#Day 1643
Still chilling in my onesie beneath an warm electric blanked. Because heating the whole living room has become very expensive these days we turned our heating system on very low temerature.
Today? Enjoying my 1 day weekend with doing nothing beside maybe a small walk and going to the cinema tonight. Worked a lot this week so have to get my energy back for tomorrow.
So acting a bit like me new furry friend
Both sober and lazy
Congratulations everyone with adding another day sober/clean!
Keep repeating
Thank you very much for your analytic post and welcome back to day 1. I am there with you, day 2 today - 3rd sober evening will follow. I also do a lot of sports, especially swimming and yoga. And I had 5 sober months till December.
Guyā¦ We can do it this time
Will follow your way!
My sleep is not the best, but I made some changes last year, that helped a lot.
Light: I have a kids night lamp, projecting stars in my room. It has a timer and after 20 minutes my room is absolutely dark (also the light of the alarm clock!.. Itās dimmable)
Magnesium: taking it before going to bad, as itās not only against sour muscles, itās also relaxing the muscles and is good for the nervous system
Meditation: putting on some sleep meditation or meditation music (be aware of autoplay)
Timing: our bodies love rituals and having a fix time going to bed and waking up is really helpful
Pillow: I am using a neck pillow covered with one of the hyped Mulberry pillow case by āSlipāā¦ And sometimes a mask that fits to it. This is not a mustā¦ But to me it helps feeling good provided
Air and temperature: of cause fresh air and low temperature helps, as well as a minimalistic and clean environment
Good morning, I overslept today and I love it. Happy Sunday. Iām gonna get up soon and do some journaling then make brunch. Not sure what to make. I have some dried chorizo in the pantry thatās been there for a while, some greens, some eggs, onions, breadā¦itās an omelet kind of day. Think thereās also some pineapple juice? Gonna bake some chicken thighs later, top it with caramelized onion and chicory then serve over rice. Gonna be good.
Took a nice long bath yesterday and now thinking about this attractive person I met at the gym yesterday. Itās time I started dating again.
I want to excuse. I sometimes catch myself thinking when I read here, how can they feel like this or that, how can they be lonely when they have family around, a partner and kids. Now, in some clear moments with myself I realise from my own experience that this is awful. It stressed me and I felt guilty at the time. Itās so easy to forget when we are no longer in a certain situation. Drinking and the unsurmountable task to stop is another one.
Day 1010 clean and sober. Slept like crap so Iām up early. Itās the usual though so whatever. Iām really proud of everyone here for staying clean and sober. Have an amazing day, love you guys
I sometimes wonder if Iām right in the head. Got preemptively stressed about a disagreement, practised retorts and rebuttals in my head, and it didnāt even happen. Entirely pointless stress and resentment. I wish I could just stop my brain from going there, but it always does. Playing out old resentments, imagining new resentments. Such a waste of time and energy. I just hate that about myself.
In good news, I bought a new shoulder bag, just a few dollars second hand, and put all my things from my old ripped bag into it, minus of course the old receipts, empty packages, dirt, lurking at the bottom and it feels great. It feels fresh, like getting a haircut.
Day 40 today sober and feeling great about that. I have business travel this upcoming week and the next. I am a bit anxious about that due to the opportunities that will be there.
I have talked about this with my sponsor and downloaded intherooms app on my phone to stay connected.
Checking in Day 35 AF
Felt so much love yesterday in/around In-person Refuge Recovery meetig mind blowing!!
Grateful to be in this space but unfortunately feels unsustainable, Iām guessing Iām learning the language of love after so much isolation and shame. I call HP Love Absolute and Iām VERY grateful for LA seeing us through .
Today is a ride in the woods but bike is giving trouble so this is just a test run to troubleshoot.
Pirsig: āThe real cycle your working on is a cycle called yourselfā
Grateful to enjoy another day above ground with you all,
Ride the craves (Iāll try to choose wisely)
Happy Sunday from Vancouver
Didnāt get out of bed until 2 in the afternoon. Yesterday I couldnāt even bring myself to check in on here. Instead, I sat on the sofa all day stuffing my face with salty nuts and chocolate and watching The 100. (Great show, a bit too binge-able).
When I finally got into bed to sleep, my brain wouldnāt shut up and my anxiety levels were through the roof. While I was sleeping I had this really weird dream about going to a NYE Party, where I drank champagne before remembering that I was sober. So I went on this dream quest to find an AA meeting, and when I got there, I was too late and they wouldnāt let me in. My sober date is January 14, so drinking dreams around New Years kinda make senseā¦
Anyway, Iām officially depressed. It sucks. Today Iām dragging myself to the coworking spot and gonna try and get some work done. I did pay extra for weekend access, after all. Andā¦ at the very least, Iām getting a nice walk in the sunshine out of it.
I am soooo f*cking stressed.
Had 9,5 hours sleep but now I am feeling like I miss some hours of the day now.
Actually it could be a relaxed Sunday!
I think the jobsearch thing, I reactivated is putting hard pressure on me. Everytime I am applying I think, I am not good enough in something, somehow, anyway.
I am in a good payed, unlimited job, but the environment is toxic. There are also thoughts that it will be everywhere else the same. And that nothing makes sence and I just canāt work anymore again.
Just had a walk and will joyn a Yin Yoga live class by Matt at YouTube in 15 minutes.
Finding my way on the mat, with this suffering mindstuff.
Totally relatable. Itās how we are conditioned by our pasts. Working on it in therapy and making progress but itās slow and tedious. Small steps friend X.
Day 292. Things are pretty good. I can definitely see some complacency issues, like my mind telling me I donāt need to go the gym and I can just stay home and draw. Granted my head did hurt for a couple days so a couple days off was ok but if Iām going to achieve all my goals and go to school then I will have to balance all this accordingly, tattooing and drawing will be there but they are not first on my list of things to be doing. I have bigger goals Iād like to achieve. Much love everyone
Hey all checking in from Philly on Sunday. At work till about 3. Weāre on top of a bridge today and the wind whipping off the river underneath is making me wish I had an office job.. I went up to the highschool for a play/musical last night. Two of the kids are in the pit band, one plays bass the other one plays percussion. They did a great job, they busted their asses to learn all the music in a short amount time Iām proud of them. Finish work, probably hit the gym for a bit, and than hang out watching the March Madness tournament for the rest of Sunday night. Have a great day guys
Day 169
The balcony is now almost ready for spring. The dead plants are gone, I just need to change the earth here and there and one pot needs a deep clean because the cherry tree that was in there had a fungus infection. Thatās why I didnāt want to try to save it somehow and dumped it.
Cleaned the basement too, itās my turn this month. Now Iām sitting on my couch, the rain stopped and the sun is shining right into my room.
Iāll take a break and after there is laundry to do and cooking.
The Sushi salad was a complete mess I made a mistake somewhere with the seasoning, it wasnāt edible
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong
PS no urge to drink today
Thank you! I was probably making a bigger deal out of it than I needed to. I appreciate the encouragement. Sometimes I get impatient as I want things to happen/results right away. I also need to flex more of my social interaction muscle - I never really got back to ānormalā with that since the pandemic. Thanks again
AA works great for some people but not everyone. Iāve never been able to get a sponsor even though Iāve approached people (Iām also socially awkward so I get how hard that is). I find the community aspect most helpful but Iāve also gotten so triggered in meetings that I went out & drank. I find Tempest much more to my liking. Thereās lots of other choices that might work better for you, I hope you can be easy on yourself.
Thank you! I woke up this morning after a good night sleep (finally) and realized I probably blew it out of proportion. I also need more practice dealing with these feelings (and not needing to always get everything right) and not letting them consume me. I appreciate the kind words
mind blowing!!
. I went up to the highschool for a play/musical last night. Two of the kids are in the pit band, one plays bass the other one plays percussion. They did a great job, they busted their asses to learn all the music in a short amount time Iām proud of them. Finish work, probably hit the gym for a bit, and than hang out watching the March Madness tournament for the rest of Sunday night. Have a great day guys 
I made a mistake somewhere with the seasoning, it wasnāt edible 
