Still hitting gym daily. Spoke with a personal trainer last night and she is putting together a weekly weight training program together for me so I just don’t hit every muscle in my body everyday, lol. The structure will help me immensely.
Another late night hockey game tonight in town so midnight getting home (), and snow heading for the weekend. Supposed to snow tonight through till Sunday, so I suspect lots of shovelling in my future.
My sleep has really come around and I’ve had 6 days straight of falling asleep around 9:30pm and awaking at 5:30am. So pretty stoked. Still zero interest in drinking and my blood sugar and blood pressure is moving in right direction. Doc vid call yesterday as well and booked my next blood work appt for March so we’ll see how I’m doing then.
Wishing you all a good sober day and hope you are keeping busy, or chillaxin on the coach with a good movie. Be well everyone
I’m sorry your daughter is going through that. You can only teach them to ignore it for so long, words hurt and some kids never understand that. I’m glad you didn’t give her a punishment, and I’m glad she stood up for herself.
Day 80. It feels good to have 80 days again and climbing towards that 3 months. No welbutrin sniffed, no other drugs of any sorts. Just sober, and the only two meds I take it my cymbalta and omprezal for heartburn. Last night was good, girls had ski club and then we got home and just kinda relaxed, last night I got to cuddle autumn for bed, had a little bit of a hard time falling asleep. We all woke up good and got them off to school, my last day to see my girls. When they get home they are excited to shave my head lol. And then there mom is picking them up around 5. My bike will be here today so that’s exciting, I was thinking of doing like a unboxing and review for YouTube, maybe do it with my girls and we can assemble it together. But tonight’s Friday so I’ll probably take it for a little ride over to the meeting and say hello. I wish the meetings they had here were over in Plattsburgh, id probably go more. There are much less people, and which is funny bc I hated that there was not many people at them at first. Now that I’ve been to some in Plattsburgh I don’t like all the people, I don’t try to take people’s inventory, but the meeting in Plattsburgh that happens at 7 I don’t like, it’s the only meeting I’d be able to hit after work if I wanted to go. It’s usually packed, and last couple times I’ve gone I notice a lot of people talk about others, or argue back and forth a lot. Or some people are trying to get pills or w.e but yeah idk just not a fan ATM. This was also a while ago when I went so maybe I could try again. I’m not against meetings at all, I do like the steps and believe they work if you work them. But I believe that’s true with life and sobriety in general. I tried renewing my girls health insurance through NYS health and they now say I make to much money and want like 500 a month for it. I’m not sure what to do bc I’m sure my job being union is going to have decent benefits for me and my girls, I just don’t know how long I have to be at the hospital before I can get the insurance. Yeah idk, today’s good. Danced and be goofy and enjoy life the best you can. Much love everyone. I’ll probably post a pic with my new bike in the selfie thread after, hope you all don’t mind.
Checking in on day 36. My Dad is flying into town to stay with me and we will be visiting family this weekend, all of whom drink. I will be staying sober. And I wil feel much better on Sunday than they will! ODAAT, have a wonderful Friday my fellow warriors
I’ve been thinking about how drinking alcohol (or using other drug of choice) is an act of trauma, definitely for the alcoholic drinker but perhaps for anyone who feels the need to escape. Beyond that, it is the ultimate act of self betrayal. Disrespecting ourselves, running from ourselves. Pouring poison into our bodies, damaging almost every system and organ we have. Removing us from moments on this earth we will never get back. For some of us, bringing out a monster or a person who is not us. Hurting those around us. Awakening with shame and guilt and regret and hopelessness. We often escape because of trauma, and then the use itself is more trauma. We stay stuck in the feelings and situations we are so desperate to be free of, and eventually we forget that there IS another way to feel and to live, and moreover that we deserve it.
I’m ready for a different life, and i ask for courage each day at a time to face the life I’ve made and to build a better one.
Morning guys checking in 142 SAF 128 no smokes.
Had a good time at the comedy show last night. I forgot to make dinner reservations, and by the time we got into the city everything had like a 2 hour wait, which surprised me for a Thursday night, we just ended up grabbing some food in the venue. We’ll go out to dinner another night. My son got another job offer playing bass in a band on the Holland America cruise so he’ll be leaving again for a few months. He’s only been home a couple of weeks. But it’s always nice when he’s here. Got a workout partner and all. But I’d much rather him be out traveling and enjoying youth
Have a great Friday and enjoy your weekend sober and free. Love yous
@scorpn Oh I am so sorry Renee. Kids are just down right assholes sometimes but the adults not doing anything about it for 8+ years is down right criminal. Do they not know by now that bullying causes so many disorders and mental issues. Parents and school administration should be so fucking ashamed for themselves. I am grateful that you are not punishing her for how she stood up for herself. There really is only so much any one can take. I do wish you luck with online schooling. @dustysprungfield congrats on your 3 months + of sobriety. So glad to see you doing well and that is a huge accomplished feeling that you are able to book a family vacation cause you are sober. Be proud of yourself and keep stacking up the days @mno woot woot Mno – 1700 days is fantastic. Thank you for being such an amazing inspiration on TS. @forgive_yourself So grateful that you are here with us and find this community as supportive and loving as I do. Wishing you the best of luck with couples therapy @soberwalker OMG that is the best sign I have seen and the perfect time for it. Thank you Claudia. Rest def should be part of our plan @holysquid check you out with your 3’s! I do hope you enjoy your day of self care and active recovery work! A lovely way to start off the weekend. @ForrestKump Oof that is some serious thinking going on and a lot of emotions to work through – can’t imagine it would be an easy move. Are you able to discuss this with them and request to stay or possibly do remote (not sure if that is an option). Wishing you luck with whatever happens. @trixie1 Well done with no vape January! Hope you have a wonderful vacation – safe travels. @Jasty2 So very cool about your son’s gig - oh man i’m excited for him LOL. What ports does the cruise line visit?
Checking in on Friday morning… lol, had to check that it still is morning
Had my 3 cups of coffee today - i can feel that i went over my limit. Needed it as still not able to sleep. I am grateful to be up and alert and in a fairly happy mental space. Have a lot to do today so going to hop to it. Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
), and snow heading for the weekend. Supposed to snow tonight through till Sunday, so I suspect lots of shovelling in my future.
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