@katiee you are doing fantastic with your sober time and finding other ways to deal with your frustrations / anxiety. Totally sucks about your cancelled appointment and not getting you meds – are you able to reup your prescription via phone? I would think your psychiatrist would be aware of this and not leave you hanging. Much strength for your day! @chelle2023 Great job on 2 days! Yes – this is definitely the right place for your check ins… good to see you on the thread. Keep strong my friend! @mindofsobermike YEAH to 90 days my friend – 3 whole months!!! My goodness Mike – I’m sorry for the ordeal yesterday. You know – kids are rowdy and throw tantrums sometimes – you could be doing everything right and still the child will lash out. Please do not take this to be a reflection of how you are as a father. You are doing a great job! I can imagine the feeling of embarrassment with people around you watching – do know that most just sympathize as they have also been through similar scenarios. Have fun with that tattoo today! @Butterflymoonwoman 555 is an awesome number. I love how your day is shaping up and am grateful that the DBT program is helping you. Don’t focus on the urges for binging but rather how you do not give in to those urges!
Checking in on Tuesday morning. It has been a busy morning already – I really don’t know where time disappears to. I am again mentally very happy and working through the physical. Grateful for my morning coffee doing its thing. I am looking forward to a wonderful day - wishing everyone a fabulous addiction free day - sending you all much love
Hi everyone. I don’t post much, but today marks 6 months for me. A milestone that felt utterly impossible when I began. Thank you all for your inspiring posts.
Day 37 . I am enrolled in an online sobriety hospital sponsored program
They have drug testing randomly. I have to drive 2.5 hours to test. 3rd time testing today. I really feel I am committed to being sober for evermore God willing.
Just a note to say - I’m fairly sure every parent on that camp site thought “been there!”. Because we all have at some point. The embarrassment and helplessness feels awful and is exhausting. But you’re not a terrible parent at all. It sounds like you kept calm and in control. And most importantly you kept your daughter safe. I’m glad the day settled for you x
Thank you! I was able to get a hold of my psychiatrist today, and I’m able to get more meds until my appointment next Monday everything works out in the end sending you positive energy!
Oh my god, I did it.
I gave 2 weeks notice. Im going to then do it in writing.
I had a feeling today of being very serious about staying sober because i do Not want to fuck this up.
It was hard because all of the things i like about the job showed themselves. But I want to quit while im ahead.
Im really sorry youre going through this. Especially after you thought it was over. Its a different kind of disappointment and pain when a struggle we thought we overcame, returns. Can be a tough pill to swallow.
Don’t give up. Take it easy. Just deal with it as it arises. Try not to torture yourself with how you should be, but try to find peace with how you are in the moment. Even if you currently may feel like you dont want to embrace yourself bc of resentment for having anxiety (again) etc.
I hope you can be kind to yourself and go with the flow, even if the flow really sucks.
And its not a backslide. Progress isnt measured in problems, but in how well we deal with them.
Wish you well and proud of you for sticking through this soberly.
Got home, home alone. Tried to watch a show, a few shows, wasn’t doing it for me. I had a real brain fog but a restless feeling. Tired but I can’t sleep. I turned to recovery techniques and it’s once again opened my eyes to what’s at play. My dopamine addicted brain doesn’t value any of the things I used to love once I stopped using(PMO) Mindfulness helps me shed a light on things vs over eating or just searching for more and more content. I’m leaving the house, I can’t just allow my mind to push me where I don’t want to go. As much as I want to just chill, I don’t trust myself to just not over eat or watch something I shouldn’t. Better to be safe than sorry I guess
My day was good.
Bawled my eyes out for an hour before work and yelled in great anger lol (mood disorder).
After that put on music and danced to Say my name by Florence and the machine. A top tier feel good song!
Work was good. The airport was hot and stinky and full of people and noises → the opposite of everything I like.
But I can deal with it. Its good to learn how many things we can actually deal with. (In a “not putting up with painful things we can change” way).
Upon coming home and opening the door, I immeadiately had an intrusive thought about wanting to drink.
I told myself its just a hurt part of my brain. Told myself off like a dog, just “NO!” and right away thought about sth else.
Sometimes im just too tired to go into the torturous back and forth about whether I will drink. I just want silence up in there and go to bed in peace.
I choose peace with myself over war against myself.
Wishing everyone an as well as you can have day / night. Proud of everyone here. You souls are struggling but holding on. It can be so freaking hard, I know. We keep entering dark tunnels. One after the other. But every single time we eventually find some light, right? even if the light is weird and small and flickering. Its still always there somewhere, anytime you choose to see it.
Just like to say the only reason I’ve got those days sober is by having an open mind, listening to things i didn’t want to hear and doing things I didn’t want to do. I asked for help and advice bc my way wasn’t working. My perspective on life was distorted and other people had what I wanted.
I will only ever pass on what was given to me and if I upset anyone I apologise in the short term… If you manage to stay sober for the long haul please be like me and don’t be afraid to tell people the facts. You might even save a life.
everything works out in the end 
sending you positive energy! 
