What a morning…I was biking to my train stop when I suddenly heard a voice you don’t wanna ever hear when somewhere outside…I ripped my pants So I had to get back home to change clothes.
Very much looking forward to a coffee now.
And I have to buy new pants now, I hate that. Finding pants that fit AND look good is a pain. @JazzyS I posted the picture already yesterday
But wasn’t able to edit afterwards to add the ingredients I used.
Day 38. Trying to stay productive and busy. Went for a long walk with doggos. Beautiful weather. Lady hormones finally settling down, so that always helps my mood!
The miss is moving out because the landlord snagged her. She is hopefully moving in with relatives.
I need a clear mind in order to get us back on our feet
I’m going to stay where I am and look for a job to help us out.
She doesn’t know I’m not going to her relatives place but I’ll tell her when she wakes up
I’m super stressed over this
I’m craving a little but it won’t help to pick up
Good morning to all checking in day 20! Keep your feet on the ground one more day unless your @zzz. That looks fun I need some of that adrenaline but I’ll stick to walking lol. I hope everybody has one more sober and blessed day!
Day 374. I seem to have missed a day of the weekend which is especially odd seeing as it was a long weekend at that. I finally managed to fold some laundry but it’s now on the floor of the living room. I’ll get the kids to put it away (none of my clothes anyway) when they get back from school. I’m about to have lunch and then I’ll go for a walk before collecting the lassie from the bus stop. It’ll be good to get out the house for a bit.
Onwards and upwards
Today I actually feel good, which is new. I’m like… motivated and full of energy and got some errands done. Hell, I even feel like cooking. I might make a nice soup. I love soup. Soup is life.
This morning I ran the dishwasher before coffee while singing Dancing Queen. It won’t last, but still… It’s nice to not feel death warmed up for once.
Checking in on day 2. I had 3 months sober from alcohol/ED behavior. I had a pretty unfortunate relapse. I am committed to showing my body love not only for me, but for my 7 year old daughter. Addicts can recover and find happiness
Day 91 check in. Had a great AA meeting last night and got my 90 day coin!!! I am very thankful to all of you all who are so awesome and committed to this community and sobriety!
I actually feel bad talking bad about My Father lately.
I mean I talked few times lately about that terrible accident we had many years ago. I also mentioned that I forgived him and we have good relationships again that I think is healthy for both of us.
I want to clarify, that I do respect and love my father. He is good person, smart, very intelligent and has strong character. What was done that night was the result of alcoholism and he had some sort of alcoholic hallucinations caused by drinking over prolonged time. He was competitive bodybuilder and took 1’st places on his category. Then СССР army took him somewhere far to South. He started to drink. Then became alcoholic.
At the beginning I did not wanted to see him and was having nightmares. He was gone too. He did not drinked many years, but then he got in trouble and slipped few times. I helped him. Remember skipping work and driving with him to rehab hospital. I did it for him. I did it by looking outside the box, but later in years that escalated into our reunion.
I remember even driving my mom to work in the mornings when I was going to rehabs for my damaged hand and we met my father along the way at the bus station, so we took him and there was something special about that moment. They divorced when I was 7 years old and we were sitting all three together - again that was something strong and healing about it.
Now he works as IT specialist and do not drinks and even do little of workouts.
[Photo was banned by moderators because violating the rules] that made me really sad… It’s was the only photo I have of my father.
My Father, about 18 years old when he just started his bodybuilder career. - the one on the right
So I had to get back home to change clothes.
Even saw Baltic Sea far in front of me! 
Day 6
Its always refreshing to be able to get alot done.
that was something strong and healing about it.