Checking in on day 69. My father got his stents inserted this morning and everything went well, which lifted a lot of weight off my and my family’s shoulders. Busy working day but I started off good into the week and now look forward to going to the gym in an hour 
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Have a splendid and sober day to all of you!
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I’m at nearly 4 months and not faltering. I am unsure if my unsettled feelings today are my booze brain trying to weaken my resolve or if my new sober time, during which I have been actively working on myself in very positive ways, is revealing parts of my life that are simply dissatisfying. I feel like at home and at work, I have created environments where I take care of everything with great love and creativity. I dedicate so much of myself to it. And I’m stuck. I can’t ever get out of these tight little boxes my caretaking tasks have put me in. No one helps at home. No one sees my efforts at work as foundations for growth within the company. I do the work of 4 people in both realms, and who would ever replace that? So I’m stuck. Again, still reasoning if this is 100% true or my booze brain saying, “Oh, you just need a release, and I have an idea!” But today I feel bummed and kinda icky. But I’m sober and staying that way.
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I just took a screenshot of this for a daily motivation.
Thank you!
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Get in the shower!!
I took a second shower many days around 5 5:30 when it was martini time. I’d get the water as hot as possible and sit in it for 20 minutes or so. I’d end up crying it out. I was so upset I just cannot drink like a normie. After a good hot shower and cry I’d be all relaxed and cook a nice meal with sparkling water in my favorite wine glass. Those showers save my life. And they also fucked with my mind. Got to break the routine. I never take showers in the afternoon. And I slept like a baby.
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Day 16 no weed
Day 122 no alcohol
Off to work
Have a good day everyone
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Morning Check In
Day 386
Woke up late today so wasnt able to workout as planned. Kind of sucks but i think i needed the rest. Today im trying to memtally prepare for me and my sons outing. He has an appt at the hospital and i also have to pick up his formula and supplies. This part in itself isnt an issue, its the damn snow here thats piled high which makes it difficult to access the wheelchair accessible cab. My husband was sweet and shoveled the walkways on friday to make a path but it snowed again on sat/sun so im trying to prepare myself for stress snd frustration lol but quite frankly i think doing this is actually what is stressing me out haha
Will pray this morning and do my 3 min morning meditation to help get my mind in the right place.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Checking in day 183! Presentation seemed to go ok this morning- didn’t have any guidance on time or topics to cover so just hit on what felt important and it seemed to go over fairly well. Working 12 hours today so that’ll take up the day. Also on call this week so will feel like a busy week, but I’m up for it. Feeling pretty good overall.
Hope you’re all having a magnificent sober Monday!
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Oh, that’s interesting!
I’ll definitely try that today. Maybe without crying, but we’ll see. Lol
Thank you!
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Perhaps our eyes need to
be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with
a clearer view again.
Alex Tan
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15 days, and feeling good, getting through the cravings by reminding myself how bad it makes me feel and messes everything up 
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13 days here andvi agree. Ive tempted but when i remind myself how awful i will feel the next day really helps. Keep up the good work and im right behind you. One day at a time.
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I am so tired of saying ‘day 1 again’.
This is garbage because I GENUINELY want to quit drinking but my will power is crap.
Went out Saturday with a girfriend I rarely see, we went to a wine bar. Went out to dinner with the husband last night and had 4, 22oz beers. I couldn’t sleep, the guilt was killing me. I feel like absolute hungover crap this morning and cannot take the day off.
Why do I do this to myself and why cant I just NOT DRINK.
I’m so sorry for the pity party everyone. I just want to be frigging sober.
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Oh, I like that!
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You can do it, I’ve been going round and round for ages every 3rd or 4th day I would drink and feel awful, this is the longest I have done, I’ve done lots of cardio exercise, and hopefully found a good mind set, kept myself busy, you can do it 
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Glad you back and venting.
I could never get sober with Willpower. I needed a team and many tools and lots of support.
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Thank you Liz22 right back to you 
Checking in, day 1583.
My boss asked me if I’d go work in another dependency in France near Nice for up to 6 months. I should be pleased and yeah and hurray. I am stressed and see organizing things when my last move is barely 6 months ago. I am grateful I don’t drink anymore. Truly grateful. Just having some stress related hot chocolates. I am grateful for people who can calm me down and see the yeah, when I cannot.
Now, I focus on my massage in an hour 
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Well the good news is that this can be your last day 1! Stick around here and read, post alot…I hope your hangover goes away soon!
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Yeah ive bought all my annual coins on amazon or other internet sites. Its kinda funny when people see it cause at first they have a sense of reverence towards it … that seems to dissipate slightly as i say “yeah i bought it on amazon, but it still counts.” Lol
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Yes, madam! 1 whole year of soberness! Congratulations to your achievement!
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