Hey all, checking in on day 758. I hope everybody has a good one!
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First, some shout-outs in no particular order (if I missed anybody, Iām sorry! Just let me know!)
@SoberGuyUSA & @Nordique Even if thereās nothing going on, you still check in to say hi. I should be consistent like that.
@Alycia Congrats on 104, Iām happy the move is going well; itās usually a major upheaval.
@CB103036 Youāre going to have a lot of people offer, some by accident, some are tempting you. Either way the important thing is to keep saying no.
@SadMemeQueen for 131, and @Butterflymoonwoman for 147, great work!!
@Misokatsu 700 days is downright inspiring!
Woke up around 5:45 having slept comfortably. My mood turned foul as soon as I realized I was awake. Iām beginning to think thatās just habit and thereās nothing organically wrong with my brain. 
But something good finally happened: my tax refund came in. Temptation. And not just for alcohol. I wanna get on Amazon and buy some crap I may or may not need in the future. Oh, and I found a promotional airfare for getting to France. If I buy my ticket in the next week or so, Iād pretty much be committed to hiking the Camino de Santiago. Good thing or not? I have such terrible follow-through on long term projects. Any ideas?
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hey there, first time checking in. On day 3 after a long relapse, hoping to not fall back into the pit again this time. feeling good this morning!
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Great reminder!
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My husband still drinks too. He doesnāt drink nearly like he used to. Itās hard at times. He also likes me to drink with him. This time with my sobriety though he hasnāt really pushed it, yet. I also drink when Iām bored. In the early days we probably need more tools in our toolbox to help redirect us. Iām still trying to work out what that is for me. I think Iām going to start reorganizing my house on the weekends. That will be never ending so Iāll have plenty to keep me busy!
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Morning Check in
Day 148
Feeling sort of tired today. I woke up at 530am for a cardio session. Kind of struggled to get thru it but still feel good overall. I am noticing an addictive pattern that used to happen years ago when Iād basically live at the gym. Alot of people would say, well its a healthy addictionā¦ it wasnt for me at the time. Emotionally and even physically it broke me. I pushed myself beyond what my body could realistically do. Anyway, I am supposed to take tmrw off (I only wanted to workout 4 times a week to gain balance in my life). I am already having anxiety over not going to the gym tmrw. I feel this pull to go and the fact that I set wednesday up for no gym is bugging me. Even yesterday I worked out in the morning and by the afternoon I wanted to do a home workout. I didnt tho bcuz I told myself that I worked out already today. I have completely becoming addicted to the gym (but my mind tells me that itās not that bad, itās healthy, ur doing something good for urself). Iām struggling to figure out if this is something I need to keep an eye on or if my anxiety is being triggered from past experiences with the gym from way before 
Iām glad to be clean and sober today. Coming up to a milestone tmrw and Iām shocked honestly about it. Just incredible how life has changed in such a short amount of time 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Lots of love 
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Day 38. Didnāt sleep well and up early. This is one thing about being sober I actually donāt mind, the getting up early and being able to function even when I did not sleep well. When I drank I could sleep forever, especially when I was hungover. I think Iāve lost years of my life to sleeping off hangovers.
Iām teaching 1 class today. Lots of drama at work. Iām trying to stay out of it. I work with all women so I guess drama is unavoidable. My friend who is my manager is the cause of it. Iām not really even sure if weāre friends anymore. Lol And I think Iām ok with that.
I find this funny in a way because as I have posted here previously, Iām a Yoga Instructor. Where I work, people come to get away from this type of shit. Weāre not perfect either. Everyone everywhere has their shit. Oh and a lot of instructors drink and are not Vegan. I think thatās a misconception.
Have a great day!
ODAAT
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Omg I just laughed at ur post. Not in a mean way or anything but bcuz I can just relate to that work drama and the fact that ur in the yoga field and there still so much headache and drama lol I work in the social services field. We work with clients who highly behavioral and yet the drama at work is exhausting. I donāt get tired of working the clients. Itās the staff and management that I get tired of lol. And yet we are supposed to be supportive and compassionate and empathetic and yet they are the farthest things from it at times. Thatās why I laughed lol Iāll be honest tho, I thought that alot of people who taught yoga were very all about the earth and vegan and very much about their health and mindset. Its a good reminder that we are all human no matter what field we are in
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Day 121. Feel like shit thanks to covid. Still sober. Started a new home gym project since I realized it may not be safe to go to gym, cases are exploding in my city.
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Hahaha I get tired of clients here too though! Major drama when ever there is a schedule change. Threatening to freeze or cancel memberships over it. Iām too old for this. My customer service skills no longer work when Iām approached like that. My response is either to ignore them or just say, āOk!ā.
Some studios I have been at the owners are Vegan and the image they put forth is of what your stereotypical studio would be. However, the instructors they hire are usually not. But some have rules like you canāt tell people directly youāre not Vegan and try to police your social media posts, etc.
Many students also use the heated classes to ādetoxā, if you will. I teach at 7:30 am on Sundays. That class gets HOT! 
I canāt tell you how many people come to that class hungover or still drunk from the night before to sweat it out.
See, weāre all full of shit!
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O.M.Gā¦ thatās sooo funny!!! I wouldāve never have guessed about the lieing to the clients and having these rules in place. Wow itās soo much diff than I thought! I have always wanted to try a hot yoga class. But not to detoxā¦ more for cleansing. Altho I wouldāve never been able to go the day after using. I wouldnāt have the energy to do yoga in a hot room lol. Iād probably pass out from dehydration and exhaustion. Its just so interesting to here about that side of things. I know even when I was working at the gym (not as a personal trainer but at the front desk doing memberships and letting people in etc), we even had to portray a certain image. We couldnāt even eat what we wanted at the front desk lol we could snack but no pop or juice, only water. And we couldnāt eat anything unhealthy. So overnights (the gym was open 24 hours), the body builders that would come in at all random hours would sometimes bring me a small pizza or other āunhealthyā food to eat haha cuz I was sick of the veggies and dip I always had haha
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I totally hear you. My husband also drinksā¦ Every night. Sometimes not too much and sometimes way too much. It has been one of the most difficult obstacles but youāre right, it is our own conscious decision to drink. Iāll say though that the other day I was talking to my husband and I said itās just really hard when summer is here because the hot weather really makes me want to drink and he said āwell you could just have oneā. I mean honestly Iām thinking seriously? I have been absolutely 100% honest with him and he knows thereās been maybe once in my life I had only one. He even offered to go to the store and get it for me and itās extremely frustrating but I do think that he thinks itās enjoyable when we both drink together but it never is! I always have anxiety and never sleep well plus we usually end up arguing, so Iām not sure how he can blind himself from what actually occurs. Anyways, congratulations on making it through many hard times and for being honest with yourself and us at this time.
Itās also really great that you know some of your triggers.
I have a bachelorette party to go to on the weekend and Iām really nervous about it. I do feel like I absolutely have to go because I am actually the maid of honor for my sister-in-law. This is going to be difficult for me. Anyways I didnāt mean to make this post so much about me but I just wanted you to know I know how you feel and I might start checking in more on the post below(I hope I copied that right)
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Hi All, my counter says Day 31, but seems like Iāve been on 31 for a couple days. 
Anyway, Iām still struggling with sleep. Iām exhausted all day, when I go to bed, I usually fall asleep for a couple hours, then wake up. This happened so often when I drank, so Iām not sure if my body is trained to all the years I drank, but it sucks. One of the benefits I wanted when quitting was decent or enough sleep. Iām trying to be patient. I know my withdrawals went longer than a lot here, so maybe this is as well.
Iām not planning on drinking today, so thatās a plus. I donāt know about tomorrow, but not planning on then either. Everyone have an AF day, you guys are the best!! 
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Thatās funny! Iām sure by midnight you needed the pizza! Lol
The classes are heated because it helps the body warm up/open up faster and it can help make the poses more accessible. Some think sweat is a detox. In the most recent training I just took they were saying that sweat doesnāt detox the body. Idk. I understand why theyāre saying that but I still think sweating aids in the detox process.
If you want to try a class you definitely should! Do not be intimidated! Opt for a beginning or gentle flow/slow flow type class. Idk if you have Class Pass in Canada or a version of it? You can go to many different gyms, Pilates or yoga studios, cycle studios, etc for much cheaper than paying for a class at a studio.
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Iām not sure if these are available where you are but I use the melatonin plus and it really helps. I tried the tranquil sleep and didnāt like it as much. Thereās something about the combination of Ltheanine and 5 htp with the melatonin that seem to really work. Of course, double check if you are on any other medication that it is safe to take.
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I love this 
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I appreciate the shout out! Yeah, things are going very well and I have no complaints 
I just want to make sure I stay active here even when nothing big is going on, just like you said.
Routine has always been a major part of my sobriety. Although I just realized that apparently I lost my āregularā status sometime between yesterday and today 
not sure how that happened since Iāve been on here everyday for the last 2 years lol
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Iām not sure what you mean by this but there are many different meetings, because we are not made from a cookie cutter. What meetings did you try?
I didnāt find my people in the first year of recovery nor at the first 3 meetings I was attending. It took me getting way out if my comfort zone and traveling into another area to find a group of people I could really settle in with.
I could have given up, thrown my hands in the air and said, " Fuck it! Recovery is no different than highschool I will never fit in." But I didnātā¦ I pushed through all those uncomfortable feelings to find somewhere that I actually belonged. I got out of those self centered feelings of self pity and the self defeating thoughts.
And things will always be this way if you keep telling yourself that. The power that we have over our own destiny is incredible, what we put out into the world is what we get. I challenge you to change your perspective for awhile and see what happens.
You deserve to be surrounded by love and you deserve to feel happy and a part of.
Sending lots of love your way.
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Thanks @Miranda. I suppose our husbandās donāt want to acknowledge our drinking - maybe because they donāt want to confront their own drinking? I know there are a lot of couples that navigate a sober/drinker relationship with grace. Iām trying to work on that!
Best wishes for a fun, sober Bachelorette party! Bring your favorite beverage and stay strongšŖ
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