Checking in daily to maintain focus #54

[RosaCanDo]

I don’t look at my day tracker often but managed to see this lovely number today!

It made me feel pretty good after a rough migraine morning. Could be a weather trigger as the sky is completely hazy, or could be affected by my mowing the lawn last evening, who knows. Sometimes it is more exhausting to try and sus out the cause of a migraine than to just move on after it has passed. I’m just glad I was able to sleep a long time and my husband checked on me once but then left me alone. Apparently I picked a decent time for it because I mostly missed TS being down, just was around for some of the lagging.

I’m starting to gather my yard and garden things and decide what I want to keep or what to give away. Time is moving at a weird pace right now as we approach our closing date on the house. It feels both super fast and slow at alternate times. We set dates for my family to come help with the last bits of the move, so it is feeling more real. I’m starting to realize how strange it will feel at first! A big transition, indeed. I’m grateful to be going through this sober. Here’s a pic of my hazy sky and pile of planters and pots…and that’s only about half of them!

[nastya_is_fighting]

I for first time after very long time stayed completely alone at home. I’m always most of the time with my dogs alone at home. My father needed to check them to the doctor because I have no energy to do that.
And… It felt so strange to be like that alone. I started to feel a lot uncomfortable and after that I felt how someone is standing behind my back, watching me and I heard their thoughts about me. “Stupid, stupid! Why you wrote to your ex gf about your feelings to her? Now she will again publicly bully you. Asshole.”…
I felt a lot anxious and… I just started to talk to him… To that guy. Figure. Whatever it was.
I asked him to go away when I will be outside and… Now I’m standing outside, sitting on grass and for unknown reason my eyes feel like I cried a lot?? But it feels so nice to deeply breathe fresh air and feel on my skin that a bit coldish air.
I have no single idea what was that. Maybe some hallucination… Whatever.
Important is that I feel now a bit better.

[Marc3]

Thanks for sharing this. Just shows me that it can be done!

[2JTravNZ]

day 242/8 Months

Morena team

Today is 8 months Alcohol free, jees what a journey!
Managed to keep my cravings and bay and also doing soberness in my own terms no meetings or step work.

I know if i ever come to needing it again that they are there along with some good people.

But this journey is mine this time around, ive learnt alot this time and its all good things coming from being off the drink.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Congratulations Great work!!

[Jasty2]

Congrats on 8 months sober

[Twizzlers]

Huge congratulations

@CueBall8n9 @Markjackson congrats to you also on your 100

I know Iv missed alot the past few days so to all of us congrats

[Twizzlers]

That sounds difficult
Glad your okay now, hope your dog is home with you soon too.
Had something like this happened to you before ?
How many days sober are you ?
Big hugs

[KarenKW]

Day 12. Tired and frustrated. But I have the house to myself this evening so might find a movie to watch. Allergies are still kicking my ass. I’m glad tomorrow is Friday and I have a massage scheduled.

[Alycia]

415 days checking in
Made it to Friday, looking forward to the weekend. They had a wellness meeting at my work yesterday and basically reached out to us all to provide information on additional support we can access, and asked us about what we need. It was really refreshing and I think myself and my family are eligible for mental health support, this is a huge relief, hoping to get in to see someone next week and get my son in for some support too.
Big weight off my shoulders.
Hope you all have a lovely day

[TheWolf]

Day 11 for me guys. I am sleeping like a log. Getting a full eight hours and it is so good. It feels like I blink and it’s morning! I’ve invited family over to mine for a get together and some food in the garden Sunday. Looking forward to a sober sunny weekend. Got myself some Sanpellegrino Limonata (lemonade) in ready for it. Stay focused.

[CATMANCAM]

@JazzyS thank you 🩵
@CueBall8n9 thank you 🩵 I use my notes app and toggle between that and here, I type the usernames out, then copy and paste the whole thing once I’ve caught up.
@BowlingLy thank you 🩵 sorry you’re going through it too but happy to read the last part
@icebear maybe check-in with your doctor about how you’re feeling, it might be “normal” but I’d imagine it would be reassuring to hear that from a professional
@GenG I’m glad you’ve got someone to be accountable with irl, sorry about the PAWS though 🩵
@Marc3 haven’t they just! I’ll be sure to follow up if I haven’t heard anything for a while, will give it a few weeks for the referrals to be processed, then check-in with them again.
@maxwell congrats on 80 days
@SoberWalker thank you 🩵 and Awww Hey Wickie she still likes to be near the TV then, just the other side now
@Dmcg1987 good luck for your interview
@Mno stunning photo I hope you’re able to express your feelings towards therapy in the session

[CATMANCAM]

@anon53116147 wow that truck sure does look badass! I didn’t know they were capable of such high speeds! Enjoy your weekend with your girls and camping
@Noshame good luck and congrats on your week
@2JTravNZ congrats on 8 months
@Alycia I’m so glad you can access MH support for yourself and your family, through your employer, that’s awesome I hope it helps 🩵

1011 days no alcohol.
476 days no cocaine.
98 days no vape.

Was awake til 1am catching up and doing my check-in, then didnt get to sleep until 3:30am, I did wake at 7, fed the cats and took my morning meds, then went back to sleep until 12:30pm, so altogether I had a full night’s sleep for the first time in a while, possibly thanks to more sugary stuff last night.

I did my morning routine, then had to wait in for the Smart Meter technician, who was due between 12 and 4pm, he arrived at 14:30 and left around 15:30. I now have a smart meter for my electricity.

It took a lot of psyching myself up, but around 5pm I did my pond walk, came home, rested with the cats and meditated, then, I couldn’t access the forum so I didn’t know what to do with myself. Addict took control and I went to the shop and bought lots of sugary things plus crisps and fruit, ate it all in the kitchen whilst watching Sweet Tooth on Netflix.

Then I slept the sugar off, for 1.5hrs, woke up at 20:38, decided to get straight out for my lake walk, glad I did. Came home, spent some time with the cats, and now I’m here, and just pleased I can access the forum again. Thank you to everyone involved with fixing it.

🩵

[Catmama23]

I’m a day late but congrats on double digits!! A good night’s sleep is the best. I look forward to my cat waking me up each morning on the dot at 7am

[Dolse71]

Doesn’t matter how you look at it I’m still sober.

[Matt]

22 days.

I am really battling with the addiction voice in my head these days. It’s off and on but when it hits it is insistent. It is really screaming sometimes.

I take this as a good sign because it means my addiction isn’t getting fed like it used to be fed. Still though it is hard.

Nice to see everyone here. Keep it up friends You rock!

[Kareness]

Things have been hard and I haven’t been feeling happy. I am hoping it will pass quickly. Just writing this made me start to cry so I really think I needed a release! I am not feeling good about work at my new job because it’s pretty intense. Maybe I am still adjusting. The paycheck has been great so I am definitely going to stick it out.

I haven’t been able to make it to very many meetings since I started and I feel so isolated.

I’m also tired all the time. I haven’t been doing anything to exercise and I feel so old and tired.

I’m going to do some laundry tonight and hopefully getting this done will help me feel better. I’m definitely NOT going to drink.

[LeeHawk]

In all the jobs I had after a certain level in my career, I felt like a complete imposter. I’m sure you are doing much better than you think. Lots of self care when you are away from work. Fake it until you make it.

[Kareness]

I was thinking that maybe it’s because of the level I’m at in my career. I used to have a “magic bubble” period at each new job I had but not at this one. And yes, especially at the very beginning of this job I was suffering from imposter syndrome. I know we talked some about career stuff in the lounge and wish I could remember it better.

[anon74766472]

When I read this unwillingly there was a picture popping up in my head of a tiger in a cage roaring and getting more and more angry and loud as he wants to be free. And this picture was then mixed with the imagery of my inner child and that I have to find other ways than the old ones to soothe it.

Congratulations on your 22 days Matt