Good morning
Just checking in after the completion of day three of our Christmas extravaganza. It is finally complete and my heart is so full, we had such a beautiful holiday. I think I am feeling extra grateful because my father made it through his hopsital scare. I was able to be 100% present through this whole experience, and only because of the skills I have learned in the last 9 years. Mhm, yes, 3 years, 11 months and 28 days clean but I have been working on my recovery from addiction now for 18 years. Its not often we get this in our first go. You know, my first mistake was thinking abstinence was the answer, that it was all that it took. Was I ever wrong. My second mistake was thinking I could heal my wounded psyche, while I was using, with all the specialized doctors and meds money could buy. Was I ever wrong. My suffering finally became so unbearable I surrendered everything and that is the only thing that has worked for me.
This year I was able to apply my program to my eating disorder, something I have been struggling to do for almost 4 years. I was Honest about what would work for me around an eating schedule at Christmas time. I was O penminded about a sit down dinner. And I was W illing to do anything to make sure my body was nourished and that I felt safe while I was doing it. Maybe i was applying my program before but I was always looking for big moves. I am learning to recognize the small stuff.
I am grateful for Narcotics Anonymous
I am grateful to have a life worth living today and I am grateful to never have to use drugs again.
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