Days
153 substance free
70 self harm free
116 not restricting food
Today I am so tired. I feel sick. Maybe i am getting a cold?
I worked this morning. I was told by coworkers that they really appreciate all of my hard work on closing shifts. That made me happy. I do try hard. I have a meeting for next steps within the company sometime this month. I hope i am not sick on the day my district manager comes out to talk with me. 
Hope yāall are having a good day
tonight will be day 376 of no self harm
not quite feeling like myself today. not really sure why I just really in my head and thinking about my childhood and not great things. just trying to push through
Checking in. 12 days. ODAAT. Yep.
day 175
Mornings are getting colder and darker, warming during the day, summer is fading quick.
Just a general check ODAAT team! Smash it out!
Checking in late. I had a weekend where my drunkie voice was screaming, and I nearly tossed my almost 4 months away. But Iām going to bed sober.
Day 163
I made a decision, Iāll go to the Dr today to ask for a sick note. Iām not burnt out but I donāt sleep good at the moment. The nights from Sunday to Monday are a horror and I canāt sleep without taking melatonin or herbs that help you sleep.
Itās just too much. Today we would be understaffed again, I donāt know how long this time. And next week weāll miss another coworker bc she has vacation for one week.
Work is piling up day after day, the management doesnāt care and puts more and more work on our shoulders.
And the worst thing is, here are no good jobs any more to change to.
I hate it 
Like a hamster in a spinning wheel.
I canāt relax neither the body or the mind.
Iām pretty nervous to ask the Dr but I have to. He knows the hospital I work for and he doesnāt like it 
He once took me outta there for 3 weeks because of the same symptoms. Weāll see.
Cross fingers
I know itās shitty for those coworkers who are left but if I donāt stop this now I donāt know how my body will react to this stress.
Okay, time to get up and prepare myself for the phonecall 
See you later this day fam 
529 Days
Up nice and early managed 3 days of good sleep in a row and I can say I feel quite good about it/having the sleep 
Iv had to wear myself out with intense exercise to get it though
But itās working and I need the exercise.
I can hear the wind outside is so noisy ! Probably going to rain today.
Iām just planning my day ahead and what meal I will cook. Waiting for reasonable time to stick the hoover on its 6:10 am.
Iām doing much better atm which wasnāt the case the list 2 weeks with such lack of sleep causing all other things to just show ball. I will enjoy this moment.
Have a lovely everyone
Morning!
Day 12 here. Slept really well again for which I am grateful. Woke up feeling great but am a little anxious for my first business trip sober today. Doesnāt help that itās to Munich, home of the Beer-hall. The colleague Iām travelling with also has young kids and doesnāt drink much. Iām hoping that and the fact itās Monday will lead to an easy discussion about avoiding alcohol and going to bed early with something on my iPad to watch.
1374
Have as good a day as possible all. Sober and clean. Love.
Wohoo. Congratulations 
Congratulations @zzz 
#Day 1637 
Monday, back to work after a whole week holiday at home. If I would win the lotery I would quit immediatly. Does that mean I need to look for another job? I donāt know.
Maybe itās just the holiday vibe I do not want to let go. Busy week ahead and that messes with my head also. Have to remember: one day at a time". Picture from waterdrops on grass yesterday, loved it.
Same here. Those who cover get sick themselves bc itās too much.
Iām trying to call my Dr since 1 hour, nothing. They seem to have a lot of sick staff too. Donāt know if I should just go there and try? But I know most offices hate that 
Enjoy your day off Menno 
I had luck, finally. My Dr answered the phone himself, what means that theyāre drowning bc of sick staff too 
I told him about my problems and I wonāt have to go to work this week. Iāll go to his office someday this week to give them my insurance card and hopefully to have a chat with him.
Maybe he knows someone I can talk to or something I can do to stay in a stable mental position.
Of course I (again) made the mistakes I already know are bad for me. Too much social media, no sports and not enough time outside to shut down my spiraling thoughts. And not eating regularly plus eating the wrong foods.
I also told him that I donāt want any medication bc that wonāt cure the problem. I need time.
And this my friends is a dangerous situation bc how easy would it be to get some alcohol to calm me down, right? Iām an addict, and Iāll always be.
I was in a similar situation the last time I relapsed, but now I realize it and I know what to do to not let it happen again.
That was longer than I wanted it to be. Seems I needed to let it out.
Take care fam
Day 12,
Good morning. How are you today? Iām doing good. I really want som fast food today. But no thereās food at home.
Wishing you a good sober day
Hey all, checking in on day 1,002. I hope everybody has a good one!
Congratulations on your 1000 days. Also I just seen @Ravikamor and @Rockstar24777 recently hit that milestone as well. Congrats to all of you. I know you all work really hard at your sobriety. 
Day 471
Just been to the gym, 10k on the treadmill felt good, although pulling my calf and straining my Achilles at 8.5k and still finishing it was probably not the best idea. I know itās about getting results and not about getting hurt but I donāt quit on my goals.
Pain is weakness leaving the body, just like sweat is your body crying for change. A little pain is good for you, whether itās physical or emotional, it reminds you that you are alive.
Had a good weekend, was my baby girls 11th birthday yesterday, plenty of fun was had and we had an amazing buffet breakfast with croissants, chocolate covered fruit and pancakes followed by bronuts (brownie donuts) and millionaire shortbread. Topped of with an amazing home made cake made by my superwoman.
Now time for a bath, some deep heat, pain killers and lots of stretching, before I do the household chores to avoid superwoman turning into SheHulk!
