@JennyH congrats on the new job 
@Just_Laura congrats on 9 months
@zzz congrats on 50 days
@Frank68 congrats on 30 days
@RosaCanDo sorry about the root canals, they are no joke 
but congrats on all the 7s
@Squishiebunnie welcome 
congrats on 1 year and 4 months
@JazzyS good luck making all those pies!
1193 days no alcohol.
658 days no cocaine.
173 days no vape.
Didn’t get to sleep until 3am Monday night. I was worried I wouldn’t wake in time to get to my appointment on Tuesday, but I did, via alarms. I didn’t have to go into town so I was able to go back to sleep after my meds for an hour.
When I awoke to a regular text message on Tuesday, I thought it was going to be the Psychologist cancelling our appointment again, it was from her, but she said she needed to work from home that day, so we did have our session, but it was over the phone. It went okay, some hard stuff to talk about in relation to childhood sexual abuse, and my experiences of sexual violence as an adult. Then we talked about how certain things are difficult for me, and how badly I want to start going back to the gym and swimming…she set me some goals. Yesterday I was to walk to the gym, just to the car park, then home, which I did. Then on Friday, so tomorrow, she wants me to walk to the gym, and go in for a coffee, in the café in the reception area, and then home. Then to see if I can actually go in the gym to exercise the next time. Our next session is 5th December, so we will review then. As it stands, I’ve been finding it impossible to leave my flat to go for any of my usual walks. I’ve reverted back into Agoraphobia mode.
Yesterday I attended an in-person course called ‘The Power of Routine’, I was really looking forward to this one. Hoping it would kick-start some motivation in me to get back on track with my walking and other daily activities that have slipped since my last therapy ended, but I didn’t learn anything new. It was good to get out though.
Today I felt very low all morning. I attended an online course called ‘LGBTQ+ Matters’ in which a recording of my lived experience was played (not my voice). I received an email from one of the tutors shortly after the session ended saying they had received positive feedback from the lived experience specifically, so atleast my contribuation was valuable. At 14:30 today, I realised why I had been feeling so diabolical mentally, I hadn’t taken my morning nor lunchtime meds, so I took them then and have just been meditating while I started to feel more like my usual self.
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at least I didn’t give in and drink
