Day 69. Card from the set my kiddo gave me on my bday. “New Beginnings. Robin reminds you that life moves in cycles of continual change. Even in times of uncertainty, have faith that everyday day brings new beginnings.” - Robin’s Nest
It’s nice. It’s called Backyard Blessings. She knows I was out of my last card set and knows I love the outdoors and my accident has made me afraid of going out there. I keep trying to talk myself into small walks, after a good meal. We are in a beautiful area.
Congrats on day 6. Your positive attitude will help a lot.
2 years 23 days
Good afternoon TS fam! Been the usual busy day so far. Hit the gym, ran an errand, cleaned the home. The usual stuff lol Feeling grateful for the gorgeous weather we are having today. Finally entered the plus degrees and hoping it continues. Thats about it for me. Have a great day everyone!
Checking in. Today’s therapy session got postponed to tomorrow, I’m looking forward to it, because my feelings have been messed up this week, I can still get lost in anger and pain and overthinking, but speaking with her always helps to set back my focus. I might try gratitude and journaling as a tool to change my approach, these used to help in the middle of the grief, but then I just dropped them, not sure why, I guess I’m just not persistent when it comes to integrating self-help into my everyday life.
You really don’t need that drink Yelena. You will be ok.
The weather forecast for the next 3 days here 38° 38° 37° not alot you can do when it’s that hot. Buckle up for the ride @apes2020
Day 2 Update. The urges to use again are starting to come back. Gotta stay strong and remember why im here and how bad it is when i do use.
Yes, people around here have said to play the tape forward when you think of using. Not the beginning, how it feels at the end. I realize it isn’t worth it when I do that. Hang in there, we’re with you.
Day 59 AF
Day 177 doc free
Evening Check in. Been an emotional day. Allowed myself to rest. Participated in aftercare group. No in person meetings today. Feel guilty as it’s a commitment I try to honour. Recovery first. No more excuses.
Good 24 all. Thankful for this community.
Checking in day 67 
All good over here… not much to say… life’s been busy… I’ve been reading on here when I can but not as much as id like… waiting for things to settle down a bit
Much love to yall 
that made me laugh out loud hahahah… I sure do go on about anything and everything bwhahahahaaa… I’m always fascinated when people actually read all the words! Shoot, they are too long for me to even proofread, I’d bore myself to death lol 
I don’t know why my counter is still on day 1379. I have it set to switch at midnight and I posted before midnight yesterday. Oh well, I guess I’m still on day 1379, that’s messed up man lol
I worked straight through the night last night and I’m determined to go to bed tonight. I just need to get my new little business off the ground. The up front work is massive, but eventually I’ll get buy with just a few hours a week or day depending on how I feel 
@steve14 Woot Woot! That is awesome friend – great work on 1 more month under your belt 
Smart in changing up your daily routines when you feel in a rutt… hopefully with that and also the weather change soon will help you feel more purposeful
@catmancam oh man Cam – grateful that you asked about the letter and are now having this looked into. Hopefully they will be able to help clear your lungs and your breathing will improve quickly 
Big hugs my friend- I’m so sorry that you experienced the panic attack today. Sending you peaceful healing vibes. I do hope you have a better nights sleep tonight.
@mischa84 a lot of big up’s girl! Sorry that social media made you feel anything less than awesome. Fuck that shit! I stay away from all Social Media except for TS cause we just don’t have time in our lives for fake shit that will bring us down. Keep your head up Mischa – you are wonderful!
Great to see you checking in my friend. Glad you are back on the sober track and working on your journey. I love what you wrote and we do gain knowledge and tools from our previous journeys. Rewiring the brain can take some time so keep working on changing up those habits
@ofmiceandroach Congrats on your 1 month Emma. I do enjoy the 0% Heineken or Guinness from time to time. Keep stacking up the days
@tragicfarinelli However you look at it – it’s awesome! Great work love – keep it going
@deelzebub Great work Delia! 9 months straight stretch is amazing work but so is your overall sober time in the past 2 years! You should be super proud of yourself Absolutely gorgeous view – thanks for capturing and sharing
@yelena Welcome back to TS and to the sobriety journey. Tomorrow may be a testing day and hard but we are here for you. Lean on us or whatever support you have as we can not do this journey alone. We got your back friend – you are not alone! ODAAT
@newbeginning1 try to find something to keep you busy. I would play games on my phone, do puzzles, clean the house, go for a walk…etc – whatever you can to not give power to the urges. You can get through this my friend – One second at a time
@lotusflower I see you working on your journey and recovery Des – you are putting in some serious effort. I know life happens at times and we can’t always do what we want the way we want it. I am sorry you were not able to get to the in person meeting – hopefully you will have a back up for when that happens (on line meeting or double up on recovery in some other way). Just try not to be guilty – this is what our disease thrives on. You keep rocking those days girl – I see you coming up on 2 months – can’t wait to celebrate with you tomorrow :hugs
Checking in on Thursday night
442 days free of alcohol and weed
857 days free of weed
Not much to report. I managed to get some work done and sorted out with accounting. Sales tax reports had an issue and finally got sorted out too. So feeling good about that as i didn’t think i would have the brain power or energy to tackle any of this.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
Checking in Day 264 AF. Sleep well everyone
Day 515
Tomorrow is their first field trip since before COVID!!
Only one week into a new school and we are all so much happier!
Yay
97 days
Had a good nightshift last night so was an active day. Got a run in on the treadmill at work, then home to drop the kids to school. Gym, then even mowed the lawns.
Currently cooking dinner and just waiting for my rugby league team to play tonight. Round 1 of the season.
Winter sports (and sports in general) have always been associated with drinking for me as a player and a spectator. Not this season.
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Work was alright. I walked into a disaster tho. Apparently they were stuck there til 1am after the disco Saturday and didn’t feel like finishing their work, which was supervised by the other manager who has complained about work not being done when I close. If she had walked into what I walked into, everyone would get ‘a talking to’ bc she wouldn’t shut up about it. She’s the type who would rather get angry and complain to as many people as possible while the work sits unfinished. Luckily it was slow so it kept me busy my whole shift just getting the place back to normal. Funny thing is, when I left around 10 on Sat, everyone was saying how bored they were waiting for the disco to be over…hmm. I could’ve thought of at least 10 things to fill their time bc I did them today 
Our manager was made aware of this this time bc I’m sick of getting blamed for things not getting done by the same person who didn’t get things done.
Rest of my night was good. Just normal after school stuff. Getting tired already so maybe I’ll try and get some extra sleep. Goodnight 
Checking in on day 70…got to babysit my 4 month old great niece this evening and it was just heavenly…g’night my fellow sober journeyers! ODAAT 
Checking in Day 78! Today was a good day,
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Do you know what today is? It’s our anniversary 
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My wife called and signed up for our local radio station to give us a shout-out for our anniversary, upon doing that, we also were chosen as winners of a free lunch and free engraving on our yeti cups by a local company.
I took my 6 year old to the doctor this morning to revisit. He has adhd and we had to take a paper back that his teachers had to fill out about his attentiveness and behavior. We were prescribed some medicine today and we are on a trial for 9 days. I’m excited, he really is a smart kid, just all over the place, and if it’s not something he’s enjoying, he cant get into it and focus. I’m hoping for the best.
Oh yeah, I went into a local store to get laundry detergent, fabric softener, dryer sheets, and downy unstoppable beads and a few other items…well that ended up being $207 and 2 hours later. Hahaha.
My wife and I attended our local election forum, as my wife is the chief of police, secretary, so went to go and support chief and some of the alderman/alderwoman.
We then went out to eat at a nice Seafood restaurant in the area, maw maw watched the kids for us, and we were able to enjoy a dinner just the two of us.
“I gotta say, today was a good day”
Day 127 my time is building and my thought process has shifted.
I have a sporting event tomorrow where in the past would have triggered a drinking session that would in turn have seen me bingeing for 3 or 4 days. It’s not really even a consideration on this occasion. I have plans for post event that I’m looking forward to. It’s a sure sign for me that my mindset has shifted.
I think it’s an important part of what we’re all doing here. Just white knuckleing it is tough and rarely successful. Bringing yourself to a place where your drug of choice isn’t the go to option is the goal for me.
Much love to all those struggling out there this morning, I know that might sound hollow or of little good to you right now but I’ve been there, I’ve danced with the devil but remember, this too shall pass.
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 9.
Woke up early to a frozen sunny world again.
Everything feels so much better when the sun shines. I know it’s going to be a pretty warm day, yesterday we came up in + 6 degrees Celsius and had sunshine all day.
I spent almost all day outside in the sun. Had my 11 o’clock coffee outside, my husband burned in the new bbq grill he bought a few weeks ago. He’s been looking at it for years and finally we could afford to buy it. He’s been having it mounted in the living room just waiting for the sun ti come out.
Yesterday was the day. And we’re planning on trying it as mutas we can this weekend.
It’s one of those ceramic Kamado bbq grill things so for the first time even I’m also a bit excited because it says you can even bake things like desserts and pizza with it. Need to try that.
My 12 y/o has bought a new fishing rod, a casting rod for his own money. I’ve promised to teach him how to use it on Sunday. He’s only been using an angle rod before, so he’s really exciting. I’m really nervous, don’t want to have any injuries.
Wishing you all a wonderful day,and a great weekend.