Checking in for day 23.
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@Dustysprungfield Congrats on your 3 weeks my friend! The struggle does get easier -keep up the good fight
@kipper Hey Mike ā how are you doing?
@just_laura So grateful that you are at your 6 months and thriving! Looking amazing with your healthy glow ā grateful that this time you are doing this for you ā itās gonna stick! 
@mrsodh That is a unsettling way to wake up but as you said if it was pressing or urgent then they would have kept calling. Hoping it is not a serious issue. Just saw your update ā grateful that she can reach out to you and come home.
@saturn81 welcome to the community Michelle ā So glad that you are here with us and working on your sobriety ā well done with 3 days! It definitely is not an easy road but with support and being vigilant about protecting your sobriety (ie- finding new routines, keeping busy with hobbies, activities, work and having a support system) you can beat this addiction. Hope to see you keep fighting for yourself.
Hugs dear friend! I do hope that something comes your way (job wise) very soon. This environment is super stressful to read about ā I canāt imagine how you are handling it daily. A huge congrats on doing all of this sober! You rock!!
Oh man that is rough, having so much alcohol in your safe space. So happy to hear you thinking ahead and making a plan. Also have some non alcoholic drinking options available and something in hand ā it stops people from asking you to drink and also keeps your hands occupied. Wishing you strength for the next few days. I hope you can ignore the cases of beer.
@mira_d Congrats on your 30 days! Love the check ins ā appreciate you being so open and honest here. What a sweet memory of your honeymoon.
Bhonns congratso n day 5 and I too substituted with loads of ice cream when I quit drinking ā enjoy it my friend. Grateful that the fogginess is lifting.
@just_laura My goodness that would also be a very scary way to start the day and I can imagine the panic. Grateful that all is ok with your ex and daughter.
Checking in on Wednesday morning - about to be afternoon
Its a beautiful day and iām doing my best to enjoy it in any way possible. I have just now finished with catching up here and will try to get some work done. No promises or to do lists for today except to stay clear of my DOCs. Have a wonderful positively charged addiction free day my sober companions - sending much love 
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Thank you! God it can be unsettlung when you realize that people have no idea what its like. Ofc they dont, I dont know any of the struggles that I havent been throughā¦but yeah.
Oh yes I did tell the therapist about my addictions I probably didnt phrase it well. Yourāre right that is absolutely important to be honest about everything with the doctor.
They cant judge you and if they do who cares. Theyāre just a human person that hopefully did a good job studying and practices well. I mean many doctors suck / fail to understand, lets be honest XD. Weāll see what that brings.
I feel your pain about your doctors notes. Thats even worse bc they are a medical professional and should really know better! I mean addiction is such a huge illness thing. Like come on, read up, watch a documentary about it lmao.
Those whoāve been through it understand- youāre right. It is too hard to go through this alone. You guys rock!!!
Thank you for the support and wishes, I will take them with meāŗ
Wish you a good day and a calm mind!
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Damn. Thisš
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Alcohol free for 546 days today. Nicotine free for 194. Letās do this day sober folks.
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Day 2
Back home without buying shit.
No cravings until now.
Ugly feeling when thinking about it.
I researched about several methods today.
Furthermore I chatted a lot about personal experiences. I learned a lot.
And I am nearer to what I will follow.
But that will be a personalized individual mix.
As humans are.
Much love
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Day 25: no grazing
Day 745: no pills
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Just one thing: you gotta jump in. The individual mix will follow. Trust the process and let go of the total control your are trying to exert. Which is only an illusion anyway. Since Iām in Recovery Iāve been forced to trust others for a change. In choosing (group 
) therapies for example. I still hate to let go of control but every time I manage to do so beautiful stuff happens. Just jump in. The waterās fine my friend 
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I changed that. I get where youāre coming from. But I also want to point out that things like this was one of the reasons I left this forum last time. If weāre going to keep this up, change, rethink,reframe and be extremely careful about every word, every picture and everything we do in here. Itāll soon be an impossible place to be. We canāt please everyone and thereās always someone whoāll be offended or feel bad,no matter what we do.
I used to be a junkie as well,where I live the word is used to describe a specific kind of drug addicts not just anyone. But anyway, I changed it,I get the point.
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Thank you.
Youāre pretty much right.
Actually where I live itās used to describe a specific kind of drug addicts,it doesnāt mean just anyone.
I used to be one of them myself. Itās definitely not a place I want her to be or a person I want her to stay with. As youāre trying ti describe itās a certain lifestyle we want to distance ourselves from.
And thatās also why we came and picked her up as soon as she called.
I still have friends in active addiction,I still have my own urge to use that I Battle with still (Even If Iāve been clean for many many years)
But I wonāt,and thereās the difference between us here trying and those who donāt.
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Thank you.
Sheās back home now,We had about a 6 hours road trip to bring her home.
Hopefully sheāll get her life together this time.
With some help from us ofc. 
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Thank you, Mno.
Iām still here, abstaining and reading.
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sweet and true
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Ugh that anxious feeling in the stomach is the worstā¦ I feel you! Sorry youre going through it. Sometimes it doesnāt go away no matter what I do to alleviate it. It helps me not to overthink it then, and just ride the wave until it passes on its own.
Congrats on your sobrieties! 
Great job, friend!
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Celebrating Day 313
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I agree. I donāt like the word alcoholic, I think itās unnecessary stigmatizing. I donāt call somebody with schizophrenia a schizophrenic, or somebody with autism an autist, either.
Iām not going to use the word alcoholic to describe myself or anybody. But there are others that do and if thatās what they want, fine. I can live with that. I have to live with that.
Also this is a world wide forum, with english as lingua franca. Thereās a 100 types of english spoken as native languages around the world. And thereās also us for whom english is a second or third language. Whose english do we use here and whoās here to police it?
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@KarenKW congrats on 30 days 
@Cjp congrats on the promotionā:clap:t2:
@JazzyS thank you 
š©µ it will pass hopefully soon. 
@Dustysprungfield congrats on 3 weeks
@Just_Laura congrats on 6 months
@Saturn81 welcome congrats on 3 days
@Mira_D congrats on 30 days
1101 days no alcohol.
566 days no cocaine.
81 days no vape.
Today has been much like yesterday, and Iāve managed my fundamentals but only one other activity, which was reading one chapter of the book Iām reading.
I received my new passport today, and I do like my photo, so thatās good, and now Iāve applied to renew my drivers licence, which they will use the photo from my passport, so I will receive that soon too. My last passport and drivers licence photos were pre-Testosterone so Iāve never liked them. So now I will have ID that better reflects current me.
š©µ
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Checking in sober day 31.
I canāt wait for vacation. I need a break from life. Iām exhausted with everything. I never feel at peace. Iām not even trying for happiness. I want peace of mind. That might be harder to find. Particularly with ADHD and anxiety. But soon I can sit on the beach and watch the waves.
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Great news @CATMANCAM That must feel so right, to feel reflected in the image you have.
@KarenKW Congratulations on Day 30. Where are you off to? I love the ocean.
Checking in on Day 43. Really tired today. Been trying my hardest in all my roles and that has taken it out of me, think I managed it though. My family are happy and got a lot done at work. I am not very good and the switch required between roles, so having the kids home while I am working is tough. My son would live in his room (which isnāt good), and my daughter seems to rely on me for entertainment. I feel sad for kids today as they just donāt play out like we used to. I guess the parents are too busy. I have quite bad Mum guilt today, but also so envious of friends with the little ones. I miss those days.
Anyway, have waffled on there. I needed it, not feeling that listened to today. Thank you all for being here
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