Goodmorning from sunny Massachusetts on day
284 no alcohol
215 no vapes or ciggs
85 no thc
Bsby is sleeping great. Moms a littlebtired but i dont blame her. Her job is just as hard or harder then me going to work.
Im on my way to work now
Take care everyone
Good morning, everyone! I haven’t checked in for a few days. I’ve only popped on for a few minutes here and there to see what everyone’s been up to. Woke up to more snow yesterday morning. Im soooo tired of winter. There’s not a single thing i like about it. I still made myself go out and do everything i planned yesterday. I got my recent purchases for the service organization i belong to inventoried and put away, made a list of items i need to buy for an upcoming fundraiser and went shopping for them and groceries for home. I drove down to an Amish community that has a great surplus/discount grocery store. It’s a beautiful drive and i got some great deals. It was a long but productive day. I have a lot to get done today, too, but I’m being a little lazy this morning. I’ve been feeling sorta blah. Im still dealing with some pain in my hip from the MRI Thursday, but it’s getting better. I’m overdue for my B12 shot, which I’m going to give myself as soon as i get motivated to get off the couch. That should definitely help.
Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Checking in on day 221 days AF. Wishing all a relaxing day.
156 days af
ODAAT
Checking in day 48 AF 
Happy sober sunday everyone have a great day.
3 . 8
Day 239 second check in. House feeling calmer and back to normal
Listening to folklore by taylor swift. 
This evening will watch a film. I’m clear our visitors can’t stay again till their dog is house trained and their kids say please and thank you
49 days, feeling a little bit ‘meh’ today. But still strong, and very much sober. I have family visiting and i am enjoying their company despite feeling a bit overwhelmed by it. Wishing you all the very best!
@juli1 Way to go with 19 days love! Sorry about the damn chat that left you feeling so empty. I do hope that good mom time helped brighten your day 
@catmancam Oh that is great news – hope that the doctor can quickly get you to a dermatologist. Glad you finally got your bank card and got things sorted. Keep that progress going – love all your timers!
@misokatsu I totally know the sensation of every little thing setting you off. Little things when you say out loud but huge as you feel them in the moment. I do hope your day got better as the day progressed. Big hugs Flo 
@just_laura Damn that sounds like a messed up frustrating night. I do hope that you are able to get in a nap or two today to recharge the battery. I am not sure but I feel like something in the air messing with sleep as I hear many people having issues sleeping lately. I do hope the cosmos reset soon.
@chevy55 Woot Woot! 44 days is amazing work my friend. I know how frustrating it is when you are doing the right things and not seeing results. Keep at it friend – everyone’s body is different and works in a different way. Maybe try different workouts as our bodies get used to the same movement over time. Keep at it Nick – will hopefully be seeing results soon. No harm can come from leading a healthy life 
@trustybird OOH I am excited to see you getting some time off and going on your vacations. I do hope you enjoy them thoroughly in celebration of your 2 year milestone and your upcoming birthday
@forgive_yourself Sorry that today is an off day. I do hope that you are able to find a way to be gentle with yourself and take it easy. Sending you hugs as you work through today. Here if you need to talk
@shel75 sorry you are still dealing with pain from the MRI shot. I do hope you get the results quickly and that they are able to help you with whatever is causing you pain / discomfort. Rest and relax today.
@shybert can relate to getting overwhelmed with company (even wanted company at times can wear me out). Hoping that your meh mood lifts and you are able to enjoy the rest of your weekend.
Checking in on Sunday afternoon
Still not getting much sleep or any relief. Glad i did finally take an Aleve to help tone down the migraine that started last night - it is so much more manageable now.
had a lovely time with my parents this morning just drinking coffee/ chatting and prepping (bedroom and meals) for after the surgery.
going to try to get some work done and then attempt a nap.
wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you so much love
Honestly, I’m still awake and surprisingly pretty alert. It’s one of those times when you only get a couple hours of sleep but apparently that’s all you needed 
I definitely had many of those nights during my drinking days, except I’d wake up still drunk and take a few swigs to keep me going 
I will, however, take this over the ‘I got 12 hours of sleep and I’m exhausted!’ kinda night any day. Hope your migraine goes away. They are no fun 
Hope you get that headache pushed aside and get the rest you so deserve.
Enjoy the remainder of your weekend.
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Thank you Jazzy, yeah i love company but having alone time is important for me too! Have good remainder of your weekend!
52 days.
Nice chilled weekend. Not thinking about drinking much anymore apart from a few triggering movie/TV moments where I romanticise. Went for a swim for the first time in a while, super nice.
One week left of work.
Have a good Sunday all.
Checking in from the city 
Sleep is never great at my moms, its so open and my son seems to know he isnt homr and wakes up a bunch. But all in all its been pretty good, things are quite heavy but to be expected. Trying to figure out the schedule for the trial and how much I should be there.
Part of me feels like I want to be there everyday I can and bring earplugs if I dont want to listen. The other part of me feels like it serves no purpose to me to have all of the information regarding my aisters death and to have to listen to the defense. I think it is a lot of trauma waiting to happen, and yet I very much so feel like how can i not go? Like i need to know. I need to know these things especially to understand the outcome. I need to know what they are going to try and say about her so I can know what to say in my victim impact statement. I am, of two minds when it comes to this.
Love my kids & family, trying to stay tall but it has besn very difficult. I have found it very baffling/eye opening how we have been treated by CPS, given that we are not as vulnerable i would say as many of the families they generally deal with. If they would treat us this way, in a situation where we have done absolutely nothing wrong, where we have spent money on a lawyer (getting close to 30 gs now btw my mom dad and I), and I am very articulate and solution focused and I dont allow myself to be steamrolled…but if, as homicide aurvivors this is happening to us I imagine how people are treated everyday by them and there is no oversight. There is no one holding them accountable, they put in their notes WHATEVER they want. We have been treated like assholes, and now because support has been coming to my nephew they are pivoting to try and make it seem like we are fleecing them somehow and it is us who is taking advantage of them. The depravity knows no bounds. But I feel a stedfastness in my bones, I feel …not a power; no power is too ridiculous a word…but a grasp, resolve something.
I read something the other day that said something along the lines of how many intelligent and intuitive women have been called crazy simply because they have exposed someone elses shit? I dont think i have EVER seen the world this way before, so vividly. Again, i have always believed in corruption and i have a dislike for money, manipulative materialism and politicism of our world. Been tjis way for as long as I can remember. But i have never understood how you can be made the enemy, that level of manipulation. I dont think i ever understood that. I just thouhht you fight for whats right, and sure some people wont like it…but as shrewd as I have been and as much trust issues as Ive ever had…i feel like a literal child, naive and doe-like learning being today years old and learning truly how manipulative and messed up people can be.
Wow i always take a turn for the light!!! Anyway, dont take me too heavily im a cerebral nightmare going through something. Bless you all for giving me this space to spew XO & happy sobriety! Im 7 months now
Remarkable work Mira …7 months is impressive. Grateful that you’ve protected and maintained your sobriety through all that you are going through. Remember we are always here if you need support. Wishing you strength as you face this trial and sending you love
Sounds likeva frustrating day and I hope today is better!
Day 48. I am very grateful to be sober. I’ve definitely been depressed this week and I have slept in and not wanted to get out of bed this weekend. This morning, I was meeting friends at 11am for an early lunch/late breakfast. I got a text from one of them around 10:20 that she was already at the restaurant! Well, that got my butt out of bed. I got up and dressed and was there 10 mins before our 11am meeting time and I was the last one there. There was a wait for a table at the restaurant, so it all worked out, as we didn’t get called for another 5 minutes or so. Too funny. 10 minutes early is really good for me but I’ll need to remember that this is a “get there very early” group. We had a nice visit and then I went for a walk with one of my friends. Happy Sunday to all!
Checking in
2 years 5 days
20 minutes left of work and im heading home. I cant wait to get out of here honestly. Its been a looooong day. I am heading to the dollarstore on the way home and will try and grab some healthier snacks for tonights overnight shift with my son. My husband has caught a cold as well, probably caught it from our son, so hes resting. Basically tonight consists of laundry, dishes, and making supper. Then doing the awake overnight shift. I am craving my DOC right now. So theres that too blah 
But it too shall pass. Hope everyone has a great day/evening.
