@Mno Thank you. It really is awsome! Thank you for support and kind words on my journey, and sharing my success with me
@RosaCanDo I really put a lot in it. Its so āWOWā to look back at the last two years, and see what I have accomplished. Its true, we can not do it all alone, its many ways to sobriety but we all need support doing it. Thank you
@JazzyS Thank you so much. Thank you for all your nice words, all your care. I think everyone need a you in their life and in their journey. You are amazing! I hope for a better kinder 2024 for both me and you
@TrustyBird Thank you! I will be here waiting for you with a warm seat.
Keep up the good work
Unfortunately relapsed on day 265 at end of November. Only for 36 hours but reset and back up to day 30. Got very complacent, started to believe the euphoric recall thoughts about drinking but should of known it was the addiction talking. Also stopped doing my journal, things I am grateful for. Not missed a day since December 1st.
I always only realise it after those thoughts have passed that it was only my addiction taking all along. Drives me crazy cause I honestly am always about to believe those lies. Man that sucks!
Good thing you are back working on your sobriety.
I really need support right now at 1 month 11 days sober. Iām having horrible migraines so often now and that along with a few other things (think Iām going through post acute withdrawal symptoms) Iām really starting to think about drinking again. Starting to feel like giving up on my sobriety.
Are there any meds (ibuprofen, paracetamol) available to you for the migraines? If so, in my experience Itās always good to take something rather early to stop the migraine from progressing.
I did cancel gym this morning, I didnāt really feel in the mood for a packed out class. But I did do some quiet selfcare the past 48 hours. Finished a puzzle and a book. Cooked good food, had a super long bath and spent some quality family time watching Percy Jackson - the first of the original movies and a few episodes of the new series on Disney plus. Which one is better? Guess the jury is still out
So yesterday and today was a lot better than my annoying Thursday. Thanks @JazzyS and @CATMANCAM @Mno hope you feel better soon and get to start the new year fit and recovered @leroy Welcome to the family @Wakikki Congratulations
None that help currently I should probably pick some excedrin migraine thatās probably my best bet. Have had some sinus stuff going on not quite a cold so Iāve taken medicine for that twice now and hoping that helps Iām sure thatās causing it too. Caffeine does help a little so Iām drinking some now. Going to go get my daith pierced in a few days too, my sonās hair stylist suggested it, it helped her. Thereās a pressure point right there in the inner ear so that helps too
Iām really sorry you have to go through this pain. I know how bad migraines can get. Coffee helps me too Also rest, quiet and dark places.
I really hope you will find something that will ease your pain some.
Whatever you do, donāt give up on your sobriety. If you listen to the addiction, youāll have to go through this sick again another time. You made it this far. Iām rooting for you!
Checking in. Another day sober, another day without a fag. Each day at a time at the minute. I donāt care if I eat like a horse or not quite manage my normal day to day, I just wanna be able to say them 2 phrases each night and Iāll be happy. I got the rest of my life to work on the rest! Love to all xx
Checking in sober. I was off work all week, so feel a bit lost. New job starts Tuesday. I made myself clean out my closet and donate the clothes that donāt fit anymore. Which was most of it. That was hard. Bought a couple new pieces I can wear to work. After working from home for the last 3 years, I didnāt have much I could wear to an office. So thatās done.
I havenāt been sleeping well at all. My knee pain has really flared up. My eye is still bothering me. So mostly feel lousy. And now Iām feeling incredibly lonely. I was rewatching Schitts Creek, which I love, but feel like Iām never going to find a relationship like David and Patrick have. I feel like Iām going to be alone forever. I know thatās just the depression talking. But that doesnāt make me any less lonely. I donāt even feel all that close to anyone in my family. And no plans for NYE. Itāll be me and the cats.
I guess Iāll try to find something more distracting to watch onTV until itās time to go to bed.
Checking in 641 days
Iāve been a bit MIA on socials lately. I donāt know why, but socials and sharing online just hasnāt felt comfortable for me in recent months.
But I wanted to make a final check in on for 2023 and wish you all the best for a sober new years.
I took my l daughter for a girls trip before Christmas, came back with Covid and weāre all pretty much recovered now. It was such a lovely holiday. Everyone was drinking so much at the resort, there was beer available everywhere but I was strong and really enjoyed the fresh fruits, coconuts, soda and being in the moment.
Iām back to work in the new year, looking forward to another sober year.
Bought myself a little bottle of non alc bubbles to bring in the new year. Taking the kids to see the fireworks.
Take care friends, much love to you all.
Hey Family. Just checking in on which has been the hardest day since my new life began.
I was tested today, I thought that people who claim to love you have your best interests but that is not always the case. I tried to be around my partner and children today and it was a complete failure. My partner knows exactly what Iām going through and I get to her house and she is smoking a big spliff and drinking my old favourite drink without a care in the world. And just tried to find any reason to pick a arguement with me, I was literally there for 20 mins before I had to leave in a hurry. In the 10 years we been together I have stopped smoking and drinking many times, but she hasnāt even attempted unless she got no money. I have been clean for months before and tried to encourage her to do the same but she says, just because you stopped doesnāt mean everyone shouldš¤¦šæāāļø. I just really canāt do this anymore with her and to leave my 5 kids with her to be alone is really scary but there are no more options, she really thinks that life is a joke and smoking weed and drinking is all there is. I am the one trying to help myself to be a better father and partner to everyone, but some people just will never see the bigger picture till itās too late. The last 9 days I have gone to sleep knowing that my family will be waiting for me after this cold turk but tonight feels different. And for the first time in this 9 days I almost gave in to the temptation of numbing this pain with a substance but thank God that I didnāt because I would feel 10x worse.
Sorry for the essay but I just had to try and get this off my chest. Thank you all for the support throughout this journey, stay strong
that helps too
Also rest, quiet and dark places.
