I am not sure if I am okay. I am on day 5 and I have been waking up feeling angry and mean. I havent been nice to anyone around me, I just don’t feel like myself. You know, I stopped drinking to be a support to my spouse during a time I know he needs support. Before I stopped 5 days ago I told myself over and over again I dont have a problem drinking I can quit whenever I want no issues. I been lying to myself obviously. I do have a problem and I am not OK. However I woke up this morning with all that anger in me raging and fuming. I decided to kill it at the gym and clear my mind. One more day down… see you tomorrow. If the LORD wills it.
That’s some great 10th step work you did there, Frank. Sometimes, I find it hard reflecting and admitting my part but it’s very freeing. There’s always that chance a resentment will lead to a relapse, and that’s the last thing we want to happen so it’s better to let it go. Proud of you my friend.
We are on the same timeline and I totally feel you. I am sick with a cold too so I’m feeling even extra crappy. I’ve realized just how bad my problem with it is too. Working out was my biggest saving grace when I got sober during one of my many attempts. I’ve been easing back into it but I know it’s going to be a huge thing to get me through too. So good for us mentally and physically is just an extra bonus. We got this 🫶🏻
This is so interesting. Do you think being proud of your sobriety can get in the way of actually staying sober? Just trying to understand your perspective on how being self centered is the enemy of sobriety. Also huge congratulations 🫶🏻
I am so so tired. I finished my first week at work - it’s a cold kitchen which makes me feel even more tired when I’m working. Still, a relatively short day (11-5) but was up at about 7am reading the big book.
I have effectively love bombed my daughter all day, not sure she is any happier now but she will hopefully be more secure. I am completely drained I did manage a 40 minute nap during the afternoon YouTube session so that was good.
I am now craving complete isolation so may go to sleep soon. My husband is next to me in bed and don’t really feel I can say “can you go away?” At least if my eyes are closed I have peace.
So that is my day The good news is I have barely had a craving. Have a good day/evening everyone
Really not great tbh but enjoyed yummy food.
Am not worrying so much anymore, bc it is counter-productive but also bc im just immensely sick of it😂
I work at the airport and enjoy speaking to people from many different countries. Small gestures of kindness from strangers are so beautiful. Media says the world is so ugly but never shows the other side of the coin. There are many beautiful people here with us.
I appreciate a lot that my body is unharmed and not in pain and that I have all five senses and all limbs.
That Im free and safe and have a place to live.
That all the cool things in the world are at my disposal.
Enjoy your freedom every today!
So I’m getting these really weird symptoms in my hands. They feel cold and sometimes get numbness at the tip of my fingers. And yes, I’m aware I should speak to a doctor about this and not the internet. But… I’m a little scardy coward who is scared of doctors. Even Dr. Google freaked me out.
Thank your for your feedback @Lainenicole96 . In my case it happens that being sober may nurture my ego. That is the reason I try to avoid the fact of “being proud”.
My ego talked me when I was drunk that that bottle was to be the last one. My ego used to make me consider I could deal with my alcoholism alone.
Now, being sober, I could think that everything is done. Of course I am happy, even proud of being sober. But I do not want to think that this is because only of myself. God and my family and friends are my true support, much more than my ego.
I’m in the same boat. I haven’t seen a GP in years. My doctor told me to come as needed, which I did, and then I went 5 years problem free. Then when I needed him at the end of 2020 I wasn’t able to make an appointment bc of covid! Still drinking then, I sunk even further into my relapse bc ‘Fuck it! They don’t want to help me?!’
Not being numb, I notice every pain and oddity my body feels now. I fear that they’ll find something horribly wrong with me which gives me anxiety over making an appointment. Plus my insurance changed and I have to pay much more than before. Google makes it worse so I try not to go down that rabbit hole.
With the time we each have, our bodies have probably healed substantially. I’m just not sure if it’s better not knowing anymore
Rough day today. I can’t tell if it is due to wonky sleep from a weird shift at work this morning, sickness in my house, general malaise , or the time change but all I’ve done today was some minor unfinished cleaning, eaten a delicious sandwich and slept in bursts throughout the day.
I will now perform the heroic feat of moving from my bed to my couch. If I get motivated I have all the ingredients for a mushroom and barley veggie soup with dumplings and a first attempt at sauerkraut soup. There is something both ick and appealing about the thought of sauerkraut soup. Or I’ll just lay here. Either way, still sober.
Checking in from my nightshift.
100 days now for me and I start to feel stronger with every day.
Thank you everyone for being here and support one another. This community is awesome
I’m not sure if I like to think that I have no reason to feel this way or not. having no reason makes me feel helpless and like I can’t fix it but if I acknowledge the reasons it’s too much to handle. I’m chronically ill and in pain 24/7. I live with people who don’t care about me, most of my family at best, deals with me and at worst hates me. I don’t belong anywhere I go. I’m so tired of it. I want to change myself and my situation but I feel like there’s nothing I can do. I can’t change the people I live with and I desperately want to leave but I’m also still too mentally and physically ill to even think about having a job. it’s pathetic honestly. I’m 21 and I can’t even drive. and I have no interest in learning right now either. part of my illnesses is nausea and I have emetophobia so I have constant panic attacks over my nausea. anxiety also makes me more nauseous. so the second I get behind a wheel I’d probably have a panic attack. I used to have goals and things but now it just feels like I don’t want anything else out of life. I’m not going to harm myself or anything but sometimes I wish I would.
welcome to the community and your sober journey Peter. The site does take a minute to get used to – take a moment to read around and it will get easier to navigate. This is one of my favorite threads as checking in daily helps me stay accountable and connect with my sober friends.
Addiction is a nasty disease and hard to shed. For me, having a space of support (on line or in person - with meetings for example), changing up my routines and social circles, drinking lots of water and getting loads of rest helped me get my footing for sobriety. I also kept myself super busy with work, hobbies and games on my phone so that i would be able to keep away from temptations.
Stay strong my friend - together we can fight this addiction
Way to go Brittany on your 5 + days of sobriety! I do know that I did a LOT of sleeping and lounging and increased my sugar intake during the beginning of my sobriety. Your body is detoxing and adjusting. Be kind to yourself and allow for the rest. Every day you are sober is a success. @becsta a great reminder that every day sober is a day to celebrate. Super proud of your journey and love your 4.44 years – keep up the amazing work :muscle. @sunny11 Well done on your 2 weeks of sobriety! Keep going strong @hidden Way to go on not entertaining the thought. You are crushing it with 47 days and retraining your mind in your sober living. It is a lot and each day sober is a day to be proud. @tomek welcome back to the community. I am sorry for the recent struggles (depression and intense grief). Grateful that you are maintaining your sobriety and your therapist. We are here with you my friend – sending you comfort and love on your journey. @binx So great to see you checking in and love seeing posts from you Happy Birthday to your youngest Hope you all had a wonderful time celebrating! @jennyh wow girl you did have a day and I can imagine that being stressful. Grateful you did not have any cravings and I loved the “love bombed” –I am sure she felt it I do hope you did get the peaceful rest @mira_d I totally relate to having a hard time making friendships as I got older. I can make many acquaintances but genuine friendships where you click and can enjoy hanging out is difficult. So excited for your new friend and love all the fun stuff you two did together :hugs; @sabrina80 WOW – 400 days AF and 3 weeks detox from social media!! You are amazing Sabrina grateful you are also starting to see improvement on your hands and feet
LOVE this Emilie – it is a huge feat and you should be super proud of yourself! I am excited to see you shed the shell that addiction had created and emerge into your badass version of yourself.
@catmancam thanks friend I do hope you can be kind to yourself. I realize that the binging was a set back but I think you should be proud of the progress you have made. I also have faith that you will get back on track. Way to crush it with 11 months no cigarillos! @goku2019 750 days and going strong!! Sorry the latte caused your night to end early. That puzzle looks awesome – glad you were able to finish it @jasty2 UGH! Sorry friend – I do hope it’s a mild case and you get better soon. @happyfeet SOOO excited to see you at 99 days – about to get that triple digits Sorry that you are feeling low. For me, I force myself to get fresh air (which is see with your walks that you are doing) and I also surround myself with laughter – usually go with my go to stand up comic who never fails. I do hope you are able to lift your spirits soon – sending you happy vibes just saw your update – YEAH to 100 days Anne!!! @moosetracks 14 months is amazing! Keep up the great work @icebear so grateful that you are here with us Drew and working on your sobriety. Keep working the sober path and stay positive my friend @efountains A huge congrats to you and your 14 months of sobriety. Keep moving forward and keeping strong in your journey @deatle_30 Welcome to the community Lindsay and great work on 5 days sober! My nerves were shot to hell and my patience / emotional levels were nonexistent. I would cry over nothing and lose my temper at the slightest inconvenience. It was not pretty. Be gentle with yourself. Your body is detoxing and learning new behaviors. It is also learning to deal with situations / emotions that we used to drown and numb in the past. I am grateful that you did get to the gym and work out that rage. Keep finding ways to work through it. It does go away and it does get easier. We are here with you on this journey – feel free to check in and vent (sometimes writing it out helps release some of its hold on you). @karenkw way to go on 1 week of sobriety Karen!! Were you able to rest this weekend? The energy levels to get better as you stack on the sober days. Sending you energy and love my friend.
Anything you want to talk about Mulan? Hope your day got easier
Hey, it’s 11:24 and I’m already getting tired! Maybe I’ll finally fix my bedtime procrastination! Or maybe I’ll do it tomorrow. Just kidding But seriously, I do like how this clock change makes it easier to get up on time.
Yesterday felt like the longest day ever so today was be a bum day. It was nice bc my body’s quite sore. Think I’m actually gonna go to bed. Rest well everyone
I’ve realized just how bad my problem with it is too. Working out was my biggest saving grace when I got sober during one of my many attempts. I’ve been easing back into it but I know it’s going to be a huge thing to get me through too. So good for us mentally and physically is just an extra bonus. We got this 🫶🏻
I did manage a 40 minute nap during the afternoon YouTube session so that was good.
The good news is I have barely had a craving. Have a good day/evening everyone
, or the time change but all I’ve done today was some minor unfinished cleaning, eaten a delicious sandwich and slept in bursts throughout the day.
Keep going strong 
Hope you all had a wonderful time celebrating!
Sorry that you are feeling low. For me, I force myself to get fresh air (which is see with your walks that you are doing) and I also surround myself with laughter – usually go with my go to stand up comic who never fails. I do hope you are able to lift your spirits soon – sending you happy vibes 
But seriously, I do like how this clock change makes it easier to get up on time.