Day 91. Good morning everyone, yesterday was really good at camp, I just let the girls play and do there thing they came in around 830 and were very good, i noticed when we were at the park playing addie was having trouble breathing and she sounded like she had asthma or something. Well at 7 this morning my mom and her were up and addie was ten times worse, she could hardly breathe at all. So my mom took her into town to see her doctor, i offered to stay at the camper with autumn so she could sleep and hang out with me, But autumn said no she wanted to go, so my mom took both of them to town. I was going to go, but i missed my group Monday and i dont want to miss it again today, but i hope my baby girl is ok.
I have a drug and alcohol assessment tomorrow and i was suppose to sign a paper and send it back to them, well i didnāt realize that until yesterday and it wont make it by mail in time, so i signed it and emailed it to my case worker. Im hoping that will be sufficient, if not then well i might be screwed bc it says if its not signed and returned i am no longer eligible for assistance, idk Iām kinda stressed bc i got school coming to and i just dont want to be worrying about all this stuff at once. Idk much love everyone
Second update for today.
My husband is home.
All the medical care doesnāt seem that scary or difficult anymore, and It was great to see him in person again.
Thank you everyone for you support 
Checking in, day 43ā¦
@MrsOdh Oh Sophia im so glad hes home! What great news! Hope he continues to recover quickly
@Mindofsobermike I hope Addie is okay! Glad she went to see the doctor. And im praying that your paperwork is sufficient to get you assistance. Have a great day Mike!
@Brl81 Congratulations on 30 days!! 
@SelfLove_42 I love your positive attitude and how you work so hard at shifting your thinking and making it a better day. Sounds like u have a good plan for this morning. Hope the rest of your day goes well 
@Timetochange Congratulations on 60 whole days of freedom!!!
@rob11 Im still continuing to pray that everything is okay with your ex. Hope all glea well with her biopt (Im not sure what this either). Hope you have a great day overall!
Hey you! I fixed the photo dump lolā¦ doing well my friendā¦ the wrist brace is for my carpal tunnel issueā¦ have to see an orthopedic doctor tomorrow to see if I need surgery or not! Hope youāre doing wellā¦ ODAAT
Morning check in
Day 556
Woke up clean and sober! That in itself is a gift! Today is another relaxing day with my son. But I completely missed the gym this morning which I feel bad about. I was just sooo tired. I will make sure to exercise tmrw (my optional gym day) then to make up for today.
Tasks for the day is my morning recovery routine. Some cleaning. A meditation. And then grocery shopping once hubby gets home from work. Thats about it! Hope everyone has a great addiction free day 
So glad to hear this
Morning guys checking in. Well fam is coming home from the shore today, so my alone time is over 
. Iām glad that they had a great time though, back to business around here. Have a great day peeps 
Checking in on day 59. Feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. Happy to almost be halfway done with my week! Sending strength to everyone 
I wouldāve talked to those kids for real and explained very carefully, and asked them how it would feel for them if they didnāt understand.
If they still wonāt listen and keeps trying to tease him, I wouldāve talked to their parents.
Thereās like a golden rule here (Swedish small town) that you donāt make fun of someone who doesnāt understand, if you want to do something you should try to help. Thatās it.
I really hope it turns out to the best for all of you.
Language can be a struggle.
She is stable now and has her medication. Think itās gonna be a handful of it. I believe a biopt is when they take some tissue, in this case of the heart, brrrrrrrr to investigate. They gonna look into genetics as well. Donāt expect much there, itās on neither side of the family yet. But better be sure for our son. From what I hear she is very well taking care of. But still, we only have one heart. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers 
Sorry i have been linds mia the last few days, im doing ok but i gotten sick unfortunately ugh and work has been real rough and stressful. Thanks for checking in on me though
Iām sorry to hear that. But Iām glad that sheās getting help. As someone who just got her husband home Iād say that she is in the right place to get all the help needed.
Iām sure your son would be just fine. As long as he knows that youāre all there for him if he needs it in any way. Iām sure heāll be fine even if the current situation isnāt optimal.
Hoping itāll all turn our for the best for all of you.
Hi guys how is everybody
Apologies I havenāt been on here in a while but have been busy with different things and got COVID unfortunately was very sick with it this time and am only coming around now but I also took a break from all social media until today to try new things
Over all Iāve been doing ok going to meeting with my case counsellor every Tuesday have been attending cocaine anonymous meetings every Sunday for the the past 3 weeks now have been busy soccer training and had my first match last night doing slot of reading also
In my time out I decided to quit my job and go onto something new I am now exploring my options if going back into education again but itās early days yet also looking for a new job at the min also to keep money coming in I just wasnāt happy where I was and felt I had to go as it was affecting my own mental health
I will be back on here alot from now on as my counsellor thinks been on here will help alot with how things go for me and I could not agree more myself I have decided to get rid of Facebook and Snapchat and I am now only using this app along with Instagram from now on.
Iāve made alot of changes these last few weeks and have put a better plan in place I also went to the substance misuse clinic yester for a assessment from a nurse who will work with my case worker to try and balance my anxiety and depression which will help in the long run with using aswell 
Hope everybody is doing ok and would just like to say itās good to be back on here with al you great people
I feel the same any time weāre visiting Germany. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side 
Glad Iām not the only one who struggle with this, I recognized myself in pretty much everything youāre describing. All is well, couldnāt be better and then and there I just loose it and it gets me from out of the blue.
Hopefully it works better this time. And Iāll stay sober.
Great job on your double digits! Hope your headache is gone ā if not, maybe try placing a cold cloth over forehead and eyes while simultaneously placing a warm cloth at the nape of your neck helps relieve migraines / intense headaches.
I totally get your feelings and itās not selfish at all. It is a lot of responsibility and i can imagine the anxiety of possibly things changing quickly. I am grateful that you will have nurses and in home care. We will continue to send you positive healing vibes my friend. Deep breathes my friend.
Much love Sophia! I do hope things got easier for you.
Just saw your update - grateful your husband is home safely and the home medical care doesnāt seem so daunting. We are here for you 
Thank you. The headache eventually disappeared. Probably with a lot of tension that Iāve build up during all this.
Iām sure things will turn out the the best, it usually does. Thank you for all your support and kind words
Got some time before my hair appointment so I wanted to check in. Put my head on the pillow sober last 2 nights and will do so again tonight. Odaat. Iāve consistently gone to The Luckiest Club meetings and have given out my number & taken some. I have never done that before. Turns out there are 3 sober people near my new home in New Mexico and they want to connect in person. I hope to close on the house mid September and get connected with them. What Iām realizing is Iāve never really been able to connect with anyone deeply, not my Buddhist community (Iām too off the cuff and I love the F word 
), not horse people (I donāt ride my horse and give him choices of what heād enjoy doing, which is unusual and can trigger others who only want to ride). So finding connection through sobriety is an amazing surprise. Iām feeling really lucky
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Evening checkin.
No shit in the fridge.
No urges.
Bit shaky, wasnāt that hungry today, need to make dinner soon to fill up some energy.
Will try to relax with some TV tonight.
Much love
20 whole days! thatās absolutely brilliant! I am glad that you are not giving room for your enemies to take hold of your thinking.
Grateful that you are focusing on the positive and finding motivations to get moving - get something done.
checking in on the gratitude thread every day really helps me put life into perspective and gives me hope to tackle the day ā Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #4
or
Gratitude List. 5 things daily
the mediation thread is also amazing - great finds to help lift you up while calming you down
Meditation for Serenity 2023! (tips, tricks & discussion/ 2 years running woot!)