*Day 1930
Day 1…a whole brand new year in front of us!
What will we do with it?
Which choises will we make?
What will we avoid?
Which places shall we visit?
Who shall we meet?
Opportunities!
Chances! Chances for a change.
That’s why I make my resolutions every year.
In the hope I can change something for the better. Life is growth. A difficult path sometime because growing is also changing and that can hurt. Becoming sober was a big change in my life and yes it was painful as well.
But It brought me so much!
I wish you all a year with at least one of your new year resolutions coming trough.
Whatever you “wished” for.
We all know resolutions requires work, hard work and no wishing
So let’s go get it!
Had a user dream, kind of strange and worrisome it wasn’t about my doc. Maybe triggered by a share at a meeting yesterday, but I can’t totally recall whether that guy had also a dream about another drug. I thought so, however let’s not overthink it. There was also another one who I know from my last treatment centre, who looked like crap again. He keeps relapsing, maybe I was a bit harsh on him asking him ‘you keep running in circles isn’t it?. I hugged him quit tightly at the end. Something is telling me he will be gone soon, hate that feeling. Had this in the past a few times, hope it doesn’t come true, but I know it might be idle hope. Stick to the winners as they say is what helps me through things like this.
Smoked my last cigarette this night. I don’t really see it as a resolution, but just as something that needs to happen. No need there to wait for a message from a doctor telling me I overdid it. Procrastinated it already a long time.
Booked my sauna visit for this afternoon. Just time to relax, beforehand doing some chores in the house. Didn’t manage to do it all yesterday. Didn’t really receive a lot of best wishes, not from my best friend (witch it isn’t probably anymore) and my brother. Keeps coming back at those occasions, but it is what it is. I also decided to take no initiative to do so, just feels like I would cross a boundary and put my self on wonky feet. It’s time for new people in my life and not chasing and having expectations from the crippled relationships from the past.
A happy, safe, peaceful, and sane New Year to all of you!
My daughter is back from her trip, there will be a lot of cuddling today on the menu
I’m planning to go out for a run. And there is this meditation challenge I’m looking forward to.
My mother in law’s birthday is today. With cake. I don’t want any. My addiction will want all of it. I’m prepared.
Day 6, NYE is definitely a tricky one. I had mixed feelings abut having to work from 5pm-2am, but decided to be grateful for it because it would make it easier for me to avoid drinking if Im at work. Now im home, tired, but that urge is there. Guess ill use the ol’ trusty shower technique to distract myself and go from there.
Wasnt a bad day overall. Glad i had company (coworkers) to countdown with, we all cheerd with some nonalcoholic bubbly juices so that was fun. Plus everyone was in a good mood so that was nice. No idea what this year will bring for me, there are so many things i have been wnating to achieve that just seem impossible or too overwhelming to think about.
Hope everyone had a lovely NYE 🫶🏻
Update:
Shower helped, feeling more like I can do this plus it helps getting more and more tired because whats the point in drinking if im just gonna go to sleep immediately after anyway
Glad all that is over. Today’s just another day really. Fireworks are illegal here since a couple of years, and the addiction of a lot of people to do it illegally seems to be slowly getting less. Happy for that while I loved it as a kid and took a lot of risks with it, just like I did with booze and drugs and sex and whatnot.
I got addicted to a lot of it too and been working on discovering how a life without addiction is for 1668 days now. Recovery is work, lots of it, but it’s a work of love and bloody well worth it. One day at a time my life gets better, not linear, there’s still good days and bad days, sad days and happy days.
It’s life. But it’s my life and I feel I’ve gained some control over it in ways I didn’t think possible, ways other than fleeing and hiding in substance abuse and other addictive behaviours. Never again. One day at a time. Have as good a 2024 as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my little square.
I slept through it
Guess I have to thank the continuous and sometimes torrential rain last night. Kept the people indoors and the fireworks wet
Day 301 check in. I am looking forward to this year. The last 301 days were all about finding out what works, sometimes what to avoid, some awkward conversations and situations. I hope this year l will settle into a comfortable routine of just being me, sober. Honing my personal skills of mastering sobriety. Harnessing the positive things of sobriety.
ODAAT every day of the year
@TrustyBird
That’s brilliant! You summed up my list for things I miss about drinking We’re scurvy free indeed this year. Aaaarh. (I did actually have to google scurvy but now it’s my new favourite word).
@KarenKW sometimes a good cry to let it all out can be cathartic. Hoping you wake up today feeling even slightly better. You’ve had a tough year, Karen, be gentle on yourself. If you ever need to shout into the ether, feel free to PM me.
Day 352.
It’s the first day of 2024. I slept till noon, now planning on doing not much all day. Starting the year chilling in my pjs with Doctor Who. Bliss.
Hello 2024.
Thank you @RosaCanDo@JazzyS@Kareness@Just_Laura and @Amy30 for your words of support. I actually managed to fall asleep not long after I posted. Got some sleep despite the fireworks and weird nightmares. So I’m feeling a little better. I’ll try to be kind and gentle with myself today. Starting with coffee. It’s a new day.
Checking in for 2024. Slept a few hours after work and went back in around 6am so pretty uneventful night which is fine with me.
You and me both. New years has always been my least favorite holiday. @wahtisnormal Glad you worked and made it through NYE the same way you went into it. Congrats on 6 days SAF
Let’s start the year off right guys.
Day 48. Ahh good morning everyone, boy it’s been a while since I’ve talked to you all. It was last year since Ive talked to you all . Lmao haha I’m to funny. Anyways yesterday was good, got home ate some dinner. Started watching the movie dirt and realized it wasn’t the greatest idea so I switched and started playing some Xbox and then I just stopped and laid down. Fell asleep around 9 and I’m up and at work. Good bike ride to work, and I’m just looking forward to getting home. I have tomorrow off so I’ll probably play some Xbox. Feels good to have some money saved up so I can pay my rent tomorrow. But other than that everything is good much love to all and hope you all had a great new year. Let’s leave 23 in the past and focus on positive thoughts and intentions
Checking in. The end of the year went pretty well, I spent it at my buddy’s, he lives in a house at the very end of a little village, next to the forest, he has a cat and a fire place, we had some nice chat, I baked some good stuff and read a lot. It was all so quiet and peaceful, just what I needed. I’m heading home tomorrow, a bit anxious about that, I’m afraid to loose this mindset, but I plan to change my everyday routine to slow down a bit and focus more on my well-being. I know it’s not about the circumstances, but mainly the mindset, it’s not about the picture I’m looking at, but the lens I look through to see it, so I will work on creating this inner peace at home too. Being in a new year helps a lot, I think it added a bit more ease and acceptance to my grief.
Hung out at the in-law’s for a bit and then went to my mom’s. It was a chill NYE. Ate way too damn much. Fuck it. Diet starts starts today. Had some laughs, danced, and played loteria. My sister announced her pregnancy. Happy for her. We slept at my mom’s. I always have flashbacks at her apt. We lived here with my wife back in our early 20’s. A lot of drunken moments happened here. Anyways, glad I made it through another calendar year sober. It’s a trip being sober this long. Thought it was impossible. But here I am, thanks to yall.
Have a great day, everyone. It’s 5 am. Gonna shower and get ready for the day. Peace. Love yall.
Hello and happy new year! I’m back, with a renewed commitment to living alcohol free. Currently on day 6. I still take CBD (once daily) but plan to phase that out once I have a few months of alcohol sobriety under my belt. I don’t yet have a job but I’m not giving up hope. Finding so much healing through meditation on the Insight Timer app. It’s helping me to work through the toxic emotions keeping me stuck in addiction. Thank you @JazzyS for the mention
Happy New Year,for so long all these years just seem to run together,not Happy or sad just another day,but this year is full of promise,I know because it is the first one sober,free of alcohol, and drugs,they say that the way you bring in a New Year,is how it’s going to be,but I know this is just wise tale because without work, perseverance,and putting recovery first this year will end up like so many others,so again Happy New Year,I am off to a meeting, remember stay strong,do the work.
and lovely New Years wishes 
. Day 2368.
plus it helps getting more and more tired because whats the point in drinking if im just gonna go to sleep immediately after anyway
We’re scurvy free indeed this year. Aaaarh. (I did actually have to google scurvy but now it’s my new favourite word).
. Lmao haha I’m to funny. Anyways yesterday was good, got home ate some dinner. Started watching the movie dirt and realized it wasn’t the greatest idea so I switched and started playing some Xbox and then I just stopped and laid down. Fell asleep around 9 and I’m up and at work. Good bike ride to work, and I’m just looking forward to getting home. I have tomorrow off so I’ll probably play some Xbox. Feels good to have some money saved up so I can pay my rent tomorrow. But other than that everything is good much love to all and hope you all had a great new year. Let’s leave 23 in the past and focus on positive thoughts and intentions