Day 40 today sober and feeling great about that. I have business travel this upcoming week and the next. I am a bit anxious about that due to the opportunities that will be there.
I have talked about this with my sponsor and downloaded intherooms app on my phone to stay connected.
I will check in here daily as well.
Any other advice or tips for traveling solo?
Hey all, checking in on day 1008. I hope everybody has a good one!
Checking in Day 35 AF
Felt so much love yesterday in/around In-person Refuge Recovery meetig 
mind blowing!!
Grateful to be in this space but unfortunately feels unsustainable, I’m guessing I’m learning the language of love after so much isolation and shame. I call HP Love Absolute and I’m VERY grateful for LA seeing us through 
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Today is a ride in the woods but bike is giving trouble so this is just a test run to troubleshoot.
Pirsig: ‘The real cycle your working on is a cycle called yourself’
Grateful to enjoy another day above ground with you all,
Ride the craves (I’ll try to choose wisely)
Happy Sunday from Vancouver 
Day 64.
Didn’t get out of bed until 2 in the afternoon. Yesterday I couldn’t even bring myself to check in on here. Instead, I sat on the sofa all day stuffing my face with salty nuts and chocolate and watching The 100. (Great show, a bit too binge-able).
When I finally got into bed to sleep, my brain wouldn’t shut up and my anxiety levels were through the roof. While I was sleeping I had this really weird dream about going to a NYE Party, where I drank champagne before remembering that I was sober. So I went on this dream quest to find an AA meeting, and when I got there, I was too late and they wouldn’t let me in. My sober date is January 14, so drinking dreams around New Years kinda make sense…
Anyway, I’m officially depressed. It sucks. Today I’m dragging myself to the coworking spot and gonna try and get some work done. I did pay extra for weekend access, after all. And… at the very least, I’m getting a nice walk in the sunshine out of it.
Day 2
I am soooo f*cking stressed.
Had 9,5 hours sleep but now I am feeling like I miss some hours of the day now.
Actually it could be a relaxed Sunday!
I think the jobsearch thing, I reactivated is putting hard pressure on me. Everytime I am applying I think, I am not good enough in something, somehow, anyway.
I am in a good payed, unlimited job, but the environment is toxic. There are also thoughts that it will be everywhere else the same. And that nothing makes sence and I just can’t work anymore again.
Just had a walk and will joyn a Yin Yoga live class by Matt at YouTube in 15 minutes.
Finding my way on the mat, with this suffering mindstuff.
Further checkin will follow 
Totally relatable. It’s how we are conditioned by our pasts. Working on it in therapy and making progress but it’s slow and tedious. Small steps friend X.
Checking in on Day 399
Day 292. Things are pretty good. I can definitely see some complacency issues, like my mind telling me I don’t need to go the gym and I can just stay home and draw. Granted my head did hurt for a couple days so a couple days off was ok but if I’m going to achieve all my goals and go to school then I will have to balance all this accordingly, tattooing and drawing will be there but they are not first on my list of things to be doing. I have bigger goals I’d like to achieve. Much love everyone
Hey all checking in from Philly on Sunday. At work till about 3. We’re on top of a bridge today and the wind whipping off the river underneath is making me wish I had an office job.
. I went up to the highschool for a play/musical last night. Two of the kids are in the pit band, one plays bass the other one plays percussion. They did a great job, they busted their asses to learn all the music in a short amount time I’m proud of them. Finish work, probably hit the gym for a bit, and than hang out watching the March Madness tournament for the rest of Sunday night. Have a great day guys 
Day 169
The balcony is now almost ready for spring. The dead plants are gone, I just need to change the earth here and there and one pot needs a deep clean because the cherry tree that was in there had a fungus infection. That’s why I didn’t want to try to save it somehow and dumped it.
Cleaned the basement too, it’s my turn this month. Now I’m sitting on my couch, the rain stopped and the sun is shining right into my room.
I’ll take a break and after there is laundry to do and cooking.
The Sushi salad was a complete mess 
I made a mistake somewhere with the seasoning, it wasn’t edible
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
PS no urge to drink today 
Thank you! I was probably making a bigger deal out of it than I needed to. I appreciate the encouragement. Sometimes I get impatient as I want things to happen/results right away. I also need to flex more of my social interaction muscle - I never really got back to “normal” with that since the pandemic. Thanks again 
AA works great for some people but not everyone. I’ve never been able to get a sponsor even though I’ve approached people (I’m also socially awkward so I get how hard that is). I find the community aspect most helpful but I’ve also gotten so triggered in meetings that I went out & drank. I find Tempest much more to my liking. There’s lots of other choices that might work better for you, I hope you can be easy on yourself.
Thank you! I woke up this morning after a good night sleep (finally) and realized I probably blew it out of proportion. I also need more practice dealing with these feelings (and not needing to always get everything right) and not letting them consume me. I appreciate the kind words
Thank you, and this is very true. I agree AA may not be the best fit for everyone. I’m trying out Tempest too! The part I’m missing is the in person interaction, and AA dominates that scene here. I’m trying to keep an open mind. I also need more practice letting my negative emotions not consume me…. Anyway I will keep trying things and hope that eventually I find the right set of recovery tools for me, I know it takes time and often I want everything to get resolved immediately! I wonder if there is a correlation between addiction and impatience 
thank you for the encouragement 
Congratulation with your 
months of sobriety. Amazing milestone!
Day 2 no THC day 135 no alcohol
Woke up feeling anxious.
Just taking it easy with the wifey
Day 2
2nd checkin
Stress is gone…
Did a walk, had a yin class, made energy bars and then… I applied for the job. Now it’s their turn! 
Colored my hair and just prepared some zucchini muffins, followed with some baked eggplants with rest of the chili and feta. It’s meal prepping and dinner for later.
I have a training for the lifeguard certificate tomorrow, don’t know how challenging it will be. Wanted to rest today, but now I feel the need to swim today too…
Just a few rounds 
I’ve had many issues with the intherooms app where I can’t hear all the shares. The creators of that web site don’t recommend the app either. It works best if you go to the website from your phone’s web browser and sign in that way. Then you’ll have all the same functions as if you were on a computer.
Checking in 
Day 399
So i have decided to change things up a bit when it comes to my check ins. Lately, I have been checking in daily with my clean time but i havent been necessarily talking about my day. I do still read and comment on others posts but Im finding that my check ins are quite repetitive (recovery for me is pretty routine) and so dont feel the need to go in depth with my check ins on a daily basis. I do however, think its important to mention clean time like I have been doing bcuz it holds me accountable and keeps me connected to this forum. I am also realizing that I need balance. There are times when my focus is very much on TS and then other areas suffers. TS can very much be almost an “addiction” in itself for me. Initally my thought was I’ll just take a break completely from TS and focus on other things (very extreme, black and white thinking). But then figured that dropping TS entirely wasnt a smart idea as its truly my only recovery support. So i have been exploring the “grey area” and how to find balance in my life.
So anyway, I have decided that every Sunday (when i usually have a bit more time) I will just briefly talk about my week and what my recovery goals are for the week to come:
Past week: Stayed clean and sober! Son was home the majority of the week due to recovering from an illness so there was not much self care time available. Issues with homecare on Thursday really effected me and really pushed me to use my “toolkit”. Healthy eating and exercising suffered alot to be honest. Im super behind on my virtual Mt Kilimanjaro challenge which bothers me. But i did make my first big financial payment this week (1/60 payments) towards a financial amend to my parents. Work this weekend hasnt been too bad. My annual evaluation is coming up, and Im not as nervous honestly about that bcuz since being clean my attendance has improved.
Next week goals:
Health - Exercise 5x/week (daily weight lifting and 3km of incline treadmill/stairs a day). Make better food choices and watch portion sizes. Be aware of emotional eating.
Recovery - Meditation 3x/week. Make sure to set aside time for prayer every morning. Start a daily journal by using the journal function on TS. Work on my self love workbook 2x this week.
Sorry for the longer post. I wanted to sort of explain where i was at and what my plans moving forward are to find balance. Congratulations to everyone on another day addiction free, to those coming back, and to those taking milestones 
hugs
Im glad you are working on balance. I too have that all or nothing thinking and am working on balance. So proud to be sharing this journey with you @Butterflymoonwoman
