bcuz I told myself that I worked out already today. I have completely becoming addicted to the gym (but my mind tells me that it’s not that bad, it’s healthy, ur doing something good for urself). I’m struggling to figure out if this is something I need to keep an eye on or if my anxiety is being triggered from past experiences with the gym from way before :woman_shrugging: I’m glad to be clean and sober today. Coming up to a milestone tmrw and I’m shocked honestly about it. Just incredible how life has changed in such a short amount of time :slight_smile:
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Lots of love :purple_heart:

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Day 38. Didn’t sleep well and up early. This is one thing about being sober I actually don’t mind, the getting up early and being able to function even when I did not sleep well. When I drank I could sleep forever, especially when I was hungover. I think I’ve lost years of my life to sleeping off hangovers.

I’m teaching 1 class today. Lots of drama at work. I’m trying to stay out of it. I work with all women so I guess drama is unavoidable. My friend who is my manager is the cause of it. I’m not really even sure if we’re friends anymore. Lol And I think I’m ok with that.

I find this funny in a way because as I have posted here previously, I’m a Yoga Instructor. Where I work, people come to get away from this type of shit. We’re not perfect either. Everyone everywhere has their shit. Oh and a lot of instructors drink and are not Vegan. I think that’s a misconception.:laughing:

Have a great day!:sparkles: ODAAT

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Omg I just laughed at ur post. Not in a mean way or anything but bcuz I can just relate to that work drama and the fact that ur in the yoga field and there still so much headache and drama lol I work in the social services field. We work with clients who highly behavioral and yet the drama at work is exhausting. I don’t get tired of working the clients. It’s the staff and management that I get tired of lol. And yet we are supposed to be supportive and compassionate and empathetic and yet they are the farthest things from it at times. That’s why I laughed lol I’ll be honest tho, I thought that alot of people who taught yoga were very all about the earth and vegan and very much about their health and mindset. Its a good reminder that we are all human no matter what field we are in :slight_smile:

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Day 121. Feel like shit thanks to covid. Still sober. Started a new home gym project since I realized it may not be safe to go to gym, cases are exploding in my city.

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Hahaha I get tired of clients here too though! Major drama when ever there is a schedule change. Threatening to freeze or cancel memberships over it. I’m too old for this. My customer service skills no longer work when I’m approached like that. My response is either to ignore them or just say, “Ok!”. :joy:

Some studios I have been at the owners are Vegan and the image they put forth is of what your stereotypical studio would be. However, the instructors they hire are usually not. But some have rules like you can’t tell people directly you’re not Vegan and try to police your social media posts, etc.

Many students also use the heated classes to “detox”, if you will. I teach at 7:30 am on Sundays. That class gets HOT! :fire: I can’t tell you how many people come to that class hungover or still drunk from the night before to sweat it out.

See, we’re all full of shit!:rofl:

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O.M.G… that’s sooo funny!!! I would’ve never have guessed about the lieing to the clients and having these rules in place. Wow it’s soo much diff than I thought! I have always wanted to try a hot yoga class. But not to detox… more for cleansing. Altho I would’ve never been able to go the day after using. I wouldn’t have the energy to do yoga in a hot room lol. I’d probably pass out from dehydration and exhaustion. Its just so interesting to here about that side of things. I know even when I was working at the gym (not as a personal trainer but at the front desk doing memberships and letting people in etc), we even had to portray a certain image. We couldn’t even eat what we wanted at the front desk lol we could snack but no pop or juice, only water. And we couldn’t eat anything unhealthy. So overnights (the gym was open 24 hours), the body builders that would come in at all random hours would sometimes bring me a small pizza or other “unhealthy” food to eat haha cuz I was sick of the veggies and dip I always had haha

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I totally hear you. My husband also drinks… Every night. Sometimes not too much and sometimes way too much. It has been one of the most difficult obstacles but you’re right, it is our own conscious decision to drink. I’ll say though that the other day I was talking to my husband and I said it’s just really hard when summer is here because the hot weather really makes me want to drink and he said “well you could just have one”. I mean honestly I’m thinking seriously? I have been absolutely 100% honest with him and he knows there’s been maybe once in my life I had only one. He even offered to go to the store and get it for me and it’s extremely frustrating but I do think that he thinks it’s enjoyable when we both drink together but it never is! I always have anxiety and never sleep well plus we usually end up arguing, so I’m not sure how he can blind himself from what actually occurs. Anyways, congratulations on making it through many hard times and for being honest with yourself and us at this time.
It’s also really great that you know some of your triggers.
I have a bachelorette party to go to on the weekend and I’m really nervous about it. I do feel like I absolutely have to go because I am actually the maid of honor for my sister-in-law. This is going to be difficult for me. Anyways I didn’t mean to make this post so much about me but I just wanted you to know I know how you feel and I might start checking in more on the post below(I hope I copied that right)

Are you affected by a loved one who is an addict?

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Hi All, my counter says Day 31, but seems like I’ve been on 31 for a couple days. :thinking:

Anyway, I’m still struggling with sleep. I’m exhausted all day, when I go to bed, I usually fall asleep for a couple hours, then wake up. This happened so often when I drank, so I’m not sure if my body is trained to all the years I drank, but it sucks. One of the benefits I wanted when quitting was decent or enough sleep. I’m trying to be patient. I know my withdrawals went longer than a lot here, so maybe this is as well.

I’m not planning on drinking today, so that’s a plus. I don’t know about tomorrow, but not planning on then either. Everyone have an AF day, you guys are the best!! :hugs: :heart: :pray::rose:

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