Hi Peter 
I know how that struggle feels. I could barely string together 24 hours let alone 3 days for a very long time. I have over 135 resets (bc sometimes I didnāt even bother changing it). One day it just stuck. Finally.
For me, something just clicked and I knew I was done. I really canāt explain it but just keep on trying. Once you get there, never look back! Good to have you here 
Day 26. Almost missed the check-in. Have an awesome night.
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Iāve been tired and my nose it starting to bother me. I think itās the second hand smoke from my neighbors. It seeps through the door frame and heat vents. I honestly donāt understand it. I NEVER smoked a cigarette in my house. Even when it was 0Ā° outside. If you want to do it in your own house, fine, but in a building with 7 other apartments? Selfish 
Same ol same ol day. Worked, relaxed, drove for an hour, bed. I shouldāve gone shopping but thereās always tomorrow. The chef at work found me a deal on tires for my car so I may check that out. I need them to pass inspection, which is overdue. I have anxiety about seeing cops every time I drive somewhere.
This date, for the past 3 years, has always made me sad. Had covid not happened, I would have 4 years today. Not that I know that for sure, but Iām fairly certain. It is sad to think about, but itās okay too. Iām here now with a new date and Iāll get to a year in 3 more months. Which seems like no time at all in the grand scheme of things. This is just the way it was supposed to go. Well, I need a snack before some well deserved sleep. Goodnight 
Day 55:
Day started out great, gorgeous fall morning, good coffee and music. My kids came over for pancakes. They may not come over just to see me, but they always come for my pancakes and Iām definitely not above bribing them to get them here!
Kids hung out for quite a while and then had to go to their moms for dinner. I was supposed to go to a friends house for a bbq and to watch football, but I wasnāt feeling it. After my kids left I just felt a little off and definitely didnāt feel like socializing. I just wanted to be home. Luckily my friend understood, well she said she did, but I felt good that knew I was in no mood to go and stayed home.
Got stuff done around my house, got my November workout done, watched some football and got things ready for tomorrow. First day back to the gym is tomorrow at 5am and the workouts are ruff! Always feel better when they are done, but waking up at 4:30 is daunting!
Going to try and get some sleep, talk to you all tomorrow!
Checking in for day 379 AF.
Life got in the way yesterday so I wasnāt able to check in. Had a long lie in (for me) yesterday morning until 9am, so woke up feeling pretty good.
Stayed away from the gym to let my body heal from a couple of injuries, but went to watch my team yesterday afternoon with one of my sons and some friends, and that killed a few hours. Sometimes I donāt want to go as these types of social events often involve a lot of boozing, but because I donāt really go out anymore itās also the only time I see some of my friends.
Back to the office this morning - hope you all had a great sober weekend
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It actually getās easier and easier the more days are passing. At the beginning I would constantly look up how many days I am sober.
Family and friends are used to it now and itās normal for them that I donāt drink anymore.
I do sometimes feel like I am more boring nowā¦ but ok that is better than ruining my life and feeling constantly ashamed.
Back from a holiday with friends that drink. I felt like they didnāt drink as much as they normally would, maybe because of me?
It did cross my mind āmaybe just one glass of wine with this good dinner and great companyā but I know what happens if I do and I feel iāve come so far why ruin it? Husband is also helping me in those moment. I didnāt give in and happy about that. Luckily, these thoughts are also quickly gone again.
Hope everyone is having an awesome day!
It is just that, escape. It wonāt fix anything, help you process anything, nothing actually beneficial. You need the energy, clarity and strength that sobriety brings to be able to face anything.
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In todayās episode of āfirst world problems of a sober personā my daughter has put a cute keyboard on my phone and it is so annoying to use! I keep automatically doing what worked on the default one and this one is a little different. Very cute tho.
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Glad I did a long 
commute to work yesterday as today weāre back to 
on my day off. Thatās OK. Some house chores to do. Feeling bodily a bit tired but mentally pretty good, certainly compared to a week or two ago.
I do need to keep up the work (ODAAT of course) to stay connected in the analogue world, to consciously refrain from looking at my phone every minute of the day, to stop sitting behind my pc all day every day. I donāt feel I need to go cold turkey and abstain 100% from internet like I did and do with substances. In todayās day and age thatās impossible anyway.
I do need to be, and stay, conscious of the pull and the lure of the endless little cues and triggers that keep us going back to the screens and keyboards. Be conscious and resist and think up alternatives. Doing nothing and staring blankly into space is an alternative as well btw.
Having said that I wish you all to have the very best day you can have friends. Sober and clean. Much love from my commute yesterday.
@AnnaE Congrats on 175 days Anna! I can assure you that you arenāt more boring sober. Even when it might take time to bring out the real you after hiding in drinking for I donāt know how long. As to the āmaybe I can have oneā. These thoughts come and go. And ever less. Thatās where for me One Day at a Time comes into play. Maybe tomorrow. But not today.
@Mindofsobermike Thinking of you Mike.
Checking in, all over the place but mostly okay 
Day 22 
Before starting a busy work weekā¦ A beautiful moment from yesterday 
BTW , The sadness of my relapsed in the third year is still in my heart. 
Day 303.
I woke with this urge to go see some fucking trees and nature and shit like that. Iāve been cooping myself indoors for too long and I think itās part of why I feel so low.
Day 142. Focused pretty well at work. Thinking of seeing if I can reduce from working five days a week to maybe four somehow
No rush. But eventually
Heading into day 2 and feeling pretty good, especially for a Monday. Just trying to stay in a positive head space because I know where negative thoughts lead and I DO NOT want to go down that road. Thank you everyone for all of the warm welcomes and words of encouragement. This is such a great app and definitely one of my favorite tools. Iām gonna take it hour by hour, that seems to be a good plan for right now. I just keep myself busy for an hour and before I know it, the time has passed. Have a Motivational Monday everyone!!!
Day 63 n still soberā¦ Anxious af got court this am at 9 n really donāt know what the judge is gonna do
Hey all, checking in on day 1247. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 59
Iām looking forward to a stretch of days off this month.
Setting another days intention to check in with my younger self THREE times today.
Iāll let you know how it goes. Hope to get to my first meeting next week with my support friend. I feel nervous but I can do it.
Checking in on day 0.
I canāt sugar coat using the last three daysā¦I wanted to. A deep overwhelming sadness swept over me at being back from holiday and facing the reality of my possible redundancy (I will know this week, possibly by Wednesday). I was so uncaring towards myself that I decided drinking would be what I deserved. Nothing awful happened apart from a terrible headache for two days straight and feeling wonky and gross. Iām really struggling mentally with so much stuff, worrying and anxious. I need to get my routines back like good food and cooking from scratch, Iāve been eating absolute shite really for days. I didnāt do my swim session either. I also lost my Kindle on holiday so Iāve completely lost that part of my routine as I spend up to two or three hours a night reading as I struggle with terrible insomnia. Iām lost without that, it was actually a treasured companion 
We go againā¦ Iām still hanging in there.
Oh no, I am so sorry it is so tough, I would have been gutted at losing my kindle. Have you tried the app on your phone? It takes some adjustment but I actually prefer it now.
Glad you are here, you were missed 
Really hoping you get some good news this week xx
